The Other Man 32 B.

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And then suddenly everything changed.

And I did what I had to do.

You only live once.

So I'm gonna live it right.





{ Msh3al }


This is not the Jenah I know.

I wanna blame Bader but the poor guy has cancer how could I ?

Just a few days ago she leaned in to kiss me.. and now she's on a plane with some other guy.

Was this my fault ?

If I had kissed her would non of this have happend ?




I arrived to the airport and ran through the terminal all the way to the gate.

But it was already too late.

I pressed both my hands against the glass window as a tear ran down my face.

I took a few moments and the pulled my self back together.



Once I reached home I could only think of one person to call. Nawal.



Nawal: This isn't like her..

Me: Now I dont know anything.. nothing !

Nawal: Calm down.. this wont get us anywhere.. I'm sure she'll call us when she gets there.

Me: Nawal the women hung up in my face saying sorry. I dont think she'll be calling ANYTIME soon !

Nawal: Why would she even do this.. she has everything here.. a great job. A beautiful daughter.

Me: But no man...

Nawal: Oh.. no no no.. that was not what I meant.. shit ! Im sorry !

Me: It's ok.. I blame myself anyways...

Nawal: Mmm one second I have to take this...



She left straight after that phone call.

Jamal has just gotten home from a buisness trip.

Meanwhile I tried to get some sleep. I just wanted to get this misrable day over with.

But I couldnt. I kept tossing and turning.

As soon as I closed my eyes all I could think about were Jenah and Nouf.

Their everywhere to me.

Even when I close my eyes their there with me.


I couldnt sleep. Not even for a minute.

Up till 5 am just thinking about what Im gonna do. And I came up with nothing.

I was exhausted with huge bags under my eyes.

Sleep was too far away for me to reach.



I got out of bed and showered.

Wore my gym clothes and decided to go for a run.

With every step I took .. with every heartbeat.. all I could think of was "what if"

What if I had never let Jenah go ?

What if I had kissed her that night ?

What if I had fought for her ?

Just what if ...



During my jog I passed by "our house" so I decided to go in.

I wanted the atmosphere of my two girls.



I walked into a dark cold house.

I never realized how big it was..

Usualy its filled with laughter and joy that I hardly notice its this big.



I walked into the dark sitting room, didnt even bother turning on the lights.

I lyed down on that one couch I used to always sit on with both Jenah and Nouf in my arms.

I dozzed off...















































































































Suddenly all the lights switch on.



Jenah: I had a feeling someone was down here...



I couldnt believe it was actualy her infront of me.

This cant be real !

I must be dreaming !

There she was walking towards me with the biggest grin on her face.

My Jenah.



Me: I thought you'd left...

Jenah: I could never leave the one I love behind.

Me: Then wht did you leave ?

Jenah: Ok seriosuly? Out of what I just said thats all you got ?

Me: Ummm....

Jenah: Now would be a good time to kiss me by the way..



Jenah was here in my arms..

I could feel every inch of her..

The warm feeling she gave me..

The smell of her hair..

The taste of her lips..

Oh how I've been longing for those lips..



Jenah: Let's go see our baby...

Me: Oh so its our baby now huh ?

Jenah: Dont ruin the moment sweetie..

Me: Heheheheheheheheheh yallah bs imshyy !

Jenah: Wait .... Msh3al.. a7bk...

Me: Dont ruin the moment sweetie..

Jenah: A7777 !

Me: 9dgeni mu kthrii 7ubii

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Bader: Jenah..

Me: Dont even ... Please leave...

Bader: Jenah I need you...

Me: I needed you Bader!!! I needed you!!!

Bader: Jenah...

Me: Get out !! Can't you see I'm going throught enough !!

Bader: I'm dying Jenah !!

Me: .....

Bader: I have lymphoma ....

Me: No.. No you dont.. ok you dont...

Bader: 7beebty I do... thats why am here. I came to tell my parents.. and then I'll be going to Germany for treatment.

Me: What stage is it ?

Bader: Two..

