Wallah asfa 6awalt 3leeekm. Sam7oony ;**
I've been a bit sick. Bs el7mdelah I'm all better now.
I missed you all !
I missed you all !!!! ;''''''(
7awooooooooooriii !! <3
Nawariiiiii <3
Cherri Muffin <3
Zaaaaaaaaaain <3
Identity <3
Standy <3
Bluelillies <3
Geraninium <3
Looyah <3
AND ALL OF YOU !!!
The first 5 of you rarely comment anymore !!!
and 7awooor 7beebety I know im not commenting like I used to !!
But im still reading and am addicted like CRAZY !!
I will start commenting and responding to comments too !!!
Im sorryyyyyyyyyy !!!
Bs these days ma feeni 7ail asawi shay !
Im sure you guys know how that is right ?
The first five bloggers I MISS YOU !! WHERE ARE YOU !!
ILY ALL SO MUCH !!! ;******************
Jenah: Hend ??
Msh3al: Bader ??
Jenah: You go first..
Msh3al: Ladies first..
Jenah: I went to see him today BUT ONLY because he's left several messages. And umm...
Msh3al: What ?
Jenah: He's still in love with me..
Msh3al: Do you still love him ?
Jenah: No !
Msh3al: Jen ...
Jenah: I dont ok! I dont! I love you! Now what about Hend ?
Msh3al: She stopped by my office. She tried to... you know. But I didn't let her.
Jenah: So now what ?
Msh3al: Now... now we get a divorce.
Jenah: You can't be serious ?
Msh3al: 7beebty I want you to be happy..
Jenah: I'm haooy with you !
Msh3al: I know 7beebty, bs Bader would make you much more happier. I saw the look in your eyes when I asked if yo still loved him.
Jenah: What so your just gonna give up on us ?
Msh3al: If you think I'm upset, I'm not. Bel3ax I've been thinking about it for a while now. I love you so much Jenah and I always will but I have to let you go. You belong with him.
Jenah: I cant believe these words are coming out for your mouth...
Msh3al: Can you honestly tell me you dont love him ?
Jenah: What about Nouf ?
Msh3al: She'll be fine as long as her mothers fine.
Jenah: But I am fine!
Msh3al: Ha2! I want you to be happy not fine.
Jenah: Wow you've really thought this through...
Msh3al: Aham shay 3ndi Jenah is your happiness...
Did he really mean what he said ?
At first I thought he was making fun of the whole thing. But then his words started to hit me.
This was it !
My key !
I was finaly going to be with Bader !
Ofcourse I loved Msh3al but Bader... ahhhhhhh Bader !!
The divorce was finalized in two days.
The only problem is.. Bader wasn't picking up.
I even stopped by his place but no one would answer. I guess he was out of town or something.
Thank god Msh3al gave me full custody of Nouf. He also gave me the house, and bought a smaller house a few minutes away from mine. Still he would be apart of Nouf's life and get to see her whenever she wanted. I always thought that if I ever got divorced it would be horrible. Me and my husband fighting all the time. But this was going to work. I could easily tell that Msh3al and I were going to be good friends.
I knew he still loved me. But he was willing to let me go and move on. He was willing to lose his happiness to give me mine.
A week after the divorce I finaly contacted Bader. He was away with a couple of friends.
I asked him to come over so we could talk. He didnt hesitate and rushed right over.
Bader: I don't believe it...
Me: Me neither.. but it is what it is.
Bader: Is he ok ?
Me: He wanted this for me. For us.
Bader: I don't know Jenah...
Me: But now we can finaly be together. After all this time.
Bader: I can't do this to Msh3al.
Me: That didn't stop you before.
Bader: Then was diffirent. I hurt him once, I can't hurt him again.
Me: Bader.. I just got a divorce.
Bader: I know. And if that makes you happy then I'm happy for you. But I can't be with you. As much as it kills me to say.. I just can't.
Me: I really wish I was deaf right now.
Bader: Jenah ---
Me: NO! What about last week? When you said you still loved me? Was it just a in the moment thing?
Bader: Nothing with you is ever a moment thing. Everything with you is all real.
Me: So then what Bader WHAT ? I love you so much GOD I've wanted to say that for such a long time. I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU !!! PLEASE DON'T DO THIS !
Bader: Jenah stop acting insane please !!
Me: How could you be so cold !
Bader: Let's face reality Jenah. Us, me and you, it can't ever happen.
Me: Get out of my house.
Bader: Don't be foolish. Let's talk about this.
Me: I really don't want my temper to rise. Get out of my house!
And that was the last I ever saw of Bader.
He broke my heart.
When he walked out those doors, I lost apart of me. Apart of me he took with him.
He left me cold and weak inside.
Why did he do this to me ?
Was I not what he wanted ?
Was I just a fun little game ?
Did he even love me at all ?
TWO YEARS LATER...
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
The Other Man 23
Msh3al: You pulled her hair ?
Me: Served her right for calling me a whore !
Msh3al: Allah yehdeki !
Me: Dude she called your wife a whore !
Msh3al: Just let it go Jen, let it go. Ensana ma tsta7i..
Nawal: OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IS THIS A CATFIGHT I HEAR !!
Msh3al: La 7oooooooooooool .. I'm gonna leave you to ladies alone !!
Me: Sit sit we must speak !!
Nawal: Do tell my darling !!
Did Bader turn the story around to make himself seem like the good guy? Cause as I recall, it was him who came into me.
And I honestly thought Dalia would take this all in a mature way. Instead she acted like such an animal barging into my house.
A few weeks had gone by and I haven't herd from Dalia, but Bader on the other hand had left me several voicee mail's.
Jenah I'm so sorry! I didn't mean for this to happen! Please call me back so we can talk...
Jenah c'mon please pick up.. I know there's no excuse of how I talked to you that day. But we have to deal with this in a more mature way PLEASE !!
This is the third message Jenah.. your gonna have to pick up sometime! I won't stop calling until you do!!
I swear I didn't lie! I told Dalia the eveyrthing!
I certainly wasn't just going to 3ala6ool call him back. After the word's he said to me, no. This time he has to earn it. I'm done being treated like crap!
Meanwhile things were going alot better with Nawal and Jamal. Day by day their diffrences started to disappear. With the help of thier counciler they've learned to communicate better and settle all their issues. It was only a matter of time...
One night Msh3al stopped by a restuarant to get us some takeout. As he was waiting, he saw a familiar face all the way at the back of the restuarant. He knew he shouldn't move and just stay put, but he couldn't. His body just took control of him and dragged his feet.
