Sunday, June 20, 2010
What Fate Holds For Me 15
7abaybee wallah asfa 6awalt 3leekm. Bs Ive been a bit busy tha past two days. My best friend and I broke up. LOL i dont know what else to call it. She wasnt the person I thought she was. And turns out she does things that Im totaly against. Sure she was there for me and all that bs wsh aham, friendship wla sm3aty? Anyways I'll soon be entering the wonderful life of uni so Im gonna meet a bunch of girls better than her. Anyways Im back oon shallah ra7 a7awel I post kl yoom. Bs if I dont 3therooni. I love you all. And sorry I know I keep bringing this up. bs ba7ad is commenting oo its the only thing gives me support and motivation :(
I said goodbye to Fahad and told him we;d do something later that night.
Bader and I were out to Lunch at a nearby restuarant.
Umm.. so he seems nice.
Who? Oh you mean Fahad. Yeah he is.
Is that why you wouldnt go out with me ?
Fahad and I werent really a couple back when I first met you.
Ok so then it was me? Did I give you some sort of bad vibe ?
I dunno I just didnt feel a spark. I mean theres supposed to be that spark. And I definitley felt it with Fahad.
But we can still be friends yeah ?
Umm.. well I guess so but with limits.
Ofcourse.
We got back to the center and went our seperate ways.
I had forgotton my phone in my office, oh yeah they gave me such a cute little office.
Fahad had left me 2 missed calls and 1 text.
7beebty I dont want you ever seeing that man again. Call me..
I was a bit confused. He seemed fine earlier when he said hello to Bader. From where I was standing they got along fine. He doesnt even know Bader so how can he be so quick to judge. I just hope he's not the over jelouse type. Sure a girls loves it when her man is jelouse of her, but too much is just too much. I had to let Fahad know his limits before he lget the idea that he can stomp all over me whenever he wants. In a relationship everything has to be cleared up from the begining or else problems will occur later on. ** speaking out of experiance :) **
Later that night I told Fahad everything that was on my mind.
But you know Im doing this cause I care about you.
I know 7ayati wallah I know bs there has to be limits. Theres a red line that neither one of us can cross. And that line is called trust. Do you trust me ?
Ofcourse I do.
Well then thats all there is to it. You have your friends and I have mine. They cannot mix.
Your right and Im sorry.
Wow just like that ?
If this will make you happy then yeah.
Good we got that sorted out.
Speaking of friends, anything new with Farah ?
Nope. Haven't herd from her in a while now. I guess she finaly gave up.
Later that night when I walked into my room, I found one hell of big surprise.
Sultan and Farah were sitting on my bed.
They both looked so down.
At first I thought they were together. But then I remembered Haitham so I let that thought slip away.
I wa shocked. I mean if one of them, either or were here it would make perfect sense. But both of them ? Oh I could not wait to find out.
Hallah Hadeel..
What are you guys doing here. Especially you!
First of all dont talk to her that way and second sit down. We need to talk.
Ooooo what are you guys breaking up with me now ?
This isnt funny. SIT DOWN !
Fine! There Im sitting. What ?
Do you realize that this is your best friend sitting infront of you right now? Do you realize that you just let her go.
No, she let ME slip away. She was cruel and selfish!
I was trying to protect you !! He isnt right for you !!
That isnt your call to make !
Hadeel you know me. You know that I want nothing but the best for you. Farah may have dine it the wrong way but she lives you so much. You cant just throw all those years of friendship away for a guy you just met!
I need my best friend to be supportive of the man in my life. She has to ! What If I need her? Who will I go to? Im not gonna leave Fahad if thats what your both here for.
I never meant to hurt you. You mean so much to me. But its just that I didnt get a good vibe from me. I dunno theres just something wrong about him.
You dont even know him! You've never even see or spoke to him.
Yarabiii.. does he make you happy ?
Yes.
Do you have any doubts at all ?
No.
Well then Im happy for you.. Well atleast I'll do my very best to get ussed to it all.
Take as much time as you need, but I just really need my best friend by my side.
Im always by your side 7beebty.
Okaaaaaaaaaay this is getting a bit too girly for me. My job here is done. Goodbye ladies.
I walked Sultan to the door. I asked him why he suddenly cared about my relationship with Fahad. I thought he started to care. But turns out that Farah came to him and asked for his help. I guess this was all just an act of kindness. Not for me, but for Farah. I actualy thought he was coming around but he told he did this because friendship is more important than any guy. But what really gto to me was when he told me that Fahad may be trying to get rid of everyone in my life so that I would be close to just him. As always I defended Fahad, and Sultan walked away with a disappointment.
Since Farah wasnt really cozying up to the idea of Fahad and me. I told her to come to lunch with us the next day. To give him a second chance. Thank God she agreed!
The Next Day At Lunch..
Everything was going fine until I got up to use the restroom. They had an... intresting talk.
Listen Im sorry about what I did.
I understand.. your jelouse.
Hahahaha excuse me?
Its ok. I understand. Your alone and your jelouse that your best friend has found someone.
Ok I think you've got the wrong script over there. I was just trying to protect my best friend. I would go to the extreme to do that.
Farah Farah.. sweet innocent Farah. I really do like Hadeel and Im not going anywhere. So you better get used to that.
Well what the hell do you think Im doing here then ?
Mmm..
Ok sweetie listen here. Frankly I dont like you. I just dont. So lets just pretend that we both get along for Hadeel's sake. But I swear if you hurt her I will kill you. I will hunt you down and kick your ass. And no this is not me speaking out of anger, this is me speaking out of truth.
Well arnt you fiesty.
Your a pig!
Hey.. so what are we talking about?
Oh nothing 7beebty. Farah was just telling me how much she hates horror movies. Especialy the scene where the girls makes a wrong move and ends up hurt.
Awww Im so glad you guys are getting along.
Me too.. Me too..
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
What Fate Holds For Me 14
I spent the rest of the day with my parents. They took me out to dinner to celebrate. All in all it was a great dinner despita what has happend.
The next morning I woke up with a big smile on my face. I was so excited, I couldnt wait to start my first day at the center. So I washed up and got dressed. I wanted to be casual so I wore my skinny jeans, a sleevless white v neck top, and a red cardigan. And to finish it off, some gold short gladiator sandals. I then headed down for breakfast. My mom and dad were still asleep so I made my own breakfast.
I was finaly ready to leave, Fahad was just outside waiting to drop me off.
Were here.. so you ready ?
Yeah but a little scared. I mean what if I get scared, cry or breakdown. I mean I care so much about these kids.
Umm isn't that the guy from yesterday ?
Oh my god.. yeah....... BADER !
What are you doing.. ta3ali let me walk you in.
La its ok 7beebi..
I rushed over to Bader who didnt look too thrilled to see me.
Hey how are you ?
Fine..
Then he just breezed right passed me. He didn't even look at me, just stared at the ground.
Im fine thanks for asking.
Hadeel Im really not in the mood. Tawni 9a7i o mani rayeg. Fa lw tbeeni a9ar5 3leek 7ayak allah ma3ay. Otherwise leave me the hell alone.
This was a side of him Ive never seen before. He's always the sweet innocent guy.
Anyways it was my first day and I wasnt gonna let him or anybody ruin it for me.
So I walked in with my head up high and greeted everybody. I took my card which allowed me free acess anywhere in the building and went to find my boss.
She was in the playroom with some of the children.
Hallah Hadeel.. welcome to the team.
Thank you so much for having me Im so excited.
Well I really felt yesterday that you care about these children. But I want you to keep in mind that were here to try and make them happy. These kids are all under 5, with some disabilities. So please dont let us down.
I wont, you have my word.
Great, now do you have any questions you would like to ask me before you begin ?
Yes actualy.. umm that man over there sitting down. Who's he waiting for ?
Oh he comes here alot, mostly during the mornings. He has a four year old sister.
Oh.. well what's wrong with her? Does she have a disablity ?
No.. umm... well upstairs on the 3rd floor we have a small clinic. And sometimes we have patients who stay there. And well his sister has been in a coma for the past two months.
Oh my god there terrible. But is she safe I mean are your staff here perfectly qualified to take care of her ?
Haha ofcourse they are! We have nothing but the best!
Im sorry I asked but..
Its alright now lets get back to work.
I walked around here and there and started playing with the children. I even gathered a few of them around and began to read to them. It felt so good to finaly do something for others. I've been busy with myself and my studies not having time for anthing or anyone else. Out of everything I could have done this summer, Im so glad I chose this. It was for a good cause.
I tried looking for Bader but couldnt find him anywhere. Since I had free acess to anywhere in the building I decided to go up to the clinic to find him.
Lucky for me he was there. In a glass room sitting on the bedside next to his sister. Just looking at her she broke my heart. She looked so weak and helpless. I couldnt help but want to go and hug her. I felt fo Bader, althought I didnt have any siblings I could imagine myself in his situation. I was surprised at how content he was whenever I saw him. He seemed like such a normal guy with no problems attatched to him.