Me: Oh my god...



I broke down all my barriers and ran into his arms.

This was my Bader.

My Bader was sick and he needed me.

I promised him I would be there for him every step of the way.

But there was only one problem... Msh3al.

It's like Im back int he past, where I have to make a choice.

But what choice is that exactley ?

Msh3al is always hot and cold.

And Bader is always leaving.

Or maybe I don't love anyone.



Nawal: And what the hell are you gonna do with Nouf ?

Me: Take her with me ofcourse.

Nawal: We both know Msh3al would never approve.

Me: She's my daughter and I'm raising her.



Msh3al: HELL NO !!!! YOU ARE NOT TAKING MY CHILD AND GOING HALF WAY ACROSS THE WORLD !!!!

Me: He needs me Msh3al. He's sick and he has no one.

Msh3al: I dont give a shit !! You are not taking my daughter away !! You wanna go, Allah ma3akii bs Nouf stays.

Me: I'm her mother !!!

Msh3al: Start acting like one before you call yourself one !!!!! What the hell running off with your lover !!!!

Me: I'm not running offf !!!!!!! He trusts me and I'm the only one he has



I didn't care what answer he gave me.

I was still taking my daughter and going.

Wether he likes it or not !



I lied to Msh3al telling him I was going to stay.

Nouf needed me more than I needed her.

I know my daughter, she won't be able to live without me.



We walked into the airport and immediatly saw Bader buying us smoothies.

The three of us sat down and Bader started getting to know Noufyy.

She never opens up to anyone so easy, but surprisingly to Bader she did.


In the Plane we all sat in first class.

Bader wanted to make sure we were getting the best treatment.

Bader and me sat in the first two seats.

Nouf had the two seats behind us all to herself.

And his parents sat in the seats right behind Nouf.

This was it.

It was actualy going to happen.

I was going with Bader tothe States.

But was this really something I wanted to do ?

Or would I soon regret it ?

I needed a sign! Anything!






Incoming Call

Msh3al



Me: Aloo ?

Msh3al: WHERE THE HELL IS MY DAUGHTER !!!

Me: She's save dont worry.

Msh3al: GET OFF THE PLANE NOW JENAH IM FIVE MINUTES AWAY !!!

Me: I'm sorry...

Msh3al: NO DONT YOU DARE HANG UP DONT YOU DARE !!!



And then suddenly everything changed.

And I did what I had to do.

You only live once.

So I'm gonna live it right.

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I hope you all saw the comment by my sister on the previous post explaining why I didn't post !! ;s







Mother: What's wrong? Oh please for gods sake Jenah tell me whats wrong !

Me: It's.... baba and Msh3al... they've been in an accident...

Mother: WHAT?

Me: Their at the hospital right now. Msh3al is ok but baba isn't. Take care of Nouf, I'll call you when I get there.



Baba was on his way back home when he looked away for just a second. That one second nearly cost him his life.

Msh3al ran the red light trying to get to us soon, since he was already late an hour.

Luckily Msh3al only broke his leg but my dad... my dad was in a coma.

He was hurt really bad.

He had several muscles mis - placed.

He broe his arm and fractured his neck.

It was horrible.

Walking into the ICU seeing him in that condition broke me.

I literaly broke down on the floor.

I couldnt stand thinking of losing him. But it was all I could ever think about.

Msh3al was right there by my dad's side.

The doctor's were surprised nothing tragic happend to him.

They say it was a miracle he had only broken his leg.

I dont know what I would have done if he had been in a coma aswell.

I needed him.

Msh3al .

I needed him.

I coudlnt go through this alone.


I sat there holding my dad's hand for the next two hours. Not once did I let go.

Tears after tears after tears.

Msh3al suggested he take me home to rest.

But I refused.

My mom then showed up after getting a phone call from Msh3al.

She begged me to go home and rest and that she'd call me if anything changes.

We still didnt know how long the coma would last.

The doctor said a month or so.

He gave us no hope.

All we had was a prayer.


Msh3al took me home and rested me on my bed.