Dalia: Oh Msh3al hey..
Msh3al: Did you call my wife a whore ?
Dalia: I'm fine thanks and yourself ?
Msh3al: You didn't answer my question.
Dalia: Why don't you have a seat.
Msh3al: I prefer standing. Now answer my question.
Dalia: Wow.. I'm sorry but I just can't understand how you could be with someone who cheatd on you.
Msh3al: We've worked through it. And not that it's any of your buisness but I cheated too.
Dalia: Well then I guess that make's you a man whore now doesn't it ?
Msh3al: E7medy rabik inah I was raised better than to hit women.
Ain't she just a little bitch ?
I mean don't you just hate it when you think you know someone, like really know them and then then suddenly they stab you in the back ?
After a few day's of desperate messages I finaly decided to call Bader. Msh3al was working late at the office so I'd have an easy route.
Bader: She shoud have never called you a whore...
Jenah: What do you wan't Bader ?
Bader: I wanna apologize on her behalf, and fully on mine. I should have never treated you the way I did. You've been nothing but wonderful to me and I hurt you. You didn't deserve that.
Jenah: Your right I didn't...
Bader: Jenah ? ...
Jenah: You get one last thing to say and then I'm gone.
Bader: I can't forget you...
Jenah: .....
Bader: Jen ?
Jenah: Please tell me your joking! What about Dalia ?!
Bader: She's not you...
Jenah: I canno---
Bader: Just answer me this, am I forever out of your heart ?
Jenah: ....... Your not ev--- you ca--- you just ca-- ....
He took both his hands and cupped my face.
His eyes staring deep into mine.
Then he whispered...
Bader: I love you...
While Msh3al was at the office packing up ready to come home, he get an unexpected visitor...
Msh3al: Hend ...
Hend: It's been a while ....
Msh3al: What are you doing here ?
Hend: I missed you ...
Msh3al: I'm married Hend ...
Hend: That didn't stop you before...
Msh3al: Things are diffrent now.
Hend: We both know that what we had was real.
Msh3al: It was but I have a family now.
Hend: I know it's wring of me to just walk in here like this but.. I never stopped loving you Msh3al.
Msh3al: I think you better go.
Later Back At Home...
Msh3al: JEN ?
Jenah: I'm in the sitting room ...
Msh3al: Hey there...
Jenah: It's been one hell of a day...
Msh3al: Tell me about it..
Jenah: Listen I have to tell you something....
Msh3al: I have something to tell to you too...
Jenah: It's about Bader...
Msh3al: It's about Hend...
Jenah: Hend ??
Msh3al: Bader ??
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
The Other Man 22
Sorry 6awalt 3leekm :(
School is killing me! I'm getting home everyday and taking a 6 hour nap.
I'm not sleeping too good..
Alot's on my mind latley..
I've got this little personal thing going on and its so confusing..
My head is literlay gonna explode !
Ed3ooli 7abaybeeee !!
Oh and I'm sorry for the short post, aw3adkom bkrah ra7 ykoon a6wal !
I love you all !! ;*******
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Bader: Hallah 7beebty.
Dalia: 7beebtik ajal ha ?
Bader: Eeh 6b3an o 7ayati ba3ad.
Dalia: No no .. don't even try...
Bader: What? I can't kiss the girl I love ?
Dalia: That depends.. which one are you talking about.... Me..... or Jenah ?
He stood there speechless. He didn't know what to do or say. He just stood there staring down at the floor. Dalia took a small sigh and sat herself on the sofa. She led out a small laugh.
Dalia: I've got all day you know...
Bader: Mdrii shagolik 7beebty..
Dalia: 7beebtik really ?
Bader: Dalool ! I really do love you !
Dalia: Here I am so stupid as the days kept passing by!! Being fooled !!Why the hell didn't you tell me about you and Jenah being together ?
Bader: I thought it was a bad idea for you to know.. then this would have happend.
Dalia: The truth always finds its way back to the surface bader.
Bader: I'm really sorry Dalool. Sam7eeny.. I don't wanna lose you.
Dalia: Did you love her ?
Bader: Yes...
Dalia: Do you still ?
Bader: Ofcourse not! I love you!
Dalia: I wanna know everything. The truth and nothing but the truth. And if you tell even an once of a lie, were through.
Bader: What do you wanna know ?
He told her everything. From the night we met, until the night that he walked away. I was surprised she didn't leave him. It really shows how much she loves him. I don't blame her, he really is a wonderful man.
After that horrible encounter with Bader I drove straight home. I didn't tell Msh3al about it, I knew he'd only get angry and would probably do something he'd regret later. But I had to tell someone. I was angry and sad all at the same time.
I asked Nawal to come over. Nawal, Nouf and I all sat in the cinema room and watched cartoon network.
Nawal: Meen shayef nafso thal kalb !!
Me: For God's sake women language !!
Nawal: How dare he think that of you! Seems like he's the one who still has feelings for you since he's around you guys all the time!
Me: I think it's best if I just stay away from Dalia for a while.
Nawal: Does she know that you to have a history ?
Me: No. But damn I wish she did!
Nawal: Language!
Me: Go to hell..
Talk about timing.
The real entertainment finaly showed up.
Dalia: We need to talk.
Nawal: Wish granted...
How the hell did she even get in here? Where were the maids and Msh3al? I was so sure yelling and probably a fist fight was going to happen so I asked Nawal to take Nouf into her nursery.
Me: I'm guessing he told you.
Dalia: And I'm guessing you know I'm not too thrilled.
Me: Yeah that's hard to miss.
Dalia: How could you cheat on Msh3al ? Have you no respect for yourself and your marriage ?
Me: Umm excuse me ? Bader came on to me you know.
Dalia: I can't believe all of this actualy happend. It just makes me sick!
Me: Sick? You can't controle who you fall in love with !! It just happens !!
Dalia: You loved him ?
Me: Ofcourse I did !!
Dalia: Sorry Jenah but our friendship ends here.
Me: What? Are you serious?
Dalia: Your trying to move on and Badr would just be a distraction. And Bader's with me now so..
Me: I AM NOT TRYING TO GET HIM BACK !!
Dalia: Sure..
Me: Why do you think I'm constantly asking you to not have him around ?! For god's sake Dalia I thought you knew me better than that!
Dalia: I don't wanna know any part of you anymore. Your disgusting. I can't have a person like that in my life.
Me: Oh yeah? And what kind of person am I ?