Im sorry..
What are you doing here ?
I asked about you downstairs and they told me about your sister.. Bader Im so so sorry.
Why did you have to go and dig your nose in where it didnt belong..
Im sorry.. I'll leave...
No.. Hadeel wait.. come in.
So what happend to her ?
It was me.. I did this to her.
What do you mean you did this to her ?
We were on our way home from a movie one night and I ran a red light. I saw no cars coming my way so I ran it. I guess I was wrong and the car crashed on her side of the car.
Oh my god.. Bader Im so sorry...
I got off my seat and went over to him and hugged him. I started to tear up but pulled myself together. I really did feel sorry for him. I wished I could do something to make him feel a bit better.
Hey you know what? How about you get a change of scenary.
But please a place nearby..
Ofcourse dont worry. I have a break and the perfect place.
On our way out walking to his car somebody suddenly pulls me back by my arm.
And where do you think your going ?
Hallah 7beeby this is Bader. He's not feeling too well so Im taking him out for lunch.
Aha.. well how about I come with you guys ?
7beebi I dont think thats a good idea. Him opening up to somone else..
Well atleast let me say hello.
I was surprised tha Fahad wanted to say hello, and even more surprised when he gave him a friendly hug. Well.. atleast it seemed friendly.
Dont even think about making a move on her...
The next morning I woke up with a big smile on my face. I was so excited, I couldnt wait to start my first day at the center. So I washed up and got dressed. I wanted to be casual so I wore my skinny jeans, a sleevless white v neck top, and a red cardigan. And to finish it off, some gold short gladiator sandals. I then headed down for breakfast. My mom and dad were still asleep so I made my own breakfast.
I was finaly ready to leave, Fahad was just outside waiting to drop me off.
Were here.. so you ready ?
Yeah but a little scared. I mean what if I get scared, cry or breakdown. I mean I care so much about these kids.
Umm isn't that the guy from yesterday ?
Oh my god.. yeah....... BADER !
What are you doing.. ta3ali let me walk you in.
La its ok 7beebi..
I rushed over to Bader who didnt look too thrilled to see me.
Hey how are you ?
Fine..
Then he just breezed right passed me. He didn't even look at me, just stared at the ground.
Im fine thanks for asking.
Hadeel Im really not in the mood. Tawni 9a7i o mani rayeg. Fa lw tbeeni a9ar5 3leek 7ayak allah ma3ay. Otherwise leave me the hell alone.
This was a side of him Ive never seen before. He's always the sweet innocent guy.
Anyways it was my first day and I wasnt gonna let him or anybody ruin it for me.
So I walked in with my head up high and greeted everybody. I took my card which allowed me free acess anywhere in the building and went to find my boss.
She was in the playroom with some of the children.
Hallah Hadeel.. welcome to the team.
Thank you so much for having me Im so excited.
Well I really felt yesterday that you care about these children. But I want you to keep in mind that were here to try and make them happy. These kids are all under 5, with some disabilities. So please dont let us down.
I wont, you have my word.
Great, now do you have any questions you would like to ask me before you begin ?
Yes actualy.. umm that man over there sitting down. Who's he waiting for ?
Oh he comes here alot, mostly during the mornings. He has a four year old sister.
Oh.. well what's wrong with her? Does she have a disablity ?
No.. umm... well upstairs on the 3rd floor we have a small clinic. And sometimes we have patients who stay there. And well his sister has been in a coma for the past two months.
Oh my god there terrible. But is she safe I mean are your staff here perfectly qualified to take care of her ?
Haha ofcourse they are! We have nothing but the best!
Im sorry I asked but..
Its alright now lets get back to work.
I walked around here and there and started playing with the children. I even gathered a few of them around and began to read to them. It felt so good to finaly do something for others. I've been busy with myself and my studies not having time for anthing or anyone else. Out of everything I could have done this summer, Im so glad I chose this. It was for a good cause.
I tried looking for Bader but couldnt find him anywhere. Since I had free acess to anywhere in the building I decided to go up to the clinic to find him.
Lucky for me he was there. In a glass room sitting on the bedside next to his sister. Just looking at her she broke my heart. She looked so weak and helpless. I couldnt help but want to go and hug her. I felt fo Bader, althought I didnt have any siblings I could imagine myself in his situation. I was surprised at how content he was whenever I saw him. He seemed like such a normal guy with no problems attatched to him.
Im sorry..
What are you doing here ?
I asked about you downstairs and they told me about your sister.. Bader Im so so sorry.
Why did you have to go and dig your nose in where it didnt belong..
Im sorry.. I'll leave...
No.. Hadeel wait.. come in.
So what happend to her ?
It was me.. I did this to her.
What do you mean you did this to her ?
We were on our way home from a movie one night and I ran a red light. I saw no cars coming my way so I ran it. I guess I was wrong and the car crashed on her side of the car.
Oh my god.. Bader Im so sorry...
I got off my seat and went over to him and hugged him. I started to tear up but pulled myself together. I really did feel sorry for him. I wished I could do something to make him feel a bit better.
Hey you know what? How about you get a change of scenary.
But please a place nearby..
Ofcourse dont worry. I have a break and the perfect place.
On our way out walking to his car somebody suddenly pulls me back by my arm.
And where do you think your going ?
Hallah 7beeby this is Bader. He's not feeling too well so Im taking him out for lunch.
Aha.. well how about I come with you guys ?
7beebi I dont think thats a good idea. Him opening up to somone else..
Well atleast let me say hello.
I was surprised tha Fahad wanted to say hello, and even more surprised when he gave him a friendly hug. Well.. atleast it seemed friendly.
Dont even think about making a move on her...
What Fate Holds For Me 13
Adrii its short bs inshallah by midnight tonight I will post part 14. Met7amsa marra min hathal post o wdii akamla bsr3aaaa heheheheheh :D
I love you all..
Oh and 7awoor 7beebty la ytheeg 9adrik.. whoever is doing this is a cheao talent. Your much better than girl. O bs goli el7mdela wl shkr. Your a talented writer mashallah 3leeki oo you should be proud of yourself and just move on. We all love you and know that ! Dont let this get to you. This person is obviously jelouse of your skills.. so if I were you I'd just smile with my head up high ;p.. keep doing what your doing and know were all following you every step of the way..
Amoot feeeek 7beebty !! ;***
I called Fahad and he told me to just tell him where I am and he'd be there soon.
7beebty shfeek 5ara3teeni ?!
Just take me back home please, I wanna go back home.
7ather bs awal shay goleli wsh eli 9ar !
I told him everything. Staring from where Farah wasnt too thrilled about me having him in my life and ending it with me finding the flowers and card in her bedroom drawer.
Fahad's face began to turn red. Due to what Ive witnessed in the past, he's the type that would get upset really fast.
He dropped me off home and told me to not worry about a thing.
But all I could do was worry. This was supposed to be our summer, me and Farah. And now I dont think I can have that.
The next afternoon I sat down in the living room with my mom and I aksed her if she knew any children centers intrested in a volunteer. Mama has a friend who works at one so she gave her a call and got me an interview.
I was a little upset that I had to go through an interview but as long as I had a shot..
See, I've always loved kids. I especialy for a while now have wanted to help out in a center. It didnt matter to me what center it was, as long as I helped them in any way. That would be more than enough for me.
My interview was set for tommorow at 11 am, I couldnt wait.
Farah tried calling and texting me a couple times but I didnt bother returning any of them. I mean what could she possibly have to say to me? Sorry? That certainly wont do anything. Her actions and reasons for it were perfectly clear. She hated Fahad and didnt want us to be together. But never, NEVER did I think she would snoop this low and do something so shady that was beneath her.
I wanted to get a good nights rest before my interview so Fahad said he would take me out to an early dinner.
Are you excited 7beebty ?
Ehh!!! I cant wait wallah bs its just an interview I mean I dont wanna get my hopes ut too high.
La nshallah you'll do fine 7beebty I know you will. And you never know, they might even give you the job immidiatley.
I hope so..
Fahad really put me at ease that night. I went to bed feeling calm and relaxed. Once I got tucked into my bed we talked on the phone for a few minutes then I went off to sleep.
The next morning I woke up so nervous. I've never actualy been in an interview let alone had a job.
My mom made me an amazing breakfast of pancakes and fruits. She even offered to drive me to the center herself but I lied and told her that Farah would be taking me cause the truth was that Fahad would be picking me up.
Once I got to the center I was panicking. Fahad kissed me on my forehead and told me it was going to be ok. He held me in his arms until they called out my name.
He wished me good luck and said he's be right outside waiting for me.
All they did was ask me one simple question.. "why are you here?"