He took off my shoes and tucked me in.

As he closed the lights and was about to leave the room I stopped him...



Me: Stay with me...

Msh3al: 7beebty.. ofcourse...



He sat on the chair next to the window.

He was too far away from me.

I asked him to sit next to me and just hold me.

I wanted to be taken care of.



Me: I'm scared...

Msh3al: Dont' be.. Im here. Im always here..

Me: What if he doesnt make it? Then what? I wont be able to make it...

Msh3al: Dont say that. You have Nouf. You have.... Me...

Me: And you'll never leave me ?

Msh3al: Never...

Me: You promise ?

Msh3al: haha I pinky promise ba3ad..

Me: hahahahahhaa remember that day ?

Msh3al: How could I not ?

Me: We were such little kids...

Msh3al: Hah as I recall you were the kid. Begging me to win you that dolphine..

Me: And the second you pinky promised me, that was when you won me the dolphine...

Msh3al: Like magic !

Me: Hold me tighter...

Msh3al: Ummm Jenah ... ?



I sat up and looked him straight in the eye...

He took his arms off me and got up.

He stood in confusion.

Starting walking to the door.

I quickly ran and pulled him back.



Msh3al: No...

Me: Don't leave me tonight...

Msh3al: I have to...

Me:I need you...

Msh3al: I'm sorry Jenah...



I followed him downstairs yelling at him at how nonsense his behavior was.

He opend the door and there he was, making his way towards us.



Msh3al: Goodnight Jenah.. I'll see you at the hospital in the morning.

Me: Yeah..

Bader: Hospital ?

Me: Hello to you too.

Bader: You didnt answer my question.

Me: How about you answer mine first. Where the hell were you for the past two years ! Two years Bader !

Bader: That was the past Jenah.. let's leave it there.

Me: Your right. I'll leave you there.



That was the last thing I ever said to him that night.

I mean what more could I possibly have to say to him ?

Oh hey come on in, would you like a cup of tea ?

No !

It doesnt work that way !

He can't just pop in and out fo my life whenever he wants.

I'm not his puppet that he can controle on strings !

I did not sleep at all that night.

How could I after all that's happend.

My dad. Msh3al. Bader.

This was too much pressure all at once.

I'm surprised I didnt wind up in the hospital.



The next I had the nanny take Nouf to her friends house for the day. While me and my mom would be at the hospital with Msh3al and Nawal.

He didnt even look me in the eye thw whole morning.

He didnt even utter a single word to me.

He just walked right through me.

I was a ghost.


This is what he always did.

He always walks away and never gives us a chance to talk.

How else are we ever gonna get right down to things if we never communicate ?



Late afternoon came and I was sitting in the waiting room reading a magazine when Msh3al decides to sit next to me.

He grabbed the magazine away from my hands and aggresivly looked me in the eyes.



Me: Rude much ?

Msh3al: You can't keep playing these games with me Jenah ! You can't ! I'm not a toy ! You keep giving me mixed signals and I cant take it anymore. You need to make up your mind. I;m sick and tired of you childish games!



With that, he stormed out of the hospital.



Mother: What was that all about ?

Me: Men...

Mother: I'm gonna go home and rest for a while. Will you be ok by yourself ?

Me: Yeah..




I tried calling Msh3al not wanting to be alone.

Ever since I was a little girl I've hated hospitals.

They always scared the hell out of me.

A place where death lived.

Just being in it gives me the chills.


I wanted to focus on anything but my dad.

Staring at him would only make me more depressed.

I focused myself outside the window.

The cars passing by.

The trees.

Anything but my dad.


Faj2a I feel a light tap on my shoulders.

I jumped up with fear.



Me: BISMELAH ! Are you insane ?!! Never EVER scare someone in a hospital !!!

Bader: Sorry.. but I thought I'd stop by and say hi.

Me: How did you know ?

Bader: I called Nawal.

Me: Mmm... I had no idea you two were becoming best buddies. Now if you dont mind leaving please.

Bader: Actualy I do mind.