Dalia: A whore.
I can stand being called many things, but a whore is definitley NOT one of them!
I took a step towards her and slapped her right across the face. It instintly turned bright red. She looked at me with rage in her eyes. She then tried to slap me back but I took her arm and twisted it behind her back.
She screamed beggeing me to stop but how could I possibly give mercy now? A whore never backs down right? *giggles*
With me still twisting her hand behind her back I dragged her out of the room and down the stairs.
Msh3al and his friend had just walked into the house.
Me: Oh hey baby.. I'll be with you in a sec..
I said it like nothing was going on. Like I was casualy escourting Dalia out.
Once we reached the front door I released her from my grip.
I opend the door and aggresivly pushed her out.
Dalia: How dare you !!! Who the hell do you think you are !!!
Me: I'm a whore... remember ?
And with a wonderful smile full of pride, I slammed the door.
School is killing me! I'm getting home everyday and taking a 6 hour nap.
I'm not sleeping too good..
Alot's on my mind latley..
I've got this little personal thing going on and its so confusing..
My head is literlay gonna explode !
Ed3ooli 7abaybeeee !!
Oh and I'm sorry for the short post, aw3adkom bkrah ra7 ykoon a6wal !
I love you all !! ;*******
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Bader: Hallah 7beebty.
Dalia: 7beebtik ajal ha ?
Bader: Eeh 6b3an o 7ayati ba3ad.
Dalia: No no .. don't even try...
Bader: What? I can't kiss the girl I love ?
Dalia: That depends.. which one are you talking about.... Me..... or Jenah ?
He stood there speechless. He didn't know what to do or say. He just stood there staring down at the floor. Dalia took a small sigh and sat herself on the sofa. She led out a small laugh.
Dalia: I've got all day you know...
Bader: Mdrii shagolik 7beebty..
Dalia: 7beebtik really ?
Bader: Dalool ! I really do love you !
Dalia: Here I am so stupid as the days kept passing by!! Being fooled !!Why the hell didn't you tell me about you and Jenah being together ?
Bader: I thought it was a bad idea for you to know.. then this would have happend.
Dalia: The truth always finds its way back to the surface bader.
Bader: I'm really sorry Dalool. Sam7eeny.. I don't wanna lose you.
Dalia: Did you love her ?
Bader: Yes...
Dalia: Do you still ?
Bader: Ofcourse not! I love you!
Dalia: I wanna know everything. The truth and nothing but the truth. And if you tell even an once of a lie, were through.
Bader: What do you wanna know ?
He told her everything. From the night we met, until the night that he walked away. I was surprised she didn't leave him. It really shows how much she loves him. I don't blame her, he really is a wonderful man.
After that horrible encounter with Bader I drove straight home. I didn't tell Msh3al about it, I knew he'd only get angry and would probably do something he'd regret later. But I had to tell someone. I was angry and sad all at the same time.
I asked Nawal to come over. Nawal, Nouf and I all sat in the cinema room and watched cartoon network.
Nawal: Meen shayef nafso thal kalb !!
Me: For God's sake women language !!
Nawal: How dare he think that of you! Seems like he's the one who still has feelings for you since he's around you guys all the time!
Me: I think it's best if I just stay away from Dalia for a while.
Nawal: Does she know that you to have a history ?
Me: No. But damn I wish she did!
Nawal: Language!
Me: Go to hell..
Talk about timing.
The real entertainment finaly showed up.
Dalia: We need to talk.
Nawal: Wish granted...
How the hell did she even get in here? Where were the maids and Msh3al? I was so sure yelling and probably a fist fight was going to happen so I asked Nawal to take Nouf into her nursery.
Me: I'm guessing he told you.
Dalia: And I'm guessing you know I'm not too thrilled.
Me: Yeah that's hard to miss.
Dalia: How could you cheat on Msh3al ? Have you no respect for yourself and your marriage ?
Me: Umm excuse me ? Bader came on to me you know.
Dalia: I can't believe all of this actualy happend. It just makes me sick!
Me: Sick? You can't controle who you fall in love with !! It just happens !!
Dalia: You loved him ?
Me: Ofcourse I did !!
Dalia: Sorry Jenah but our friendship ends here.
Me: What? Are you serious?
Dalia: Your trying to move on and Badr would just be a distraction. And Bader's with me now so..
Me: I AM NOT TRYING TO GET HIM BACK !!
Dalia: Sure..
Me: Why do you think I'm constantly asking you to not have him around ?! For god's sake Dalia I thought you knew me better than that!
Dalia: I don't wanna know any part of you anymore. Your disgusting. I can't have a person like that in my life.
Me: Oh yeah? And what kind of person am I ?
Dalia: A whore.
I can stand being called many things, but a whore is definitley NOT one of them!
I took a step towards her and slapped her right across the face. It instintly turned bright red. She looked at me with rage in her eyes. She then tried to slap me back but I took her arm and twisted it behind her back.
She screamed beggeing me to stop but how could I possibly give mercy now? A whore never backs down right? *giggles*
With me still twisting her hand behind her back I dragged her out of the room and down the stairs.
Msh3al and his friend had just walked into the house.
Me: Oh hey baby.. I'll be with you in a sec..
I said it like nothing was going on. Like I was casualy escourting Dalia out.
Once we reached the front door I released her from my grip.
I opend the door and aggresivly pushed her out.
Dalia: How dare you !!! Who the hell do you think you are !!!
Me: I'm a whore... remember ?
And with a wonderful smile full of pride, I slammed the door.
Friday, March 12, 2010
The Other Man 21
Sorry, adri 6awalt 3leekm..
Bs there's been a recent death in the family so I was a bit busy..
I know you guys will understand :)
I love you all so so much !! ;**
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Nawal: I just wanna bite her little cheeks off! Agh she's so damn adorable !!
Me: LANGUAGE !
Nawal: Oh what does she know.. she's only three weeks old ! Can you blame me ?
Me: Your right haha I really cant !
Nawal: Allah ye7fath.ha lek 7beebty..
Me: Ameen ya rabb.. mm so tell me.. how's Jamal ?
Nawal: Please don't remind me..
Me? Yallah 3ad Nawalii he loves you !
Nawal: Really? Then why does he have to make every little thing into a big deal? He actualy gives me a curfew to be home at ten. To only go shopping every three months. To call him everytime I get in and out of the car. And to top it all off ybeeni at7ajab !!!
Me: He's insane if he wants you to follow all those things !