Honestly Ive always loved kids. Whenever I saw them they always put an instant smile on my face. They really are the miracles of life. And if I have the chance to make a diffrence.. or atleast a one percent diffrence then thats more than enough for me. Seeing them in pain or in siffering really breaks my heart. And If I have the chance to put a smile on their face just like they put a smile on my face then that would mean the absolute world to me. I would really love to work with you at this center. These children need people to take care of them while their parents are not with them. Their disabilities doesnt make then less than who they are, and I want to show them that.
I couldnt believe it. They hired me! They said that I spoke with such passion and confidence that they would love to have me start right away.
I ran into Fahad's arms like a little child and he carried me and twirled me around like a little princess. He was so proud of me, I could see it in his eyes.
He took my hand and we made our way out to the car. On our way walking down the stairs, I see a familiar face walking towards me.
Bader?
Oh... Hadeel.. umm... hi....
What are you doing here ?
Just visiting..
Oh.. who is it ?
Sorry but if you dont mind I have to go.. it was nice seeing you again..
Who was that ?!!!!
Calm down sparky.. he's no one.. just a guy..
Mmm.. anyways so where do you wanna go ?
.....
Hadeel? shfeek tana7ty ?
... huh? Oh mafeeni shay.. ok yallah lets go...
Did that guy get to you or something ? Are you sure your telling me everything ?
La he didnt. Im fine. Lets just go.
I love you all..
Oh and 7awoor 7beebty la ytheeg 9adrik.. whoever is doing this is a cheao talent. Your much better than girl. O bs goli el7mdela wl shkr. Your a talented writer mashallah 3leeki oo you should be proud of yourself and just move on. We all love you and know that ! Dont let this get to you. This person is obviously jelouse of your skills.. so if I were you I'd just smile with my head up high ;p.. keep doing what your doing and know were all following you every step of the way..
Amoot feeeek 7beebty !! ;***
I called Fahad and he told me to just tell him where I am and he'd be there soon.
7beebty shfeek 5ara3teeni ?!
Just take me back home please, I wanna go back home.
7ather bs awal shay goleli wsh eli 9ar !
I told him everything. Staring from where Farah wasnt too thrilled about me having him in my life and ending it with me finding the flowers and card in her bedroom drawer.
Fahad's face began to turn red. Due to what Ive witnessed in the past, he's the type that would get upset really fast.
He dropped me off home and told me to not worry about a thing.
But all I could do was worry. This was supposed to be our summer, me and Farah. And now I dont think I can have that.
The next afternoon I sat down in the living room with my mom and I aksed her if she knew any children centers intrested in a volunteer. Mama has a friend who works at one so she gave her a call and got me an interview.
I was a little upset that I had to go through an interview but as long as I had a shot..
See, I've always loved kids. I especialy for a while now have wanted to help out in a center. It didnt matter to me what center it was, as long as I helped them in any way. That would be more than enough for me.
My interview was set for tommorow at 11 am, I couldnt wait.
Farah tried calling and texting me a couple times but I didnt bother returning any of them. I mean what could she possibly have to say to me? Sorry? That certainly wont do anything. Her actions and reasons for it were perfectly clear. She hated Fahad and didnt want us to be together. But never, NEVER did I think she would snoop this low and do something so shady that was beneath her.
I wanted to get a good nights rest before my interview so Fahad said he would take me out to an early dinner.
Are you excited 7beebty ?
Ehh!!! I cant wait wallah bs its just an interview I mean I dont wanna get my hopes ut too high.
La nshallah you'll do fine 7beebty I know you will. And you never know, they might even give you the job immidiatley.
I hope so..
Fahad really put me at ease that night. I went to bed feeling calm and relaxed. Once I got tucked into my bed we talked on the phone for a few minutes then I went off to sleep.
The next morning I woke up so nervous. I've never actualy been in an interview let alone had a job.
My mom made me an amazing breakfast of pancakes and fruits. She even offered to drive me to the center herself but I lied and told her that Farah would be taking me cause the truth was that Fahad would be picking me up.
Once I got to the center I was panicking. Fahad kissed me on my forehead and told me it was going to be ok. He held me in his arms until they called out my name.
He wished me good luck and said he's be right outside waiting for me.
All they did was ask me one simple question.. "why are you here?"
Honestly Ive always loved kids. Whenever I saw them they always put an instant smile on my face. They really are the miracles of life. And if I have the chance to make a diffrence.. or atleast a one percent diffrence then thats more than enough for me. Seeing them in pain or in siffering really breaks my heart. And If I have the chance to put a smile on their face just like they put a smile on my face then that would mean the absolute world to me. I would really love to work with you at this center. These children need people to take care of them while their parents are not with them. Their disabilities doesnt make then less than who they are, and I want to show them that.
I couldnt believe it. They hired me! They said that I spoke with such passion and confidence that they would love to have me start right away.
I ran into Fahad's arms like a little child and he carried me and twirled me around like a little princess. He was so proud of me, I could see it in his eyes.
He took my hand and we made our way out to the car. On our way walking down the stairs, I see a familiar face walking towards me.
Bader?
Oh... Hadeel.. umm... hi....
What are you doing here ?
Just visiting..
Oh.. who is it ?
Sorry but if you dont mind I have to go.. it was nice seeing you again..
Who was that ?!!!!
Calm down sparky.. he's no one.. just a guy..
Mmm.. anyways so where do you wanna go ?
.....
Hadeel? shfeek tana7ty ?
... huh? Oh mafeeni shay.. ok yallah lets go...
Did that guy get to you or something ? Are you sure your telling me everything ?
La he didnt. Im fine. Lets just go.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
What Fate Holds For Me 12
I slept fine that night. Not perfect but fine. I decided I wouldnt run after a guy that obviously has issues. Im done with him making me feel like total crap. This time Im taking the mean road and wait for him to come to me. The only problem was that it's been 2 days ever since that night. But I tried not to think much about it. Farah and I said we would have fun this summer and we will. We both deserve it.
She was also waiting for a call from Haitham. But he didn't even send her a text. Still she didnt let it get to her. I wish I could be more like her and just take things easy and learn to let loose. My biggest problem was that I think too much which causes me to become negative and mis-judge everything.
One afternoon Farah and I decided to go to the super market. Our kithen was completley empty and were two tiny girls with huge appetites.
We stopped by each aisle spending ages looking at the shelves. Shopping for food was like shopping for clothes to us. It all had to be perfect. We couldnt miss out a single thing.
You think we got it all ?
Yeah I think we pretty much bought the whole market.
Oh you know what I think I forgot some milk, I'll be right back.
Huh? You dont even drink milk. Get your tiny little butt back here!
Well then I'll just get some juice!
Surprise surprise !!
He seems to be turning up everywhere..
Hey there stranger.
Oh you have got to be kidding me!!
Hahaha shfeek ? Slmy.
Hello. Now will you please leave me alone.
I didnt follow you here if thats what you think.
Oh really? Then what do you call it ?
I was here long before you and Farah. She saw me at the fruit counter and came to say hello.
Aint she a dear.. thats lovely and all but I'm busy right now.
Aha.. I see. Well I wouldnt wanna interupt your waiting. Goodbye Hadeel.
As I guilty and bad as I feel for doing that, I had no other choice. He just wouldnt get the messege. It had to end one way or the other. I had to do it this way. Mean is needed to be used at times. Especialy times like these.
But what if he meant what he said? Just being friends?
I dont believe men and women can be friends without sparks flying all around.. but could it really ?
Oh was that Bader I just saw ?
Dont Farah. He told me you came up to him.
What? I just went to say hi.
We both know you did alot more than that. I'll meet you at the car.
Hadeel.. Hadeel ..!!
When we got back to the house we un loaded everything quietly. She tried talking to me but I would just ignore her. Speakig to her would only make me more upset.
After everything was done I went up to my room to take a nap.
Incoming Call: Unknown Number
Hello?
Hallah, Farah ?
HAITHAM !
Haha shfeek ?
Im just excited you called.
Adrii its been long bs I was busy with a few things. But now that Im free I would really love to see you.
I'd really like that.
How about tonight. I know its last minute and all --
PERFECT !
So Farah had her date later that evening and I was still misrable lying on my bed waiting for something, ANYTHING from Fahad.
Is he that cold he doesnt have a heart or a single emotion ?!
Do I mean anything to him? Or were all those words just scripted ?
Farah left for her date with Haitham without even telling me. I herd the door close and a car drive away so it was pretty obviouse she had left.
I was all alone in the house but decided to try and make the best of it.
There was an indoor pool so I decided to take a little swim.
They say it relaxes the mind.
The door to the pool was locked, it would probably be in Farah's room so I rumedged through her drawers to try and find the key.
Though in one of her drawers I found a huge shocker.
It's true what they say, peoples secrets are always hidden in their bedrooms.
But I never thought Farah would hide anything from me.
In a drawer I saw a beautiful bouquet of purple roses, my favorite. and a card. But the roses seemed a bit old.
I pulled out the roses and the card..