Me: What Bader? What is it that you want from me.

Bader: I made a mistake...

Me: Your a little too late.

Bader: Jenah..

Me: Dont even ... Please leave...

Bader: Jenah I need you...

Me: I needed you Bader!!! I needed you!!!

Bader: Jenah...

Me: Get out !! Can't you see I'm going throught enough !!

Bader: I'm dying Jenah !!

Me: .....

Bader: I have lymphoma ....

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You guys wallah your comemnts broke my heart :(
I was in Sharm and I didnt get back till late last night :(
Our flight got canceled and we had to stay an extra day.
I wanted to atleast write you guys a small post while I was there but my mom was all "its a family vacation, do you have to carry that thing around everywhere you go"
7adi tfashalt gdamha ;s
I would have asked a friend to write a small sorry post, but no body knows I have this account. Non of my friends do.
Dont make me feel like Im a bad blogger ;s Please...
Min jd ga6a36o galbii :'''(

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She had to go and ruin everything.

I was preparing Nouf's baby bag, we were going to see my parents that day. It's been a while.

While packing I decided to text Nawal and ask her if she wanted to join us.



Hey gorgous! Noufy and I are headed to my parents house right now.. wanna come? It'll be fun.. my mom's famouse cheescake.. ;p



Why Nawal ? Just tell me why did you have to go and act so stupid ?

As my message was being sent, she was in the kithen blending some fruits.

Somebody quickly snuch up behind her which made the blender fall to the floor. Fruit was splattered everywhere.



Nawal: What the hell are you trying to do kill me ?!

Bader: Haha Im sorry but your door was opend..

Nawal: You could have rang the door bell you moran !

Bader: Would you have even heard me ?

Nawal: Ugh hand me that towel over there !

Bader: Here... hey whats that sound ?

Nawal: My phone's on vibrate, must be Jenah.. hand it over please.

Bader: Who ?

Nawal: Ummm Jenah? Haha I ment Jamal.. hand it over please.



They both raced to the phone, only Nawal was too slow.

He pushed her aside and grabbed the phone and started to read the message.

He gave Nawal a dirty look and stormed out of the house.

No need to say where he was heading do I ?




At my parents house we were all having such a wonderful time.

Nouf was playing with the little kitten my parnets just got.

I was sitting down drinking tea with my mom.

While my dad was out getting a surprise cake for Nouf.

No occasion really, but he always loved spoiling her.




Incoming Call....


Me: WHAT..... WHERE..... OH MY GOD !!!..... I'M ON MY WAY !!!!




Me: Baby mommy is gonna just go out for a little while ok sweetie.. so I want you to be a good girl and stay with grandma ok ....

Mother: What's wrong? Oh please for gods sake Jenah tell me whats wrong !

Me: It's....






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Anne: Well I dont know. What do you think it means ?

Msh3al: I think she ment it, yet at the same time I think she thought I was about to kiss her to she leaned forward.

Anne: Mmmm.. and what did you feel after the kiss ?

Msh3al: Honestly I dont know what I felt. I was speechless. Althought ti did feel kinda good.

Anne: How about you take an appointment for Monday?



Msh3al's Side ~~



Why didn't she tell me she was seeing a shrink ?

I was the one who gave her the idea. She should know that I would understand.

I need to know what she was telling Anne.

I know she must have talked about me and the kiss we shared.

I'm tired of always being confused. I need to know. I have to know. But how ?


The only person I thought to call was Nawal.



Nawal: Mdrii shagolik Msh3al.. she never told me.

Msh3al: That's because she's been talking to a shrink.

Nawal: Hahahahahah !!! Jenah seeing a shrink? Mosta7eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel !!

Msh3al: Well believe it. She's been avoiding me ever since that day. Bs she cant hide from me forever. This isnt something tiny. We need to talk about it.

Nawal: Want me to talk to her for you ?

Msh3al: La ma abeeha tfrii inah I know everything.

Nawal: I would tell her everything, bs I'll try to drag it out of her.