Nawal: Wsh eli at7ajab.. y3ni ok ofcourse I will one of thes days. But I dont want someone to force me into it. I wanna do it for me, for God. On my own terms when Im ready. I wanna feel confortable doing it. Not by force ! Who does he think he is ? Yahel ana ? Ordering me around like his slave? La wallah ma 3ndi kitha. 5alee yt3alam kaif y3amelny o b3dain aklmah.
Me: Inshallah it'll all pass 7beebty.
Nawal: I'm gonna see him today and were gonna talk anyways, so hopefuly he's matured.
I felt so bad for Nawal. I don't know what I'd do if Msh3al was that way with me. I'd probably kill him. She said she was gonna talk to him so hopefuly things will work out for the best. I hated seeing her like this. She waited so long for this guy. Then suddenly after marriage he treats her this way. No! The only reason why I'm not strangeling him right now is because they've both wanted eachother for so long. I know he makes her happy. He's just got a few flaws he has to get rid of, that's all.
Oh and the avoiding Bader plan stopped working. He would always be around whenever Dalia and I wanted to see eachother. He was even there one nigh when me and Dalia wanted to have a girls night in. I needed some alone time with a girlfriend. I mean I had just given birth and wanted to feel pampered and all that. We arranged for someone to come ans give us mani pedi's, and someone to do our hair aswell. But the fun would always be interupted whenever Bader would walk in. He was there the whole day! It's like he was living with her. I was shocked, how could she not be annoyed? When I asked her all she had to say was, "Awwwwh c'mon it's so adorable!"
Excuse me? What's so adorable about a MAN interupting a GIRL's night ?
Me: Hey remember last week when we had that girl's night in at your place ?
Dalia: Yeah what about it ?
Me: Well I've been meaning to talk to you about it. Ummm.. I wasn't that comfortable with Bader...
Dalia: Why? Did he say something to you?
Me: No. But he was constantly popping in and out. I mean I'm sorry to have to say this but he kinda spoiled it for me.
Dalia: Oh...
Me: I'm really not trying to be rude but he's just always there. Stuck on you.
Dalia: Isn't that wha people are in love supposed to do ?
Me: Well yeah but not all the time. You have your friends.. and I'm sure I won't be the only one who feel's this way.
Dalia: What are you trying to say Jenah ?
Me: All I'm asking is for him to be a little less around. Don't take this the wrong way or anything but there's a reason why they call it a "girls day".
Dalia: Don't worry I totaly understand. To be honest I was kinda getting a little annoyed myself. But since we're stil in the early stage of our relationship, I didn't wanna tell him something that might cause tension between us you know? But don't worry sweetie, I'll talk to him.
Me: Oh ok good. I was a little scared that you might misunderstand or something!
Meanwhile Nawal and Jamal were having their "talk".
She told him about everything. About everything he did to her. How it made her feel. Poor guy, he felt guilty as hell. She made sure she was blunt and cold with him, wanting to get things through his thick skull. At first he was offended and angry and a big fight broke out. But after minutes of silence, he came to his senses and apologized. He realized that he's been acting like a child. That Nawal didn't deserve to feel like a slave in their marriage, but like a queen.
Thank god they both worked everything out. The last thing we need is another broken heart.
Something strange happend though...
Dalia wanted to see Nouf so badly one afternoon so we made plans that I'd pass by.
So I got out of the car carrying my darling little Nouf. As I was about to make my way up the steps of the front door I felt someone pull me back.
Bader: I have to talk to you.
Me: Bismilah.. shfeek ?
Bader: Where do you go off asking Dalia to keep me away from you guys ?
Me: Well there's a reason why they call it a girl's day Bader.
Bader: Yeah she said that too. But it would have never come out of her mouth if it wasn't for you.
Me: Could you please calm down!! It's just so annoying having you there all the time !!
Bader: Move on !!
Me: Don't you dare flatter yourself!! Would you like Dalia to show up everytime your out with the guys ? And don't you dare try and fake an answer !
Bader: Listen we both know why you talked to Dalia .
Me: Excuse me ?
Bader: Your gonna have to try and get over me. 7aram 3leeki you have a beautiful baby girl in your arms and a husband at home who loves you. You cant do this to them.
Me: DO WHAT ? IM NOT DOING ANYTHING ! YOUR ONE PARANOID BASTARD !
Bader: Oh so is it just a coincidence that your friends with my girlfriend ?
Me: YES !
Bader: Your always with her. Which I know is some kind of scheme to get to see me all the time.
Me: Oh my god you really are paranoid. Were best friends what do you expect?
Bader: St'3frallah. Esme3eni Jenah. What happend between us is in the past now. And I for one Im glad it ended or else I wouldn't have met Dalia. I'm happy, and if you say she's yoru best friend why are you doing this to her? Don't you want her to be happy?
Me: ARE YOU HEARING YOURSELF RIGHT NOW ?!!
Bader: Stop being a selfish bitch and move on already. For god's sake you have a child in your hands!
I cant believe he said those words to me. Tears starting forming in my eyes. I was heart broken. How could someone I was shared my heart with cut me open like that? It's like I was talking to a soul-less man. This wasn't the Bader I once knew. No, he threw him away and now all I see is a black fog nothing else.
I was too angry to see Dalia. Or be anywhere near Bader. I just got back into my car and drove. I wanted to get as far away as I possibly could from the both of them. I man who was I kidding trying to be friends with Dalia? Obviosuly it's never going to work. With Bader in her life it means he's in my life. The last thing I need right now is drama. But, as always it seems to follow me around everywhere I went.
Bader: Hallah 7beebty.
Dalia: 7beebtik ajal ha ?
Bader: Eeh 6b3an o 7ayati ba3ad.
Dalia: No no .. don't even try...
Bader: What? I can't kiss the girl I love ?
Dalia: That depends.. which one are you talking about.... Me..... or Jenah ?
Bs there's been a recent death in the family so I was a bit busy..
I know you guys will understand :)
I love you all so so much !! ;**
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Nawal: I just wanna bite her little cheeks off! Agh she's so damn adorable !!
Me: LANGUAGE !
Nawal: Oh what does she know.. she's only three weeks old ! Can you blame me ?
Me: Your right haha I really cant !
Nawal: Allah ye7fath.ha lek 7beebty..
Me: Ameen ya rabb.. mm so tell me.. how's Jamal ?
Nawal: Please don't remind me..
Me? Yallah 3ad Nawalii he loves you !