I would call or text but I know it wouldnt make a diffrence. I hope this put's a smile on your face. Dooli please find it in your heart to firgive me. I'm sorry. When your ready call me, I'll be waiting for you.
- Fahad
I couldnt believe my eyes.
Was this really from Fahad ?
Was this really hidden in Farah's drawer ?
Did she really keep this from in for 2 days ?
She's supposed to accept what makes me happy but instead she tries push it away.
I dont think I could ever forgive.
Someome who meant alot to me.. 6a7at min 3eeni.
I never expected this, especialy from her.
She broke the trust that was between us and I dont think it can ever be the same.
I waited for her downstairs near the door with my suitcase all packed.
Ma knt aby anzl 3ala mstawaha so I decided to wait till she got back to say goodbye.
Once she walked through the door I threw the roses on her face and stormed out.
She froze staring down at the roses but eventualy caught up with me just before I started the car.
HADEEL WAIT !!
Theres nothing you can say Farah. How could you do this to me. Was it fun for you watching your best friend misrable the past 2 days?
I did it for your own good 7beebty. I was trying to protect you.
NO DONT EVEN ! Ive never been in a relationship! Ive never had someone care so much about me! I wasnt even planning on getting into a relationship and then Fahad comes into my life and turnes my world upside down! Both good and bad! Yes he does make me mad at times but isnt that part of every relationship? Fighting makes us stronger. I could easily leave him if I wanted to. But I didnt! And you know why? Because he's someone worth suffering for. Im sure he has his reasons and in time he will open up to me. I really care about him and so does he! He isnt perfect! Neither am I! Besides I dont want him perfect! Besides I love the way he is! And you know what! I think Im falling in love with him! And so help me God if you do anything to try and take that away from me I will never speak to you for as long as I live on this damn earth!
Hadeel... Im.. sorry.. I never knew you felt that way about him.
Even if I didnt you were supposed to accept him! I dont care if you dont think hes good for me. But I do! Mu ma3natah lw enti mu merta7a tro7een t5arbeen far7at el nas. 3eeb 3leeki! Ma tst7een? Are you that cruel and selfish. Abad ma twaq3t hathal shay mnk!! 67ty min 3eeni eb GOWA !
How could you say all this to me Hadeel ?
Because you deserve every word of it !! 7asbya Allah w n3m alwakeel !!
I called Fahad on my way..
I need to see you.. now..
She was also waiting for a call from Haitham. But he didn't even send her a text. Still she didnt let it get to her. I wish I could be more like her and just take things easy and learn to let loose. My biggest problem was that I think too much which causes me to become negative and mis-judge everything.
One afternoon Farah and I decided to go to the super market. Our kithen was completley empty and were two tiny girls with huge appetites.
We stopped by each aisle spending ages looking at the shelves. Shopping for food was like shopping for clothes to us. It all had to be perfect. We couldnt miss out a single thing.
You think we got it all ?
Yeah I think we pretty much bought the whole market.
Oh you know what I think I forgot some milk, I'll be right back.
Huh? You dont even drink milk. Get your tiny little butt back here!
Well then I'll just get some juice!
Surprise surprise !!
He seems to be turning up everywhere..
Hey there stranger.
Oh you have got to be kidding me!!
Hahaha shfeek ? Slmy.
Hello. Now will you please leave me alone.
I didnt follow you here if thats what you think.
Oh really? Then what do you call it ?
I was here long before you and Farah. She saw me at the fruit counter and came to say hello.
Aint she a dear.. thats lovely and all but I'm busy right now.
Aha.. I see. Well I wouldnt wanna interupt your waiting. Goodbye Hadeel.
As I guilty and bad as I feel for doing that, I had no other choice. He just wouldnt get the messege. It had to end one way or the other. I had to do it this way. Mean is needed to be used at times. Especialy times like these.
But what if he meant what he said? Just being friends?
I dont believe men and women can be friends without sparks flying all around.. but could it really ?
Oh was that Bader I just saw ?
Dont Farah. He told me you came up to him.
What? I just went to say hi.
We both know you did alot more than that. I'll meet you at the car.
Hadeel.. Hadeel ..!!
When we got back to the house we un loaded everything quietly. She tried talking to me but I would just ignore her. Speakig to her would only make me more upset.
After everything was done I went up to my room to take a nap.
Incoming Call: Unknown Number
Hello?
Hallah, Farah ?
HAITHAM !
Haha shfeek ?
Im just excited you called.
Adrii its been long bs I was busy with a few things. But now that Im free I would really love to see you.
I'd really like that.
How about tonight. I know its last minute and all --
PERFECT !
So Farah had her date later that evening and I was still misrable lying on my bed waiting for something, ANYTHING from Fahad.
Is he that cold he doesnt have a heart or a single emotion ?!
Do I mean anything to him? Or were all those words just scripted ?
Farah left for her date with Haitham without even telling me. I herd the door close and a car drive away so it was pretty obviouse she had left.
I was all alone in the house but decided to try and make the best of it.
There was an indoor pool so I decided to take a little swim.
They say it relaxes the mind.
The door to the pool was locked, it would probably be in Farah's room so I rumedged through her drawers to try and find the key.
Though in one of her drawers I found a huge shocker.
It's true what they say, peoples secrets are always hidden in their bedrooms.
But I never thought Farah would hide anything from me.
In a drawer I saw a beautiful bouquet of purple roses, my favorite. and a card. But the roses seemed a bit old.
I pulled out the roses and the card..
I would call or text but I know it wouldnt make a diffrence. I hope this put's a smile on your face. Dooli please find it in your heart to firgive me. I'm sorry. When your ready call me, I'll be waiting for you.
- Fahad
I couldnt believe my eyes.
Was this really from Fahad ?
Was this really hidden in Farah's drawer ?
Did she really keep this from in for 2 days ?
She's supposed to accept what makes me happy but instead she tries push it away.
I dont think I could ever forgive.
Someome who meant alot to me.. 6a7at min 3eeni.
I never expected this, especialy from her.
She broke the trust that was between us and I dont think it can ever be the same.
I waited for her downstairs near the door with my suitcase all packed.
Ma knt aby anzl 3ala mstawaha so I decided to wait till she got back to say goodbye.
Once she walked through the door I threw the roses on her face and stormed out.
She froze staring down at the roses but eventualy caught up with me just before I started the car.
HADEEL WAIT !!
Theres nothing you can say Farah. How could you do this to me. Was it fun for you watching your best friend misrable the past 2 days?
I did it for your own good 7beebty. I was trying to protect you.
NO DONT EVEN ! Ive never been in a relationship! Ive never had someone care so much about me! I wasnt even planning on getting into a relationship and then Fahad comes into my life and turnes my world upside down! Both good and bad! Yes he does make me mad at times but isnt that part of every relationship? Fighting makes us stronger. I could easily leave him if I wanted to. But I didnt! And you know why? Because he's someone worth suffering for. Im sure he has his reasons and in time he will open up to me. I really care about him and so does he! He isnt perfect! Neither am I! Besides I dont want him perfect! Besides I love the way he is! And you know what! I think Im falling in love with him! And so help me God if you do anything to try and take that away from me I will never speak to you for as long as I live on this damn earth!
Hadeel... Im.. sorry.. I never knew you felt that way about him.
Even if I didnt you were supposed to accept him! I dont care if you dont think hes good for me. But I do! Mu ma3natah lw enti mu merta7a tro7een t5arbeen far7at el nas. 3eeb 3leeki! Ma tst7een? Are you that cruel and selfish. Abad ma twaq3t hathal shay mnk!! 67ty min 3eeni eb GOWA !
How could you say all this to me Hadeel ?
Because you deserve every word of it !! 7asbya Allah w n3m alwakeel !!
I called Fahad on my way..
I need to see you.. now..
Thursday, June 10, 2010
What Fate Holds For Me 11
You guys mdri wsh feeni ;s
I was writing the post and everything but then I suddenly stopped and turned off my laptop. I've been through alot these past 2 weeks.
Any ideas how to heal a broken bruised heart ?
I'm not sleeping at all. I'm kinda suffering with insomnia. I'm exhausted. I have this headach that wont go away. Im dizzy all the time. 6ool el wagt mnsad7a 3al sreer.
You guys mdrii wsh asawi.. what do I do ?
I cant take it anymore. I just want it all to stop !
Wallah mgdar its too much toooo much !!!
Im only 18 ! I cant anymore !
But still, I promised you guys a post. Sorry it's a bit short. Inshallah a post tommorow. O lw ma gdrt, e3tharooni o inshallah b3d bkrah.
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7beebty tbeen Mc ?
Ay shay 7ayati.. aham shay ini m3ak al7een.
Ya ba3ad 3umri inti.
We pulled up to Mc and he went inside. He didn't want anyone seeing me so he asked me to wait in the car. I did as I was told.
He got back and we drove to an empty area and ate our food. All we did was stare into each others eyes. No words had to be spoken. It was all in our eyes. It was like we had our own language. Our eyes said it all.