Back To Jenah ~~


Bader is coming tommorow and I'm freaking out.

What if all fails and he really does find me ?

I don't know if my heart can take it.


So the next day arrived and everything went smoothly.

That is until Nawal screwed up.




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That same night Msh3al and I stayed up late after Nouf went to bed.

And then things got kind of awkward.

He leaned in to what I thought was something, but it turned out to be something else.

As he leaned in towards me, I leaned in too.

Before I knew it, I kissed him.

When he moved back I saw the tissue box in his hand. I felt like such an ideot.

What was wrong with me ?



Msh3al: Thank you ?

Me: I thought...

Msh3al: No just a tissue...

Me: You know what I am exhausted.. yaaaawn..

Msh3al: You just said yawn you didnt yawn.

Me: That only proves how out if it I am.. Ok nighty night byeeeee



I pulled him off the couch and started pushing him through the door. I wanted him out my house immediatly! I was humiliated. No way was I going to sit another minute with him after I did what I did.

What if things change tommorow?

I needed Anne !!

I rushed right over to her the next morning !!



Anne: Hmmm... well did you want to kiss him ?

Me: WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO ANSWER A QUESTION WITH A QUESTION !!!

Anne: ....

Me: No... well yes.... just a little...

Anne: What about this Bader ?

Me: Oh I didnt tell you ! He's coming tommorow !

Anne: You spoke to him ?

Me: No, my friend Nawal was in Boston and she ran into him.

Anne: Seeing Bader would only jepordise your life even more. You need calmness not drama. I think it's best if you avoid Bader.

Me: Nawal is gonna cover for me anyways, saying I was out of town with Nouf.

Anne: Well why not make that a reality ?

Me: Nouf has school and I need to discuss it wish Msh3al which is something I do NOT wanna do right now.. seeing him is a big no no..



Bader was coming. It finaly started to hit me. He was going to be here. What if all fails and he really does see me?

Would be able to controle myself ?

What about Msh3al ?

DAMN IT !



I've avoided Msh3al for 2 days now.

Whenever he'd come to see Noud I'd have the nanny bring her out.

I made sure I wasn't around.

I knew I couldn't keep it up for long, he eventualy caught me leaving the house one afternoon.



Msh3al: Let me atleasy drop you off.

Me: I have a car thanks...



I kept trying to hide my face.



Msh3al: Yallah 3ad Jenah where are you going ?

Me: The market on ________ street..

Msh3al: Thats on my way to the gym yallah let me drop you...



That was the market on the opposit side of Anne's office.

I was already running late and had no time to argue so I got in, but in the back seat.

When I got out of the car I looked back and he was still there. As always he wanted to make sure I got in safely.

I was already late and had to run to the other side.

The second I sad Msh3al's car leave I bolted !

Little did I know that Msh3al had just parked a few blocks away, and caught me red handed.

That's the thing about Msh3al.. he knows me so well. He can even spot the tiniest little things.


He stayed out waiting until my session was over and saw me leave.

As always he has to get to the bottom of everything.

He got out of his car, and starting his investigation.

He gave my name at the reception and they led him straight to Anne.



Anne: May I help you ?

Msh3al: Yeah... I have a problem...

Anne: Yes ?

Msh3al: My ex wife kissed me and I need to know what that means.

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Me: Meshoo I need to talk to you about something....

Msh3al: You ok ?

Me: No not really... Umm latley I've been having dreams abotu Bader.

Msh3al: 6yb thats normal.. since you miss him and all...

Me: Yeah but yesterdays dream was way freaky. Remember when i went to the bakery? Well as I waited I dozed off... And I had a small dream about Bader.. He was the owner of the bakery.. and then the next morning after the birthday.. he left me a cupcake on the doorstep..

Msh3al: How how long have you been having dreams about him ?

Me: Uhhh a month...

Msh3al: Jay I know your gonna hate what I have to say but why not talk to someone ?

Me: I'm talking to you.

Msh3al: No I mean a professional..

Me: No way.. shrinks are for crazy people..