Nawal: Really? Then why does he have to make every little thing into a big deal? He actualy gives me a curfew to be home at ten. To only go shopping every three months. To call him everytime I get in and out of the car. And to top it all off ybeeni at7ajab !!!
Me: He's insane if he wants you to follow all those things !
Nawal: Wsh eli at7ajab.. y3ni ok ofcourse I will one of thes days. But I dont want someone to force me into it. I wanna do it for me, for God. On my own terms when Im ready. I wanna feel confortable doing it. Not by force ! Who does he think he is ? Yahel ana ? Ordering me around like his slave? La wallah ma 3ndi kitha. 5alee yt3alam kaif y3amelny o b3dain aklmah.
Me: Inshallah it'll all pass 7beebty.
Nawal: I'm gonna see him today and were gonna talk anyways, so hopefuly he's matured.
I felt so bad for Nawal. I don't know what I'd do if Msh3al was that way with me. I'd probably kill him. She said she was gonna talk to him so hopefuly things will work out for the best. I hated seeing her like this. She waited so long for this guy. Then suddenly after marriage he treats her this way. No! The only reason why I'm not strangeling him right now is because they've both wanted eachother for so long. I know he makes her happy. He's just got a few flaws he has to get rid of, that's all.
Oh and the avoiding Bader plan stopped working. He would always be around whenever Dalia and I wanted to see eachother. He was even there one nigh when me and Dalia wanted to have a girls night in. I needed some alone time with a girlfriend. I mean I had just given birth and wanted to feel pampered and all that. We arranged for someone to come ans give us mani pedi's, and someone to do our hair aswell. But the fun would always be interupted whenever Bader would walk in. He was there the whole day! It's like he was living with her. I was shocked, how could she not be annoyed? When I asked her all she had to say was, "Awwwwh c'mon it's so adorable!"
Excuse me? What's so adorable about a MAN interupting a GIRL's night ?
Me: Hey remember last week when we had that girl's night in at your place ?
Dalia: Yeah what about it ?
Me: Well I've been meaning to talk to you about it. Ummm.. I wasn't that comfortable with Bader...
Dalia: Why? Did he say something to you?
Me: No. But he was constantly popping in and out. I mean I'm sorry to have to say this but he kinda spoiled it for me.
Dalia: Oh...
Me: I'm really not trying to be rude but he's just always there. Stuck on you.
Dalia: Isn't that wha people are in love supposed to do ?
Me: Well yeah but not all the time. You have your friends.. and I'm sure I won't be the only one who feel's this way.
Dalia: What are you trying to say Jenah ?
Me: All I'm asking is for him to be a little less around. Don't take this the wrong way or anything but there's a reason why they call it a "girls day".
Dalia: Don't worry I totaly understand. To be honest I was kinda getting a little annoyed myself. But since we're stil in the early stage of our relationship, I didn't wanna tell him something that might cause tension between us you know? But don't worry sweetie, I'll talk to him.
Me: Oh ok good. I was a little scared that you might misunderstand or something!
Meanwhile Nawal and Jamal were having their "talk".
She told him about everything. About everything he did to her. How it made her feel. Poor guy, he felt guilty as hell. She made sure she was blunt and cold with him, wanting to get things through his thick skull. At first he was offended and angry and a big fight broke out. But after minutes of silence, he came to his senses and apologized. He realized that he's been acting like a child. That Nawal didn't deserve to feel like a slave in their marriage, but like a queen.
Thank god they both worked everything out. The last thing we need is another broken heart.
Something strange happend though...
Dalia wanted to see Nouf so badly one afternoon so we made plans that I'd pass by.
So I got out of the car carrying my darling little Nouf. As I was about to make my way up the steps of the front door I felt someone pull me back.
Bader: I have to talk to you.
Me: Bismilah.. shfeek ?
Bader: Where do you go off asking Dalia to keep me away from you guys ?
Me: Well there's a reason why they call it a girl's day Bader.
Bader: Yeah she said that too. But it would have never come out of her mouth if it wasn't for you.
Me: Could you please calm down!! It's just so annoying having you there all the time !!
Bader: Move on !!
Me: Don't you dare flatter yourself!! Would you like Dalia to show up everytime your out with the guys ? And don't you dare try and fake an answer !
Bader: Listen we both know why you talked to Dalia .
Me: Excuse me ?
Bader: Your gonna have to try and get over me. 7aram 3leeki you have a beautiful baby girl in your arms and a husband at home who loves you. You cant do this to them.
Me: DO WHAT ? IM NOT DOING ANYTHING ! YOUR ONE PARANOID BASTARD !
Bader: Oh so is it just a coincidence that your friends with my girlfriend ?
Me: YES !
Bader: Your always with her. Which I know is some kind of scheme to get to see me all the time.
Me: Oh my god you really are paranoid. Were best friends what do you expect?
Bader: St'3frallah. Esme3eni Jenah. What happend between us is in the past now. And I for one Im glad it ended or else I wouldn't have met Dalia. I'm happy, and if you say she's yoru best friend why are you doing this to her? Don't you want her to be happy?
Me: ARE YOU HEARING YOURSELF RIGHT NOW ?!!
Bader: Stop being a selfish bitch and move on already. For god's sake you have a child in your hands!
I cant believe he said those words to me. Tears starting forming in my eyes. I was heart broken. How could someone I was shared my heart with cut me open like that? It's like I was talking to a soul-less man. This wasn't the Bader I once knew. No, he threw him away and now all I see is a black fog nothing else.
I was too angry to see Dalia. Or be anywhere near Bader. I just got back into my car and drove. I wanted to get as far away as I possibly could from the both of them. I man who was I kidding trying to be friends with Dalia? Obviosuly it's never going to work. With Bader in her life it means he's in my life. The last thing I need right now is drama. But, as always it seems to follow me around everywhere I went.
Bader: Hallah 7beebty.
Dalia: 7beebtik ajal ha ?
Bader: Eeh 6b3an o 7ayati ba3ad.
Dalia: No no .. don't even try...
Bader: What? I can't kiss the girl I love ?
Dalia: That depends.. which one are you talking about.... Me..... or Jenah ?
Monday, March 8, 2010
The Other Man 20
Did I really miss him though? Or was it just jelousy talking?
I dunno.. All I know is that I have to stay away from him. Being around him would just confuse me and lead me down a wrong path.
But I still continued seeing Dalia. I wouldn't let Bader ruin a good friendship I had going on. I was smart enough to make sure I wouldn't run into Bader, and always offer to drive Dalia home.