After we ate he asked me to come back to his shalai. I hesitated. What if Farah woke up and couldnt find me. What if something bad happend ?
He told me his friends would be asleep and that it wouldnt be a problem since go around the back and just lye on the beach.
So there we sat on the beach staring out into the ocean.
Everything was so peachful.
The moon shone on the ocean making it seem so magical.
I sat between Fahad's legs, lying on his chest. He had both his arms around me with his head on my shoulder.
My heart wouldnt stop racing.
I felt so secure in his arms.
Everyonce in a while he was kiss my cheek.
I was blush and he would hug me tighter.
You have no idea what you do to me..
Heehehehehehehehehe..
7beebty inti wallah..
Fahoodi aby as2alik shay bs promise me you wont get mad.
Magdr az3al mnk lw esh..
Ok.. umm how many girls have you dated ? I promise I wont get upset.
7beebty thats the past. Im with you now.
Adri 7beeby bs aby a3rf. Please ?
*sigh* One.
Bs? Wow.. I was expecting more.
Why? Do I seem like that kind of guy ?
La bs e7sas Fahad.
Mmm...
Mind if I ask what happend ?
Theres nothing to tell really. Let's just say she wasn't the girl I thought she was.
Im sorry..
Whatever.. Yallah let me take you back.
The ride back was quite. He didnt even look at me or hold my hand.
I started to regret asking him that question.
Once he parked he just stared at the wheel.
I sat there for a while waiting for him to say something.
Wsh tstaneen ?
Huh? Oh.... nothing. Sorry.... night.
He immidiatly drove off at high speed.
I walked back into the house on my toes trying not to make a single sound.
But once I got back to my room I saw Farah there waiting for me.
I'm surprised I dont see any bruises.
Farah dont ok.. just dont.
Don't what ? Do you know how scared Iwas when I woke up and didnt find you ?!
Sorry.
Is that all you have to say? Sorry !!
Farah please Im not in the mood !!
I started to break down and cry.
My face started turning red.
My eyes started to swell.
That always happens when I start to cry.
She ran over to me and pulled me into her arms.
7beebty ! Bismila 3leeki wsh feeki ? What did he do to you ?
Mdri wsh saweetlah Farah mdrii !!!! I just asked one simple question and he turned on me !!!
Shhhh.. 7beebty calm down. Here drink some water. Go change and wash your face oo ana broo7 asaweelna chamomile tea.
This girl really is one of kind. She could have easily left me to drown in my tears, but she pulled me up.
I honestly dont know what I'd do without her. I think I'd be lost.
After I washed up and changed I found a messege on my phone. It was from Fahad.
Sorry I seemed a bit cold but that question triggered something in me. Just never bring it up again. Goodnight.
A bit cold ?
What am I gonna do with him ?
He keeps giving me these mixed signals that I cant figuire out.
Yallah.. sh-sawi 3ad. Inshallah 5air...
I was writing the post and everything but then I suddenly stopped and turned off my laptop. I've been through alot these past 2 weeks.
Any ideas how to heal a broken bruised heart ?
I'm not sleeping at all. I'm kinda suffering with insomnia. I'm exhausted. I have this headach that wont go away. Im dizzy all the time. 6ool el wagt mnsad7a 3al sreer.
You guys mdrii wsh asawi.. what do I do ?
I cant take it anymore. I just want it all to stop !
Wallah mgdar its too much toooo much !!!
Im only 18 ! I cant anymore !
But still, I promised you guys a post. Sorry it's a bit short. Inshallah a post tommorow. O lw ma gdrt, e3tharooni o inshallah b3d bkrah.
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7beebty tbeen Mc ?
Ay shay 7ayati.. aham shay ini m3ak al7een.
Ya ba3ad 3umri inti.
We pulled up to Mc and he went inside. He didn't want anyone seeing me so he asked me to wait in the car. I did as I was told.
He got back and we drove to an empty area and ate our food. All we did was stare into each others eyes. No words had to be spoken. It was all in our eyes. It was like we had our own language. Our eyes said it all.
After we ate he asked me to come back to his shalai. I hesitated. What if Farah woke up and couldnt find me. What if something bad happend ?
He told me his friends would be asleep and that it wouldnt be a problem since go around the back and just lye on the beach.
So there we sat on the beach staring out into the ocean.
Everything was so peachful.
The moon shone on the ocean making it seem so magical.
I sat between Fahad's legs, lying on his chest. He had both his arms around me with his head on my shoulder.
My heart wouldnt stop racing.
I felt so secure in his arms.
Everyonce in a while he was kiss my cheek.
I was blush and he would hug me tighter.
You have no idea what you do to me..
Heehehehehehehehehe..
7beebty inti wallah..
Fahoodi aby as2alik shay bs promise me you wont get mad.
Magdr az3al mnk lw esh..
Ok.. umm how many girls have you dated ? I promise I wont get upset.
7beebty thats the past. Im with you now.
Adri 7beeby bs aby a3rf. Please ?
*sigh* One.
Bs? Wow.. I was expecting more.
Why? Do I seem like that kind of guy ?
La bs e7sas Fahad.
Mmm...
Mind if I ask what happend ?
Theres nothing to tell really. Let's just say she wasn't the girl I thought she was.
Im sorry..
Whatever.. Yallah let me take you back.
The ride back was quite. He didnt even look at me or hold my hand.
I started to regret asking him that question.
Once he parked he just stared at the wheel.
I sat there for a while waiting for him to say something.
Wsh tstaneen ?
Huh? Oh.... nothing. Sorry.... night.
He immidiatly drove off at high speed.
I walked back into the house on my toes trying not to make a single sound.
But once I got back to my room I saw Farah there waiting for me.
I'm surprised I dont see any bruises.
Farah dont ok.. just dont.
Don't what ? Do you know how scared Iwas when I woke up and didnt find you ?!
Sorry.
Is that all you have to say? Sorry !!
Farah please Im not in the mood !!
I started to break down and cry.
My face started turning red.
My eyes started to swell.
That always happens when I start to cry.
She ran over to me and pulled me into her arms.
7beebty ! Bismila 3leeki wsh feeki ? What did he do to you ?
Mdri wsh saweetlah Farah mdrii !!!! I just asked one simple question and he turned on me !!!
Shhhh.. 7beebty calm down. Here drink some water. Go change and wash your face oo ana broo7 asaweelna chamomile tea.
This girl really is one of kind. She could have easily left me to drown in my tears, but she pulled me up.
I honestly dont know what I'd do without her. I think I'd be lost.
After I washed up and changed I found a messege on my phone. It was from Fahad.
Sorry I seemed a bit cold but that question triggered something in me. Just never bring it up again. Goodnight.
A bit cold ?
What am I gonna do with him ?
He keeps giving me these mixed signals that I cant figuire out.
Yallah.. sh-sawi 3ad. Inshallah 5air...
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Nasty Comments
Anonymouse..
With all my respect..
Sorry lw mu 3ajbk 6reegat el qu9a bs ana 3ajebni.
O lw mu 3ajbek laish t'39ben nafsik tgreen ?
O ana al7een ma glt shay '3ala6 3an nas elkuwait.
And FYI.. I am Kuwaiti.
Fa lwsama7ti gbl ma tgoleen shay, et2akady 3al ma3loomah.
So please if you have something nasty to say, keep to yourself next time.
Mala 3adi tnkateb 3al blog.
As for my loyal readers I love you all so much and I hope your all doing well with your exams ??
Allah ywafegkom my darlings :)
Shedo 7elkom !!
And the next post shall be dedicated to blue lillies.
Thank you so much 7beebty.
Today was so not my day bs laman shft el comments is made me giggle a bit and it really did put a smile on my face. ;**
With all my respect..
Sorry lw mu 3ajbk 6reegat el qu9a bs ana 3ajebni.
O lw mu 3ajbek laish t'39ben nafsik tgreen ?
O ana al7een ma glt shay '3ala6 3an nas elkuwait.
And FYI.. I am Kuwaiti.
Fa lwsama7ti gbl ma tgoleen shay, et2akady 3al ma3loomah.
So please if you have something nasty to say, keep to yourself next time.
Mala 3adi tnkateb 3al blog.
As for my loyal readers I love you all so much and I hope your all doing well with your exams ??
Allah ywafegkom my darlings :)
Shedo 7elkom !!
And the next post shall be dedicated to blue lillies.
Thank you so much 7beebty.
Today was so not my day bs laman shft el comments is made me giggle a bit and it really did put a smile on my face. ;**
What Fate Holds For Me 10 B.
1 Week Later
Deema had already left to New York to start her internship, so it was just me and Farah.
It wasn't bad really.. I mean we managed to have fun. It was summer after all and we had the beach.
So Farah and I decided not to stay int he city for another minute.
We packed our bags and headed to the shalaih.
Not knowing how long we'd stay, we practicly packed our entire closet.