Msh3al: It was just a suggestion..





Why?? Why?? Why??

Why is this happening to me?

Why cant he just leave me alone?

He's out of my life now so why is he now haunting me in my dreams?

He's the one who left me !

I should be in peace now!

He should be the one with the dreams !

I still can't believe how my life has turned out...

Msh3al let me go so I could be with the man I ... umm loved?

And he let me go...

So now here I am..

Divorced.

And all alone.

Bs aham shay I have Noufy.. wallah mdri wsh asawi min '3airha. 7beebty !

But the most Im gonna take out of that day is that Noufy had fun..

She's the jewl of my eye.. if she's happy then thats all I need !



A few days passed by and I'd still been dreaming about Bader..

I couldnt take it anymore..

I decided not to spread the word... I decided to go see someone.

I was always against shrinks.

Talking to a stranger about all my problems. But if it's what's gonna get Bader out of my head then its what I got to do.



Me: So you came here all the way from the UK ?

Anne: Yes thats correct.

Me: Aha so tell me a little bit about yourself.

Anne: Ummm...

Me: Oh Im sorry .. I'm new at this ...

Anne: Your nervous its ok.

Me: Ok so what do you wanna know ?

Anne: Why are you here Jenah ?

Me: Well latley I've been having dreams.. ALOT of dreams about this guy...

Anne: I need you to take me back to the past..



I told her about everything. My marriage with Msh3al. My affair with Bader. The divorce. How Bader broke my heart. Nouf. Every little detail. I was surprised how I could do all that in a one hour session.



Anne: What do you think you should do ?

Me: I was hoping you could tell me that.

Anne: I'm not here to provide you with the answers Jenah. I'm here to help you find them.

Me: Well Im blank.

Anne: It's not that simple. One session wont allow me to help you.

Me: Oh so Im supposed to come here everyday?

Anne: Thats entirly up to you.

Me: I'm just scared.

Anne: What about ? That you might actualy figuire out what you finaly want ?

Me: Maybe.. I dunno...

Anne: I cant force you to do anything Jenah. But if you'd like, I could see you this time tommorow.

Me: Let me sleep on it.



Why is it so easy to open up to shrinks than it is to our family or friends?

I actualy felt comfortable talking to her.

I was kinda hoping one session would do it all.. but I guess its gonna take more than that.

But what did she mean when she said "...finaly what you want" ?

Was she talking about Msh3al or Bader ?

Or maybe someone else ?

The next afternoon I decided to go and see her.

I went to see her every other day for the next two weeks.

I've started to feel at ease when I was around her. Like everything was going to be ok. But the peoblem was when I left her office.

I felt like a wreck since the dreams have started.

Sometimes I would pick up the phone and start to dial his number. But I'd come to senses and hang up.






Msh3al and I were friends. We've left the past behind and moved on.

But I dunno why I did what I did...

I asked him out to dinner.

I didn't know wether it was a date or just dinner as friends. All I know is I wanted to go out. And he seemed like the perfect company.



Msh3al: This is weird..

Me: What is ?

Msh3al: You and me out to dinner...

Me: So?

Msh3al: Our favorite little romantic french restuarant.

Me: Oh...

Msh3al: No no dont get me wrong. Bel3ax.. either way I was eventualy gonna ask to go out with you..

Me: Ummm...

Msh3al: As friends ofcourse...

Me: So how's work ?

Msh3al: Really ?

Me: I dunno this is kinda awkward..

Msh3al: Jenah.. look at me... It's me and it's you. Us. Nothing can ever be awkward between us.



It felt good.. and kinda right being out with Msh3al that night.

I needed a night.

Besides he was the father of my child, so nothing wrong with the two parents having dinner right ?

Anne said that I missed Msh3al and wanted to re-connect with him, but on a ground level.

She said I needed to establish a stronger relationship with him, since he's Nouf's father and all.



The weird thing was when Msh3al told me he was going out on a date with his friends sister.

Ok.. isnt that kind of weird/gross ? Well to me it is !

