You guys hate me !! I know I know !!
I was sick .. I had bad food poisoning ;s
Anyways I'm all better now so here's a juicy post for you all !!
I love you !!
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Two Years Later...
Me: It's her 3rd birthday for god's sake how could the cake not be here yet !!!
Msh3al: Jen relax I'm going to call them now and see what's taking them.
Me: I arranged a meeting with them a month ago !! And they can't even bring the cake on time !!
Msh3al: Hello.... yes hi I'm calling on behalf of Jenah Al-Flani.... mm hmmmm.... so how long would it take ?......... no we can't wait that long tha party is in an hour..... alright.... thanks....
Me: So ?!
Msh3al: Ummm it's gonna be a while...
Me: What do you mean it's gonna be a while !!!
Msh3al: Ok calm down... they are just running a bit late.
Me: No... the guests are waiting.. 7aram no.. I'm going to get the cake.
Msh3al: Jenah...
Me: I'll be back as soon as I can.
He's always there for me. In the past two years we''ve managed to become really good friends. He lives just a few minutes away, so he can come and see Nouf whenever he wants.
Everything was going so well. But what about Bader right ?
Ever since that night I've tried contacting him but his phone would be disconnected. Didn't take him long enough to do that huh?
I just wish he could have explained to me what the hell was going on inside his head. He always gave me mixed signals. I never knew what his intentions were. One minute I'd think I know, then the next I'm completly cluless.
Two years and NOTHING from him.
It's not like I haven't tried. I've been on a couple od blind dates and I've dated this guy for about three months but we broke up.
I herd a couple of times that Bader was back in town and was looking to visit me but I ignored.
Me: What do you mean it's not ready ?!?!
Cheif: I'm so sorry miss but --
Me: NO BUT !! I WANNA SPEAK TO THE OWNER !!
Cheif: Miss this is a newly opened buisness please...
Me: It's my daughter's 3rd birthday !! No I will not just let this go !! I made this order a month ago !! You know for a newly opened buisness you sure don't stick to your word ! Now where's the owner !!
Cheif: Ummm.. he won't be here for a while..
Me: Well then I'll wait..
I gave him a huge smile and sat down.
Waited.........
And waited ...............
And Waited ........................
Me: OK WHERE THE HELL IS THE OWNER IT'S BEEN AN HOUR ALREADY !!!
Bader: Still with the temper I see...
Me: Bader...
Bader: Hey Jay.
Me: This is your bakery ?
Bader: Haha you seem surprised.
Me: Well it's not everyday you see a lawyer open up a bakery..
Bader: Ah but you see I still am a lawyer AND I own a bakery...
Me: But why a bakery ?
Bader: My mom always wanted to open up a bakery.. she passed away a couple months ago..
Me: Oh my god Bader... I'm so sorry...
I came closer to try and comfort him but he took a step back.
Bader: Yeah... she was amazing in the kitchen. I found alot of her own recipe's.
Me: And you wanted to make them...
Bader: Yeah, so anyways what's the problem ?
Me: Oh you know what forget it... I gotta get going anyways...
Bader: Jenah what is it ?
Me: Well it's Nouf's 3rd birthday and I came here a month a go to have a cake customized and well they don't have it ready...
Bader: Y7lelha Nouf... allah y5aleeha lek inshallah... Mmmm about the cake I'm so sorry.. I can have a cake ready for you in two hours, how does that sound ?
Me: The birthday is taking place right now.. the cake is already an hour late of skedual. Really it's ok I'll just take a couple od cupcakes and light em' up.
Bader: Jay I'm so sorry.. I feel so bad.
Me: It's ok.
He went into the kitchen to get someone to box a few cupcakes. The second he was out of my sight, I ran out.
I couldn't handel seeing him. God knows how I remained calm during those few minutes.
I passed by Basken Robin's on my way home and bought a huge chocolate icecream cake. I know it wasn't perfect, but the most important thing was for Nouf to make her birthday wish and blow out the candels.
The party ended at 9 and I was exhausted. Nouf was beat, she wouldn't take a breath once. She was the center of attention all day. Running around and playing with all of her friends. This is what a mother lives for. Seeing that million dollar smile on their babies.
The next morning I woke up to find a little treat on my front door. A little velvet box, and inside it was a mini vanilla cupcake. There was a card too, which read: "I know their your favorite."
Do you blame me if I smiled ?
It was sweet.. but that did not mean I was going to see him again.
Why is it that no matter what happens he's always in my life ?
I licked a bit of the frosting ontop then threw it in the trash.
As I do every morning, I checked my email with a cup of tea.
I recieved an e-mail...
I had my reasons. I know you must probably hate me now, but trust me I hate myself more for letting you go. That was the biggest mistake of my life. Your probably rolling your eyes ight now right? Well you have every right to. I broke your heart, and I'm so sorry. Jay you have no idea how sorry I am. Your all I think about, every day and night. Damn I sound so pathetic right now, and your cracking a smile right now. I know ya'..
I know I have no right to be writing you this e-mail but I had to. I promised myself I wouldn't contact you personaly, but after seeing you yesterday I couldn't resist.
Everytime I see you... you just keep getting more beautiful.
Now I have a favor to ask..
I want you Jenah... Leaving you was a mistake! And god I wish I could take it back!
Your the one Jenah! It's you!
Can I ask for one more chance ?
Is it even possible?
Just give me hope.. hope that maybe.. someday.. I just want hope.
And I don't care what it takes !
This time I'm gonna fight for you!
I lost you once and I wont lose you again!
I love you... I never stopped loving you...