Farah's parents rarely go to the shalaih, so we had it all to ourselves.
This was going to be great.
A change of scenary.
Once we arrived we unpacked and got settled in.
We arrived at a good time, before 1. So we decided to take a little cruise on the jet boat.
Farah drove while I sat back and relaxed.
We turned up the music and took it all in.
Suddenly the boat starts to slow down and the music stops playing.
Did you forge to put gas in ?
Farah: It was a tank full I swear !
Aghh !! Look at where we are !! Were in the middle of NO WHERE !!
Farah: Hey don't blame me ok !
What are supposed to do now ?
Farah" Oh! Did you bring your phone with you ?
Damn it !! Why didn'y you ??
Farah: Well............. cause my guy would never force me to carry my phone everywhere I go !
You dont have a guy ok so shush !
Farah: HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP !!!!! HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP !! IS ANYONE OUT THERE !!!!! HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP !!!
HAVE YOU GONE INSANE ???
Farah: What else is there to do Hadeel? Wait ?
That would be the more appropriate thing to do.
Farah: Apropriate? Oh my god were in the middle of no where and she.... wow you know what nevermind. Fine you wanna wait, we'll wait.
Luckily after an hour..
HEY HEY OVER HERE !!!
Two jet ski's came over to us and stopped.
They offered to take us back to their shalaih since it was near by, and then drop us by car back to out shalaih.
...: So you girls just make yourselves comfortable and feel free to roam around the kithen. Our friend just arrived so were gonna go open the gates for him.
Oh sure no problem.
Farah: Wow.. this is one fancy place.
Yeah mashallah..
Farah: They seem like nice guys.
Very cute!
Farah: Haha can I have one ?
Wsh da5alni ana ? Haha go crazy girl !
Farah: What about.. oh right you already got your man.
C'mon Farah! Until when are you gonna act this way ? I really like Fahad and it's about time you start getting used to him cause he's not going anywhere !
...: Sorryladies. Let me properly introduce myself. I'm Haitham. And the guy that was with me earlier is Jassim but he had to leave. And thats *pointing behind him* Bader.
Farah: Hehe.. you sure Fahad's not going anywhere ?
Oh go to hell !!
Farah: Ummm Haitham Im thirsty.. do you mind if we go get a glass of water ?
Haitham: Yeah sure.. after you.
Farah: I love me a gentlman.
Haitham: Haha y7lelik.
So do you just have your ways of tracking me down or what ?
Bader: Excuse me ? This is all just fate.
Dont you talk to me about fate.
Bader: Ouch! She bites back too.
You know what I'm leaving.
Bader: Hadeel wait. Wallah Im sorry I was just joking around. But do you really hate me that much ?
I dont hate you. I just dont wanna be with you.
Bader: Who said anything about being with me ? I just wanna have dinner with you.
Dinner is just he first step.
So your telling me theres no chance at all for me to see you ?
Thats exactley what Im saying.
Farah: So umm you and Bader...
Haitham: Yeah were good friends ever since college.
Farah: Thats sweet.
Haitham: La wallah your the sweet one.
Farah: Hehe..
Haitham: Farah..
Farah: Yeah ?
Haitham: Can I get your number ?
Farah: Sure.
Farah was thrilled.
It's been over a year and she never even thought about dating.
But there was something about Haitham that made her say yes.
Sometimes men have that effect on you.
You cant put your finger on it, but its an effect so powerful.
When we arrived back at our shalaih I checked my phone and found 24 missed call and 12 messeges.
They were all from Fahad.
I quickly dialed his number.
WHERE THE HELL WERE YOU ! DO YOU KNOW HOW SCARED I'VE BEEN ?!!!!!
Bismelah! Elnas ygolonn el salam 3leekm !
Im sorry.. what did I tell you ? Always have your phone with you.
We were riding the jet boat so I didnt take it with me.
Ah your at the shalaih ?
Eeh with Farah.
Ana ba3ad al7een Im on my way to my friends shalaih.
Well have fun.
Shfeek barda ?
Mafeni shay.
Embala feek shay.
Nope.
Ana lazim aroo7. Atfaham ma3ak b3deen.
Twenty minutes after he hung up, he sent me a messege.
I wanna see you tonight ;)
I could not believe the messege.
He finaly wants to see me.
I was beyond excited.
I immidiatly called him and we arranged everything.
I gave him directions and we settled on 1 am.
Farah is an early sleeper. so 1 would be perfect.
I couldnt wait !
I was relieved I brough half my closet with me.
Now all I had to do was figuire out what to wear.
I decided on dark skinny jeans and a sleevless white top. A see through white cardigan, and gold short gladiator sandals.
It was also a good thing that the shalaih was big and that Farah's room and mine weren't that close to eachother.
Farah: He still didn't call me !
You gave him your number 2 hours ago. How desperate do you think men want to seem ?
Farah: Hadeel he's so handsome mashallah. His eyes! His everything!
Ok slow down. Dont put high expectations now. You barely know him.
Farah: Atleast I meet men PROPERLY in REAL life. Unlike some people I know...
God your so immature!
Farah: Im sorry Dooli bs I dont trust the guy.
You dont even know him !
Farah: Neither do you ! Have you even seen him ? A picture ? No !
Were just taking things slow.
Farah: Whatever Dooli do what you want.
Wow.. you know for someone I have so much repsect for.. 67ty min 3eeny.
Before she could even say anythig back I stormed out of her room and went straight into mine, and locked the door.
I didn't wanna look at her for another moment.
She was being so rude and selfish.
She's supposed to be happy and there for me.
All she's ever done is slam talk Fahad.
And that's something I will not allow.
There was only a few more hours left until it was time to see Fahad.
I decided to take a little nap.
12:00
I woke up and took a nice warm shower.
12:15
I dryed off and blow dried my hair straight.
12:30
I started to get dressed.
12:35
I applied a bit of bronzer. My cherry lipbalm. A bit of mascara. I always mess up my makeup easily. So it sometimes took me a while.
12:45
I started to put on my gladiators.
I WAS READY !
1 messege recieved
From: Fahoodi
7beebty I couldnt wait.. I'm right outside ;$
I sprayed a bit of my favorite perfume, Narcisco Rodriguez and made my way down the stairs.
All the lights were off and Farah's bedroom door was closed meaning she was fast asleep.
I slowly unlocked the door and headed for the gate.
My heart was beating faster with every step I took.
I was finaly gonna see Fahad.
Although it was a bit sudden but I was still excited.
As I got closer to the gate I could see a black car.
I slowly opend the gate and got out.
I was surprised that he didnt get out of the car to greet me or open the door for me.
But I didn't let that bother me.
I could barly see a thing.
All the windows were tinted.
I walked around to the other side of the car and stopped.
My hands were holding onto the handel but I was too afraid to open it.
But before another thought could get into my mind, he opend the door for me.
I backed away as the door swung open.
I still couldnt see his face.
It was 1 am, everything was dark.
Nawya tet5leen ?
Hearing his voice over the phone was one thing.
But hearing it now, with him being infront of me was a total other thing.
Eeh...
I slowly got in and closed the door.
Here I was.
Sitting next to Fahad.
In the dark.
I was afraid.
Why did he want to see me?
Why now ?
In the middle of the night ?
Why not properly, like during the afternoon ?
Shfeek 7beebty ?
Mfeni shay...
Embala feek shay.. your not yourself.
Im fine...
Msta7ya ?
Lah..
6al3eeni..
I turned my head to look at him.
He was beyond words to describe.
Beautiful dark chocolate hair.
Big light brown eyes.
Sharp nose.
Lucious lips.
He was perfect.
At that very moment I think my heart skipped a beat.
Perhaps even two beats.
It wasnt because of his looks.. but because I was actualy with him.
It was all starting to become real.
Before, yes we were together but it didnt make sense.
Now here I am, sitting next to him.
Everything was finaly starting to fall into place.
Mashallah.. Mashallah tabarakallah bs.. tdreen wsh tsaween feeeni ?
Sorry..
3a6ni eedik. I want these hands with me always.
Inshallah..
La mu bs inshallah... inshallah meen ?
Inshallah Fahoodi.
Ahhhh.. wallah ra7 tmawteeeeniiiiii !!
Bs 3ad..
Sta7eeti ?
Eeh..
Fadeet eli tsta7on wallah. Hal 5dood mdri wsh ra7 asawi feehom. Mmkm a3th-hom ?
FAHOODI !!!
3yoon Fahoodi ..
Ma a7b hathal kalam !
7beebty inti knt amza7.
Ok..
Wain tben tro7een ?
Im actualy kinda hungry.. Farah and I had a little fight and I was in my room the whole night.
Wla tz3aleen 7beebty al7en nmor njeeblik akl.
He took both my hands and kissed each of them.
I was on cloud 9.
When he took my hands.. when he kissed them.. it was one of the most best feelings I've ever felt.