Was a jelouse ?

I dunno. All I know is that I did NOT like the idea of him dating.

Anne said it was jelousy.

But there is absolutly no reason for me to jelouse right ?

Were HAPPILY divorced.

He can go off and get married for all I care !



Msh3al: Ok so how do I look ?

Me: You came all the way over here to get my approval on your clothes ?

Msh3al: Yallah 3ad Jenah I'm metting Jude in half an hour !

Me: Haha its kinda similar to my name !

Msh3al: Aha yeah ok. So do I look ok ?

Me: Uff yeah you look fine !



I crossed my arms and gave him my back.

He tried asking me what was wrong but all I did was shrug.

For some reason, that night, I really felt like calling Bader.

The only problem is I know I would regret it in the morning.

I met up with Nawal the next afternoon.

She was in Boston with Jamal for a month.

She wanted to take a buisness class there.

Turns out Bader was working there, and she ran into him a couple of times.

He would ask about me.

He also begged for my number but Nawal wouldnt.

She said he was coming back to visit his dad for a week and that he wanted to see me.

My heart starting racing.

I didnt want him to come back.

Anne was finaly helping me get passed him.

Him coming back would ruin everything.

Nawal comforted me telling me that she'll cover for me saying that I was out of town with Nouf.

I love this girl ! She's always there for me when I need her the most.



That same night Msh3al and I stayed up late after Nouf went to bed.

And....

A7bkmmmmmmmmm !!! ;******

Hehe...
You dont really think I'd rush my story now do you ?
*sigh* If only you readers would wait just to see the next post and what it had to hold.
Anyways enjoy this post..
I know I haven't been posting alot. It's not that I don't want to.. bl3ax I SO want to..
I'm supposed to graduate in 2 months. But I wanna graduate NEXT month.. so that I can quickly start my summer corse. So I'm working my butt off right now.
I really wish I could post everyday like I used to and believe me I'm trying! But please understand that it's not intentionaly.
Please dont think that Im a bad blogger... I dont mean to disapoint you guys..
I love you all so much and writing these stories is what I love to do !
I would never rush any of my stories !
I have a post for you all.. its a long one. I will start writing it in a bit.
Inshallah it will be posted after midnight.. cause I have this wedding to attend to at 10. Ufffff !!
Im so sorry if I dissapointed any of my readers.. please forgive me...
I will try and post as often as I can.. but for now bare with me.

The Other Man 25

You guys hate me !! I know I know !!
I was sick .. I had bad food poisoning ;s
Anyways I'm all better now so here's a juicy post for you all !!
I love you !!
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Two Years Later...



Me: It's her 3rd birthday for god's sake how could the cake not be here yet !!!

Msh3al: Jen relax I'm going to call them now and see what's taking them.

Me: I arranged a meeting with them a month ago !! And they can't even bring the cake on time !!

Msh3al: Hello.... yes hi I'm calling on behalf of Jenah Al-Flani.... mm hmmmm.... so how long would it take ?......... no we can't wait that long tha party is in an hour..... alright.... thanks....

Me: So ?!

Msh3al: Ummm it's gonna be a while...

Me: What do you mean it's gonna be a while !!!

Msh3al: Ok calm down... they are just running a bit late.

Me: No... the guests are waiting.. 7aram no.. I'm going to get the cake.

Msh3al: Jenah...

Me: I'll be back as soon as I can.




He's always there for me. In the past two years we''ve managed to become really good friends. He lives just a few minutes away, so he can come and see Nouf whenever he wants.

Everything was going so well. But what about Bader right ?

Ever since that night I've tried contacting him but his phone would be disconnected. Didn't take him long enough to do that huh?

I just wish he could have explained to me what the hell was going on inside his head. He always gave me mixed signals. I never knew what his intentions were. One minute I'd think I know, then the next I'm completly cluless.

Two years and NOTHING from him.

It's not like I haven't tried. I've been on a couple od blind dates and I've dated this guy for about three months but we broke up.