I was surprised Msh3al took it in so well. He didn't get mad or even start an argument. All he said was.. "I trust you". I couldn't believe it.
One afternoon Dalia and I had plans to go out baby shopping. We've grown close in the past month. We had a connection, we were alot alike. I felt like I had a second Nawal. The three of us would sometimes hang out together. We all just clicked together, we formed a group.
As always I'd pass by her house to pick her up. She told me she was running a bit late and that I could let myself in and make myself at home. So I did. I sat on couch and picked up a VOGUE magazine.
Then out of no where guess who walks in? Just have a guess...
Yup.. it was Bader!
He was already inside the house, coming down the stairs.
Our eyes met..
He sat himself down right next to me..
Bader: Dalia ?
Me: Yeah.. she told me to let myself in.
Bader: Small world huh ?
Me: Yeah..
Bader: It was really good seeing you the other day Jenah.
Me: Thanks..
Bader: Ummm.. wasn't it good seeing me ?
Me: Can we just not do this please, and sit here quitley.
Bader: 3alah ra7tik..
Moments later what does he do ?
A typical Bader move.
He turns to face me and comes a little bit closer..
I felt his thighs next to mine..
I turned and looked at him in an angry way..
He wet his lips and leaned in..
Why didn't I stop myself ?
Just as our lips were about to meet........ Dalia walks in.
Good timing or what ?
But wait.. was it though ?
Dalia: I am sooooooooo sorry I'm late. Traffic was hell !!
Me: It's ok yallah let's go.
Dalia: Hallah 7beeeby. Oh good atleast someone kept you company while I was gone.
Me: Oh you have no idea *mumbelling to myself*
As we walked out the door I felt a sudden cramp. It wasn't like my usual pregnancy cramps. It was way worse. It hurt to the point that I couldn't keep my balance. I starting screaming and holding onto my stomach. My body couldn't take it anymore...
I woke up to find myself in a dark room.
"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh wainiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii !!!!! "
Msh3al, Dalia, Bader, and a doctor rushed in.
Doctor: Jenah Jenah I'm going to need you to come down please.
Msh3al: 7beeby Jooni hadi hadi allah yrtha 3leeki 7beebty.
Me: Waini ?
Doctor: Your at the hospital ...
Me: Where's my baby ? I CANT FEEL MY BABY !!! WHERE MY BABYYYYYYYYY !!
Doctor: Jenah Jenah... It's ok.. everything is fine.. your baby is fine..
Me: Where is she ?
Doctor: She's in the nursery with a nurse.
Me: What happend to me ?
Doctor: One month pre-mature labor. A c-section was neccesary. But your fine don't worry. You just need to rest.
Me: Why don't I remember anything ?
Dalia: 7beebty you were too dizzy to know anything that was going on.
Me: Wain Msh3al ?
Msh3al: I'm here baby I'm here. I'm always here.
Me: 7beeby.. I love you so much.
Msh3al: 7ayati inti.. I love you so much more.
Bader: Jenah...
Me: You get out.. I don't wanna see your face!
Dalia: Umm 7beeby I think we should wait outside, give them some privacy.
Msh3al held me in his arms and told me about Nouf and how beautiful she was. I couldn't wait to hold her in my arms and see that adorable little pink face. The nurse brought her in shortly after Dalia and Bader left.
She was everything Msh3al said and even more!
She was perfefct.
She was my tiny jewel.
One Year Later...
Everything was picture perfect. Msh3al and I couldn't be more happier. We had this beautiful little girl whom we adored more than anything.
Dalia and I became very good friends. I would see her practicly everyday. But that doesn't mean I told her about Bader and me. And speaking of Bader, I haven't seen him in a year. It was like he vanished off the face of the earth. I have to say I was kinda relieved. It makes thing much more easier.
Nawal and Jamal seperated for a while. They've been having so many arguments, some of which didn't make any sense. The only time they'd see eachother was at their couples councler. Once a week.
August 25th 2009.. it was my 24th birthday. Msh3al planned this dinner party with a few of our closest friends.
And guess who was Dalia brought with her? Do I really to say his name?
Alright fine I will. Bader!!
I tried to avoid him all night long, and I was doing a pretty good job at it. That is until I went to use the restroom.
I just went in there to wash my hands after dinner. Then out of nowhere Bader walkes in and locks the door behind him.
Me: Seriously? Will this ever end Bader?
Bader: I just needed a minute with you alone.
Me: What happend last year happend. It will not be repeated.
Bader: I know that.
Me: You do ?
Bader: Yeah, that was what I wanted to talk to you about.
Me: Oh...
Bader: I'm in love with Dalia.
Me: ... Good for you.
Bader: I just wanted you to know that. And you don't have to worry about me anymore. I think she may be the one for me.
Me: I'm glad to hear you've found happiness.
Bader: Well anyways.. happy birthday.
He gave me a kiss on my cheek and left.
I should be happy right ?
But how come I felt angry ?
It's normal right?
I mean he's an ex.. what girl wouldn't get angry.
I had the right to.
It was too crowded downstairs that I needed a breather.
I went upstairs to Nouf's nursery and sat by her cradel rocking it.
I just stared at her all night long.
She's the light of my life. The reason I want to wake up in the morning. My everything. I knew that as long as I had her, nothing could break me. Everything I ever wanted was right there in her eyes. Those beautiful big light brown eyes.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
So Blocked ;s
Mdri wsh feeni u guys ;s
Im having a bit of writers block..
Im doing my best to make this the best story yet
So please be patient with me..
W be2nthlah tommorow I will post :)
Its such a complicated dramatic story so I need to really dig into my head.
I hope you guys understand..
Dont be upset please <3
I love you all ;*****
Im having a bit of writers block..
Im doing my best to make this the best story yet
So please be patient with me..
W be2nthlah tommorow I will post :)
Its such a complicated dramatic story so I need to really dig into my head.
I hope you guys understand..
Dont be upset please <3
I love you all ;*****
Friday, March 5, 2010
New Blog !!
7abaybeeeeeeeeee !! <3
I just came across this new blog..
It's in arabic though..
She just started out by writing a poem..
Y3ni basicly in arabic y3ni 5awa6er bs it's all real..
Dealing with her experiance in life..
Check out her blog and please support her..
Here's the link :
http://www.wisdom-youcandoit.blogspot.com/
I love you all !! ;**********
I just came across this new blog..
It's in arabic though..
She just started out by writing a poem..