He couldnt stop staring at me and I couldnt stop staring at my hands in his.
Deema had already left to New York to start her internship, so it was just me and Farah.
It wasn't bad really.. I mean we managed to have fun. It was summer after all and we had the beach.
So Farah and I decided not to stay int he city for another minute.
We packed our bags and headed to the shalaih.
Not knowing how long we'd stay, we practicly packed our entire closet.
Farah's parents rarely go to the shalaih, so we had it all to ourselves.
This was going to be great.
A change of scenary.
Once we arrived we unpacked and got settled in.
We arrived at a good time, before 1. So we decided to take a little cruise on the jet boat.
Farah drove while I sat back and relaxed.
We turned up the music and took it all in.
Suddenly the boat starts to slow down and the music stops playing.
Did you forge to put gas in ?
Farah: It was a tank full I swear !
Aghh !! Look at where we are !! Were in the middle of NO WHERE !!
Farah: Hey don't blame me ok !
What are supposed to do now ?
Farah" Oh! Did you bring your phone with you ?
Damn it !! Why didn'y you ??
Farah: Well............. cause my guy would never force me to carry my phone everywhere I go !
You dont have a guy ok so shush !
Farah: HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP !!!!! HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP !! IS ANYONE OUT THERE !!!!! HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP !!!
HAVE YOU GONE INSANE ???
Farah: What else is there to do Hadeel? Wait ?
That would be the more appropriate thing to do.
Farah: Apropriate? Oh my god were in the middle of no where and she.... wow you know what nevermind. Fine you wanna wait, we'll wait.
Luckily after an hour..
HEY HEY OVER HERE !!!
Two jet ski's came over to us and stopped.
They offered to take us back to their shalaih since it was near by, and then drop us by car back to out shalaih.
...: So you girls just make yourselves comfortable and feel free to roam around the kithen. Our friend just arrived so were gonna go open the gates for him.
Oh sure no problem.
Farah: Wow.. this is one fancy place.
Yeah mashallah..
Farah: They seem like nice guys.
Very cute!
Farah: Haha can I have one ?
Wsh da5alni ana ? Haha go crazy girl !
Farah: What about.. oh right you already got your man.
C'mon Farah! Until when are you gonna act this way ? I really like Fahad and it's about time you start getting used to him cause he's not going anywhere !
...: Sorryladies. Let me properly introduce myself. I'm Haitham. And the guy that was with me earlier is Jassim but he had to leave. And thats *pointing behind him* Bader.
Farah: Hehe.. you sure Fahad's not going anywhere ?
Oh go to hell !!
Farah: Ummm Haitham Im thirsty.. do you mind if we go get a glass of water ?
Haitham: Yeah sure.. after you.
Farah: I love me a gentlman.
Haitham: Haha y7lelik.
So do you just have your ways of tracking me down or what ?
Bader: Excuse me ? This is all just fate.
Dont you talk to me about fate.
Bader: Ouch! She bites back too.
You know what I'm leaving.
Bader: Hadeel wait. Wallah Im sorry I was just joking around. But do you really hate me that much ?
I dont hate you. I just dont wanna be with you.
Bader: Who said anything about being with me ? I just wanna have dinner with you.
Dinner is just he first step.
So your telling me theres no chance at all for me to see you ?
Thats exactley what Im saying.
Farah: So umm you and Bader...
Haitham: Yeah were good friends ever since college.
Farah: Thats sweet.
Haitham: La wallah your the sweet one.
Farah: Hehe..
Haitham: Farah..
Farah: Yeah ?
Haitham: Can I get your number ?
Farah: Sure.
Farah was thrilled.
It's been over a year and she never even thought about dating.
But there was something about Haitham that made her say yes.
Sometimes men have that effect on you.
You cant put your finger on it, but its an effect so powerful.
When we arrived back at our shalaih I checked my phone and found 24 missed call and 12 messeges.
They were all from Fahad.
I quickly dialed his number.
WHERE THE HELL WERE YOU ! DO YOU KNOW HOW SCARED I'VE BEEN ?!!!!!
Bismelah! Elnas ygolonn el salam 3leekm !
Im sorry.. what did I tell you ? Always have your phone with you.
We were riding the jet boat so I didnt take it with me.
Ah your at the shalaih ?
Eeh with Farah.
Ana ba3ad al7een Im on my way to my friends shalaih.
Well have fun.
Shfeek barda ?
Mafeni shay.
Embala feek shay.
Nope.
Ana lazim aroo7. Atfaham ma3ak b3deen.
Twenty minutes after he hung up, he sent me a messege.
I wanna see you tonight ;)
I could not believe the messege.
He finaly wants to see me.
I was beyond excited.
I immidiatly called him and we arranged everything.
I gave him directions and we settled on 1 am.
Farah is an early sleeper. so 1 would be perfect.
I couldnt wait !
I was relieved I brough half my closet with me.
Now all I had to do was figuire out what to wear.
I decided on dark skinny jeans and a sleevless white top. A see through white cardigan, and gold short gladiator sandals.
It was also a good thing that the shalaih was big and that Farah's room and mine weren't that close to eachother.
Farah: He still didn't call me !
You gave him your number 2 hours ago. How desperate do you think men want to seem ?
Farah: Hadeel he's so handsome mashallah. His eyes! His everything!
Ok slow down. Dont put high expectations now. You barely know him.
Farah: Atleast I meet men PROPERLY in REAL life. Unlike some people I know...
God your so immature!
Farah: Im sorry Dooli bs I dont trust the guy.
You dont even know him !
Farah: Neither do you ! Have you even seen him ? A picture ? No !
Were just taking things slow.
Farah: Whatever Dooli do what you want.
Wow.. you know for someone I have so much repsect for.. 67ty min 3eeny.
Before she could even say anythig back I stormed out of her room and went straight into mine, and locked the door.
I didn't wanna look at her for another moment.
She was being so rude and selfish.
She's supposed to be happy and there for me.
All she's ever done is slam talk Fahad.
And that's something I will not allow.
There was only a few more hours left until it was time to see Fahad.
I decided to take a little nap.
12:00
I woke up and took a nice warm shower.
12:15
I dryed off and blow dried my hair straight.
12:30
I started to get dressed.
12:35
I applied a bit of bronzer. My cherry lipbalm. A bit of mascara. I always mess up my makeup easily. So it sometimes took me a while.
12:45
I started to put on my gladiators.
I WAS READY !
1 messege recieved
From: Fahoodi
7beebty I couldnt wait.. I'm right outside ;$
I sprayed a bit of my favorite perfume, Narcisco Rodriguez and made my way down the stairs.
All the lights were off and Farah's bedroom door was closed meaning she was fast asleep.
I slowly unlocked the door and headed for the gate.
My heart was beating faster with every step I took.
I was finaly gonna see Fahad.
Although it was a bit sudden but I was still excited.
As I got closer to the gate I could see a black car.
I slowly opend the gate and got out.
I was surprised that he didnt get out of the car to greet me or open the door for me.
But I didn't let that bother me.
I could barly see a thing.
All the windows were tinted.
I walked around to the other side of the car and stopped.
My hands were holding onto the handel but I was too afraid to open it.
But before another thought could get into my mind, he opend the door for me.
I backed away as the door swung open.
I still couldnt see his face.
It was 1 am, everything was dark.
Nawya tet5leen ?
Hearing his voice over the phone was one thing.
But hearing it now, with him being infront of me was a total other thing.
Eeh...
I slowly got in and closed the door.
Here I was.
Sitting next to Fahad.
In the dark.
I was afraid.
Why did he want to see me?
Why now ?
In the middle of the night ?
Why not properly, like during the afternoon ?
Shfeek 7beebty ?
Mfeni shay...
Embala feek shay.. your not yourself.
Im fine...
Msta7ya ?
Lah..
6al3eeni..
I turned my head to look at him.
He was beyond words to describe.
Beautiful dark chocolate hair.
Big light brown eyes.
Sharp nose.
Lucious lips.
He was perfect.
At that very moment I think my heart skipped a beat.
Perhaps even two beats.
It wasnt because of his looks.. but because I was actualy with him.
It was all starting to become real.
Before, yes we were together but it didnt make sense.
Now here I am, sitting next to him.
Everything was finaly starting to fall into place.
Mashallah.. Mashallah tabarakallah bs.. tdreen wsh tsaween feeeni ?
Sorry..
3a6ni eedik. I want these hands with me always.
Inshallah..
La mu bs inshallah... inshallah meen ?
Inshallah Fahoodi.
Ahhhh.. wallah ra7 tmawteeeeniiiiii !!
Bs 3ad..
Sta7eeti ?
Eeh..
Fadeet eli tsta7on wallah. Hal 5dood mdri wsh ra7 asawi feehom. Mmkm a3th-hom ?
FAHOODI !!!
3yoon Fahoodi ..
Ma a7b hathal kalam !
7beebty inti knt amza7.