I herd a couple of times that Bader was back in town and was looking to visit me but I ignored.



Me: What do you mean it's not ready ?!?!

Cheif: I'm so sorry miss but --

Me: NO BUT !! I WANNA SPEAK TO THE OWNER !!

Cheif: Miss this is a newly opened buisness please...

Me: It's my daughter's 3rd birthday !! No I will not just let this go !! I made this order a month ago !! You know for a newly opened buisness you sure don't stick to your word ! Now where's the owner !!

Cheif: Ummm.. he won't be here for a while..

Me: Well then I'll wait..



I gave him a huge smile and sat down.

Waited.........

And waited ...............

And Waited ........................



Me: OK WHERE THE HELL IS THE OWNER IT'S BEEN AN HOUR ALREADY !!!































































































Bader: Still with the temper I see...

Me: Bader...

Bader: Hey Jay.

Me: This is your bakery ?

Bader: Haha you seem surprised.

Me: Well it's not everyday you see a lawyer open up a bakery..

Bader: Ah but you see I still am a lawyer AND I own a bakery...

Me: But why a bakery ?

Bader: My mom always wanted to open up a bakery.. she passed away a couple months ago..

Me: Oh my god Bader... I'm so sorry...



I came closer to try and comfort him but he took a step back.



Bader: Yeah... she was amazing in the kitchen. I found alot of her own recipe's.

Me: And you wanted to make them...

Bader: Yeah, so anyways what's the problem ?

Me: Oh you know what forget it... I gotta get going anyways...

Bader: Jenah what is it ?

Me: Well it's Nouf's 3rd birthday and I came here a month a go to have a cake customized and well they don't have it ready...

Bader: Y7lelha Nouf... allah y5aleeha lek inshallah... Mmmm about the cake I'm so sorry.. I can have a cake ready for you in two hours, how does that sound ?

Me: The birthday is taking place right now.. the cake is already an hour late of skedual. Really it's ok I'll just take a couple od cupcakes and light em' up.

Bader: Jay I'm so sorry.. I feel so bad.

Me: It's ok.



He went into the kitchen to get someone to box a few cupcakes. The second he was out of my sight, I ran out.

I couldn't handel seeing him. God knows how I remained calm during those few minutes.


I passed by Basken Robin's on my way home and bought a huge chocolate icecream cake. I know it wasn't perfect, but the most important thing was for Nouf to make her birthday wish and blow out the candels.

The party ended at 9 and I was exhausted. Nouf was beat, she wouldn't take a breath once. She was the center of attention all day. Running around and playing with all of her friends. This is what a mother lives for. Seeing that million dollar smile on their babies.



The next morning I woke up to find a little treat on my front door. A little velvet box, and inside it was a mini vanilla cupcake. There was a card too, which read: "I know their your favorite."

Do you blame me if I smiled ?

It was sweet.. but that did not mean I was going to see him again.

Why is it that no matter what happens he's always in my life ?

I licked a bit of the frosting ontop then threw it in the trash.



As I do every morning, I checked my email with a cup of tea.

I recieved an e-mail...



I had my reasons. I know you must probably hate me now, but trust me I hate myself more for letting you go. That was the biggest mistake of my life. Your probably rolling your eyes ight now right? Well you have every right to. I broke your heart, and I'm so sorry. Jay you have no idea how sorry I am. Your all I think about, every day and night. Damn I sound so pathetic right now, and your cracking a smile right now. I know ya'..
I know I have no right to be writing you this e-mail but I had to. I promised myself I wouldn't contact you personaly, but after seeing you yesterday I couldn't resist.
Everytime I see you... you just keep getting more beautiful.
Now I have a favor to ask..
I want you Jenah... Leaving you was a mistake! And god I wish I could take it back!
Your the one Jenah! It's you!
Can I ask for one more chance ?
Is it even possible?
Just give me hope.. hope that maybe.. someday.. I just want hope.
And I don't care what it takes !
This time I'm gonna fight for you!
I lost you once and I wont lose you again!
I love you... I never stopped loving you...