Y3ni basicly in arabic y3ni 5awa6er bs it's all real..
Dealing with her experiance in life..
Check out her blog and please support her..
Here's the link :
http://www.wisdom-youcandoit.blogspot.com/
I love you all !! ;**********
Monday, March 1, 2010
The Other Man 19
My prettiiiiiiiiiiiiiies!! <3
Please sam7oony.. the past three days I had no time for anything!
I've been studying like hell for the damn TOEFEL!!
I'm gonna diiiiiiiiiiiiiie !! :(
Ed3oooooooooooli !!
And today I don't feel soo good.. wallah mdri wsh feeni..
But I pulled myself together to write you guys this post!
I'm sorry it's kinda short!
Inshallah soon a long one :)
I love you all !!
Where are all my regular comments ?
You guys please comment on my posts..
I need to know that I have the support.
Your comments are the thing that I need :)
Please start commenting and don't blow off this request :(
I love you all so much !!!! ;*********
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I couldn't believe it. After all this, all of what has happend we were still going to have a future. A future with this wonderful baby. Baby Nouf.
A few weeks has gone by and me and Msh3al were doing better than ever.
Jamal and Nawal didn't really care about having another wedding. They already signed the papers and all. As long as they were official, that's all that mattered to them.
I was 8 months pregnant. Yeah it's been that long and no drama! I was so happy. That long, and I didn't here from Bader, not even once.
But as always my life is so full of drama that it never get's enough. Min kthr ma eli 9ayer feeni I could have written three novels by now!
I was in the waiting room waiting to see my doctor for my monthly exam. Once the nurse called my name I tried to get up but couldn't. Then this women came over and helped me up and walked me to the doctor's office. I was greatful but at the same time angry. I mean what does she think I am? Old?
I don't know what's been going on with me latley. It's these damn hormones. One minute I'm sad. Then happy. Then angry. Then confused. It's like this never ending cycle. I don't how Msh3al can handel it when I cant!
After my exam I went downstairs to the hospital's cafeteria. Over there sitting by the window was the women that helped me. I went and sat myself across the table from her.
Me: Hey ....
Women: Oh hey how'd your appointment go ?
Me: El7mdelah it went well. Umm listen I'm sorry about my bitchy attitude I showed off earlier.
Women: Don't worry about it, it's the hormones I know.
Me: Oh your a mom ?
Women: No I've never been married ?
Me: Boyfriend ?
Women: Well your awfuly friendly arn't you ? *teasing*
Me: Oh you have no idea.
Women: I like you. *shaking her finger*
I never thought I'd meet someone intresting in a hospital. But Dalia, that was her name, was the sweetest little thing. She was tall and curvy. Not the fat-ish kinda curvy but the beautiful kind. Shoulder length dark brown hair and pure hazel eyes.
Since we got along so great, we planned on having dinner the next night.
I was so excited. I mean Nawal just got married and needs some "alone" time with Jamal. And all I have os a husband and an unborn baby. I love Msh3al and all don't get me wrong but sometimes I just want a girl's night out. I missed Nawal, but being with Dalia today was just what I needed. It felt good to be around a girl again.
Msh3al: That's great 7beebty.
Me: I know right!
Msh3al: Can I talk to you about something ?
Me: Sure anything. Whats up ?
Msh3al: I've been doing some thinking... and I think we should have the baby here.
Me: What do you mean ?
Msh3al: I mean home birth.
Me: Excuse me? Your joking right?
Msh3al: No I mean think of it. Nouf being born in her very own house. Isn't it beautiful ?
Me: Are you hearing yourself right now ?
Msh3al: What's wrong with it ?
Me: First of all I want a doctor ---
Msh3al: Housecall...
Me: With proper hospital equiptment!
Msh3al: Wow you really are selfish.
Me: Excuse me? This thing is in MY belly! I will be giving birth to it! So no your the one who's selfish. I choose the way I want to deliever my baby. And for your information my dear husband, home birth isn't all that safe.
Msh3al: WHATEVER !
Me: WHATEVER !
Msh3al: FINE !
Me: FINE !
I know, pretty childish huh? But I mean he started it. What is he thinking? Home birth.. really? Does he want to kill our child. Ans selfish, can you believe him callin gme selfish? Al7een wsh da5al selfish bl mawthoo3 ana mdri. Wallah ho el selfish fj2a yfta7lah salfah mala da3i.
The Next Night...
Dalia and I went to this new Italian resturant that just opend up.
We got to know eachother really well. I told her all about Msh3al. And she told me about her little romance that was going on. She's been seeing this guy for about 3 months. Her face really lit up when she talked about him. I miss that feeling. The first couple of months in a relationship.
Dalia: Ok he did what now ?
Me: Yup...
Dalia: Oh my god could he be anymore childish!
Me: Thank you !
Dalia: Did he apologize ?
Me: '3asban 3ano !
Dalia: Haha Allah y3eeno !
Me: Bgowah !
Dalia: Mmm hold on one second... Aloo halah 7beeby..... ee we just finished up..... ummm yeah sure come inside.... you see us?.... ok yallah come.
Me: Your boyfriend's here ?
Dalia: Yeah he's picking me up. Wait do you need a ride ?
Me: No my driver's outside waiting for me.
Dalia: 7beeebyyyyyyyyy !! This is Jenah, the girl I was telling you so much about.
I couldn't believe it. As always life has to somehow bring him into my life.
Me: Hi...
Bader: I've herd so much about you.
Me: Likewise...
Dalia: Agh I'm so glad the two of you met.
Me: Me too...
Dalia: I just had an idea. How about we all go out for lunch tommorow, with Msh3al ofcourse.
Me/Bader: NO !!!
Dalia: O.....k-aaaaay....
Me: Haha isn't that funny...
Bader: Haha jinx...
Dalia: Very well then. Jenah I had such an amazing time I have to see you soon.
Me: Yeah ofcourse. You have my number so just give me a ring whenever.
Dalia: Ok great. Bye 7beebty.
Bader: It was nice meeting you.
Me: Get the hell out of my face. *whispering it into his ear*
I went home that night furious! Ok I'm glad that he managed to move on but how? I mean it's good but how? The way she was raving about him was just... just too unreal. It's like they've known eachother their entire lives. When I first saw Bader I thought this was all just a game. Using that poor girl as a tool to get over me. But when he looked at her, I knew it was all no lie. The way he looked at her was the same way he looked at me. His eyes full of love and care.
