Whew!! I'm finaly back home!! :D
I know I promised a post on Monday bs knt 9yma fa I didn't really have the energy to write. So here is part A, and inshallah aw3adkm part B tomorrow inshallah.
Like I said Suzy is back for good :)
I love you all and missed you so much AND I hope you guys are having an awesome summer. ;** ((oo wain my comments :( aby my comments back :( I miss my comments :( Lazim tshaj3ooni and your comments always to do that.. you guys make me wanna go on writing and never quit))
Oh and just before I start the post off, I wanna dedicate a few words to someone very dear to me.. I just hope that person is reading this right now..
You don't know what you got, till your missing it allot
I had to go throw it away
I was wrong from the start, from the bottom of my heart I apologize
What I did to you was hurtful
What I'm going through is hurtful
I used to bide my time
I used to beat around the bush
I'd rather give my ego another push
I used to be a fool
It was a foolish game I played
And it's a fools fate counting mistakes I've made
Once I had it right it was all too late
... I was wrong from the start, from the bottom of my heart I apologize
What I did to you was hurtful
What I'm going through is hurtful
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I started helping out more and more at the center. I would see Bader there sometimes and he'd come over and say hello, but that was it. After we went out for lunch that day, he kind of started to distant himself away from me. I didn't know why. Was it something I did ?
Meanwhile Farah and I were back to normal. We decided to forget about what happened and move past it. Also by the looks of it, She and Fahad seemed to be getting along better. I was so glad that they were willing to put their differences aside for me.
One morning while I was walking towards the entrance of the clinic I saw Bader walking out. He saw me but didnt even bother to say a word. He just walked right passed me like I wasn't even there. I've had it with him!! I needed to know what the hell was wrong with him!! What the hell did I do?
Oh so is this how it's gonna be from now on ?
Excuse me ?
Did I do something to offend you ? No, really tell me. What could I have possibly done to make you act like such an ass whole ?!
It's not you...
Well then...
Why don't you ask Fahad... I gotta go.
Huh?... Wait what does he have to do with this ?
Fahad picked me up from work later that evening and I decided to tell him about what happened earlier today with Bader.
Aha.. well nothing comes to mind really. He's obviously just trying to point blame on somebody close to you.
I dunno.. this isn't him. Are you sure you haven't said anything? Maybe you said something that bothered him.
The guy and I haven't even sat down to a cup of coffee for me to even say something.
I'm just really worried about him that's all...
So you don't believe me ?
Of course I believe you.. but it just makes no sense at all why he would ask me to ask you. How could you have a roll in any of this.
Exactly! That guy is delusional!
The next day I called in sick. I woke up to this high fever. I felt so cold and shivers would run all over my body. I had no idea where all of this came from. My mom called in a doctor and he said that it was just a normal fever. All I needed was a bit of bed rest and some medication and I'd be fine. Luckily it wasn't anything serious. I'm the type of person that always rushes to conclusions when it comes to these things.
On that night Farah and I were supposed to spend the evening together, but due to be coming down with a fever she decided to bring over take out and we would pop in some DVDs.
So Fahad has no idea to what Bader was talking about ?
Nope. Nothing.
Hmmm... well why don't you try asking Bader what he meant. And then go back and talk to Fahad about it and see his reaction. I bet you'll easily know whether he's lying or telling the truth. Its all about confrontation.
Hahaha where do you get all of this ?
Let's see.... I have no boyfriend, therefore I have no life.
Aha.. and I can see by that wide smile on your face how proud you are of that.
Oh yeah yeah.. so proud that the self centred bastard HAITHAM didn't return ANY of my damn phone calls!!!
MMMM... here's a thought, why don't you try calling him again ?
Oh yeah and be the needy desperate girl ?? No thank you !!
Ok are you here to make me feel better or are you here to vent about your STILL NOT DEVELOPED relationship with Haitham ?
While we were discussing Farah's little dilemma, I got a text from Fahad saying that he was outside my house wanting to get it.
I asked Farah to go downstairs and unlock the door to let him in. She refused at first but once I put on my sad puppy dog look, she had no choice but to give in.
My parents were early birds so they sleep at around 11. I would always be the only one awake in the entire house.
Ya ba3ad 3umri ta3bana..
Ee shayef 7beebi..
Ok eww.. ama go.
Faroo7 yallah 3ad please stay. The 3 of us can watch a movie.
As lovely as that sounds I think I'm gonna pass.
How about I walk you out ?
Oh no you don't have to really. It was a pleasure just walking up the stairs with you.
Oh before I forget Farah...
What?
Have you ever fallen down a flight of stairs ?
Uhh.. no why ?
Just asking. But trust me it kills...
Inshallah part B tommorow. Have a good night my pretties.. I love each and every one of you so so much and I missed like hell !! Muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuwaaaaaaaah !! ;**