My heart couldn't stop racing the whole ride home. What's come over me? Why am I acting this way? I knew it wasn't the pregnancy's hormones talking, but MY personal hormones.
I was jelouse.
I was angry.
I was upset.
I... I missed him...
Please sam7oony.. the past three days I had no time for anything!
I've been studying like hell for the damn TOEFEL!!
I'm gonna diiiiiiiiiiiiiie !! :(
Ed3oooooooooooli !!
And today I don't feel soo good.. wallah mdri wsh feeni..
But I pulled myself together to write you guys this post!
I'm sorry it's kinda short!
Inshallah soon a long one :)
I love you all !!
Where are all my regular comments ?
You guys please comment on my posts..
I need to know that I have the support.
Your comments are the thing that I need :)
Please start commenting and don't blow off this request :(
I love you all so much !!!! ;*********
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I couldn't believe it. After all this, all of what has happend we were still going to have a future. A future with this wonderful baby. Baby Nouf.
A few weeks has gone by and me and Msh3al were doing better than ever.
Jamal and Nawal didn't really care about having another wedding. They already signed the papers and all. As long as they were official, that's all that mattered to them.
I was 8 months pregnant. Yeah it's been that long and no drama! I was so happy. That long, and I didn't here from Bader, not even once.
But as always my life is so full of drama that it never get's enough. Min kthr ma eli 9ayer feeni I could have written three novels by now!
I was in the waiting room waiting to see my doctor for my monthly exam. Once the nurse called my name I tried to get up but couldn't. Then this women came over and helped me up and walked me to the doctor's office. I was greatful but at the same time angry. I mean what does she think I am? Old?
I don't know what's been going on with me latley. It's these damn hormones. One minute I'm sad. Then happy. Then angry. Then confused. It's like this never ending cycle. I don't how Msh3al can handel it when I cant!
After my exam I went downstairs to the hospital's cafeteria. Over there sitting by the window was the women that helped me. I went and sat myself across the table from her.
Me: Hey ....
Women: Oh hey how'd your appointment go ?
Me: El7mdelah it went well. Umm listen I'm sorry about my bitchy attitude I showed off earlier.
Women: Don't worry about it, it's the hormones I know.
Me: Oh your a mom ?
Women: No I've never been married ?
Me: Boyfriend ?
Women: Well your awfuly friendly arn't you ? *teasing*
Me: Oh you have no idea.
Women: I like you. *shaking her finger*
I never thought I'd meet someone intresting in a hospital. But Dalia, that was her name, was the sweetest little thing. She was tall and curvy. Not the fat-ish kinda curvy but the beautiful kind. Shoulder length dark brown hair and pure hazel eyes.
Since we got along so great, we planned on having dinner the next night.
I was so excited. I mean Nawal just got married and needs some "alone" time with Jamal. And all I have os a husband and an unborn baby. I love Msh3al and all don't get me wrong but sometimes I just want a girl's night out. I missed Nawal, but being with Dalia today was just what I needed. It felt good to be around a girl again.
Msh3al: That's great 7beebty.
Me: I know right!
Msh3al: Can I talk to you about something ?
Me: Sure anything. Whats up ?
Msh3al: I've been doing some thinking... and I think we should have the baby here.
Me: What do you mean ?
Msh3al: I mean home birth.
Me: Excuse me? Your joking right?
Msh3al: No I mean think of it. Nouf being born in her very own house. Isn't it beautiful ?
Me: Are you hearing yourself right now ?
Msh3al: What's wrong with it ?
Me: First of all I want a doctor ---
Msh3al: Housecall...
Me: With proper hospital equiptment!
Msh3al: Wow you really are selfish.
Me: Excuse me? This thing is in MY belly! I will be giving birth to it! So no your the one who's selfish. I choose the way I want to deliever my baby. And for your information my dear husband, home birth isn't all that safe.
Msh3al: WHATEVER !
Me: WHATEVER !
Msh3al: FINE !
Me: FINE !
I know, pretty childish huh? But I mean he started it. What is he thinking? Home birth.. really? Does he want to kill our child. Ans selfish, can you believe him callin gme selfish? Al7een wsh da5al selfish bl mawthoo3 ana mdri. Wallah ho el selfish fj2a yfta7lah salfah mala da3i.
The Next Night...
Dalia and I went to this new Italian resturant that just opend up.
We got to know eachother really well. I told her all about Msh3al. And she told me about her little romance that was going on. She's been seeing this guy for about 3 months. Her face really lit up when she talked about him. I miss that feeling. The first couple of months in a relationship.
Dalia: Ok he did what now ?
Me: Yup...
Dalia: Oh my god could he be anymore childish!
Me: Thank you !
Dalia: Did he apologize ?
Me: '3asban 3ano !
Dalia: Haha Allah y3eeno !
Me: Bgowah !
Dalia: Mmm hold on one second... Aloo halah 7beeby..... ee we just finished up..... ummm yeah sure come inside.... you see us?.... ok yallah come.
Me: Your boyfriend's here ?
Dalia: Yeah he's picking me up. Wait do you need a ride ?
Me: No my driver's outside waiting for me.
Dalia: 7beeebyyyyyyyyy !! This is Jenah, the girl I was telling you so much about.
I couldn't believe it. As always life has to somehow bring him into my life.
Me: Hi...
Bader: I've herd so much about you.
Me: Likewise...
Dalia: Agh I'm so glad the two of you met.
Me: Me too...
Dalia: I just had an idea. How about we all go out for lunch tommorow, with Msh3al ofcourse.
Me/Bader: NO !!!
Dalia: O.....k-aaaaay....
Me: Haha isn't that funny...
Bader: Haha jinx...
Dalia: Very well then. Jenah I had such an amazing time I have to see you soon.
Me: Yeah ofcourse. You have my number so just give me a ring whenever.
Dalia: Ok great. Bye 7beebty.
Bader: It was nice meeting you.
Me: Get the hell out of my face. *whispering it into his ear*
I went home that night furious! Ok I'm glad that he managed to move on but how? I mean it's good but how? The way she was raving about him was just... just too unreal. It's like they've known eachother their entire lives. When I first saw Bader I thought this was all just a game. Using that poor girl as a tool to get over me. But when he looked at her, I knew it was all no lie. The way he looked at her was the same way he looked at me. His eyes full of love and care.
My heart couldn't stop racing the whole ride home. What's come over me? Why am I acting this way? I knew it wasn't the pregnancy's hormones talking, but MY personal hormones.
I was jelouse.
I was angry.
I was upset.
I... I missed him...
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