Ok..
Wain tben tro7een ?
Im actualy kinda hungry.. Farah and I had a little fight and I was in my room the whole night.
Wla tz3aleen 7beebty al7en nmor njeeblik akl.
He took both my hands and kissed each of them.
I was on cloud 9.
When he took my hands.. when he kissed them.. it was one of the most best feelings I've ever felt.
He couldnt stop staring at me and I couldnt stop staring at my hands in his.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
What Fate Holds For Me 10 A.
I decided not to bother with what happend yesterday.
So what if he bumped into me? It is a small world.
I'm sure I'll see him alot.
Deema's plane was delayed a couple of days.
She was arriving tonight.
Farah and I decided to surprise her back at her house once she arrived.
We were dying to know the good news.
The suspense was killing us!
While at her house waiting for her, Farah was flipping through some magazines while I was on the phone with Fahad.
I honestly dont wanna talk about it Hadeel..
Fahoodi please.. I really wanna know.
What did you just say ?
Fahoodi...
Ya 7beebty wallah..
Yallah 3ad la t-thye3 el mawthoo3.. please tell me..
Why do you wanna know so bad ?
Im jus curious and I want an answer. Which is what I would gladly give you if you were curious about anything.
Theres nothing to tell. I was ready to tell my parents about her, till out of no where she tells me to never call her again. She blocked my number and everything else. She broke my heart.
7beeby wallah I'm so sorry. Tstahel a7san mnha..
I have you now..
And Im always gonna be here.. mm mind if I askw hat her name was ?
Lulu.
I felt so bad for him.
I've never been heartbroken before but I could imagine.
Lulu didn't deserve him.
He deserved so much better.
A few minutes later Fahad and I ended our call and I went back to Farah.
Farah always had my back on anything.
But for some reason she wasn't too happy about the idea that Fahad and I were becoming close.
And I knew Farah, she would do anything, absolutley anything to protect me.
A year ago she was dating this guy whom she was madly in love with.
I've never seen her so happy.
Until one day she herd that he got engaged to somebody else.
She was heartbroken!
From that day she promised herself to never let that pain happen to either one of us.
Me. Deema. And herself, again.
I would always assure her that everything was fine, and that Fahad was a realy decent guy.
She always nodded along.
But like I said, I knew Farah.
Then finaly!
Deema walked in and broke the awkwardness..
Deema: YOU GUYSSSSSSSSSS !!!
Farah: We've missed you !!
Sit sit sit !!
Deema: God I have so much to tell you! So many pictures to show you!
Start off by telling us what the big news is !!
Deema: Well..............
Us: WHAT ??!!
Deema: I got an internship in NewYork !!
Farah: Oh.. we thought it was about a guy.. well congrats 7beebty Allah ywafgk.
What? No no no !! You cant move ok you just cant !! I'd prefer you get married !!
Deema: Dooli 7beebty enti wallah.. It's just for three months !
And what if they promote you ?
Deema: They'll have to accept me working from here.
Farah: Our little girl is all grown up.
Deema: It's just the New York Times you guys.. 3adii many people get to intern.
Yallah 3ad bs goli el7mdelah! Many would kill to be in your shoes right now!
Adrii you want action.
TRUST ME there is gonna be gonna ;D
Soon inshallah bs mthl ma Hadeel has to wait just a bit, so do you ;**
Part A has nothing adrii, bs part B will.
Now your wondering, "well then why did you write part A?" right ?
Well, so that you guys can get worked up a bit hehe..
Inshallah part B tonight.
Love you all ! ;**
Oh wait.. ummmm is it just me or do my comments keep getting smaller and smaller ?:(
Mdrii wain ra7o my readers ! :(
Me now very sad :(
So what if he bumped into me? It is a small world.
I'm sure I'll see him alot.
Deema's plane was delayed a couple of days.
She was arriving tonight.
Farah and I decided to surprise her back at her house once she arrived.
We were dying to know the good news.
The suspense was killing us!
While at her house waiting for her, Farah was flipping through some magazines while I was on the phone with Fahad.
I honestly dont wanna talk about it Hadeel..
Fahoodi please.. I really wanna know.
What did you just say ?
Fahoodi...
Ya 7beebty wallah..
Yallah 3ad la t-thye3 el mawthoo3.. please tell me..
Why do you wanna know so bad ?
Im jus curious and I want an answer. Which is what I would gladly give you if you were curious about anything.
Theres nothing to tell. I was ready to tell my parents about her, till out of no where she tells me to never call her again. She blocked my number and everything else. She broke my heart.
7beeby wallah I'm so sorry. Tstahel a7san mnha..
I have you now..
And Im always gonna be here.. mm mind if I askw hat her name was ?
Lulu.
I felt so bad for him.
I've never been heartbroken before but I could imagine.
Lulu didn't deserve him.
He deserved so much better.
A few minutes later Fahad and I ended our call and I went back to Farah.
Farah always had my back on anything.
But for some reason she wasn't too happy about the idea that Fahad and I were becoming close.
And I knew Farah, she would do anything, absolutley anything to protect me.
A year ago she was dating this guy whom she was madly in love with.
I've never seen her so happy.
Until one day she herd that he got engaged to somebody else.
She was heartbroken!
From that day she promised herself to never let that pain happen to either one of us.
Me. Deema. And herself, again.
I would always assure her that everything was fine, and that Fahad was a realy decent guy.
She always nodded along.
But like I said, I knew Farah.
Then finaly!
Deema walked in and broke the awkwardness..
Deema: YOU GUYSSSSSSSSSS !!!
Farah: We've missed you !!
Sit sit sit !!
Deema: God I have so much to tell you! So many pictures to show you!
Start off by telling us what the big news is !!
Deema: Well..............
Us: WHAT ??!!
Deema: I got an internship in NewYork !!
Farah: Oh.. we thought it was about a guy.. well congrats 7beebty Allah ywafgk.
What? No no no !! You cant move ok you just cant !! I'd prefer you get married !!
Deema: Dooli 7beebty enti wallah.. It's just for three months !
And what if they promote you ?
Deema: They'll have to accept me working from here.
Farah: Our little girl is all grown up.
Deema: It's just the New York Times you guys.. 3adii many people get to intern.
Yallah 3ad bs goli el7mdelah! Many would kill to be in your shoes right now!
Adrii you want action.
TRUST ME there is gonna be gonna ;D
Soon inshallah bs mthl ma Hadeel has to wait just a bit, so do you ;**
Part A has nothing adrii, bs part B will.
Now your wondering, "well then why did you write part A?" right ?
Well, so that you guys can get worked up a bit hehe..
Inshallah part B tonight.
Love you all ! ;**
Oh wait.. ummmm is it just me or do my comments keep getting smaller and smaller ?:(
Mdrii wain ra7o my readers ! :(
Me now very sad :(
Thursday, June 3, 2010
What Fate Holds For Me 9
7abaybe wallah into !! ;**
I was planning on posting yesterday night.
But I ended up staying REALLY late at my friends house.
So I sleptover at her place and couldnt write a post.
But as soon as I got back, which was an hour ago, I quickly jumped into the shower then logged in!!
Oh do you guys know the horror movie "Orphan" ?
Well everybody says that I shouldnt watch it.
That it'll keep me up all night thinking.
That it'll play tricks on your mind.
You know, the usual horror movie after talk.
Well I saw it yesterday and NOTHING!
I didn't get scared, not even one bit!
El filim sa5eeeeeeeeeeeef !! ;s
The only thing I liked about it was the adorable little daughter.
Her beautiful golden curs. And most ADORABLE smile!
Wallahi ana agool ehya el ba6ala mu el um.. waih el um terfa3 tha'36y !
Hehe t7amast zyada 9a7 ?
I love you all !!
Tadroon shkthr ?
Ktheeeeeeeeeeeer !!
Ktheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer !!
Ktheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer !!
KTHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEER !!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Wow.. I can't believe he remembered me..
?: Well I never thought I'd see you again.
Oh umm hi..
?: Hi.. so how are you ?
Good good, you ?
?: Great.. umm do you mind if I sit down ?
Actualy yeah I kinda do.. it's just that my mom's in the restroom and she'll be out any minute.
?: Oh yeah yeah.. don't worry about it, it's ok.
Sorry...
?: But you do kinda owe me..
Haha oh really ?
?: Since I helped you with your bags..
Wait a minute.. haha no one asked you to help me.
?: Yes but I was being a gentleman.
Ahaaa.. ok...
?: Oh c'mon why are you so hard on me ?
Haha fine what do you want ?
Mama: Hadeel 7beebty yallah.
Yallah.. oh umm mama this is --
?: Hallah 5alty ana Bader Al. X
Mama: Ahlain.. is he with you at university ?
Bader: La 5alty ana mt5arej mn el jam3a..
Mama: Ah mashallah. Allah ywafegk inshallah.
Bader: Ameen ya rab..
Mama: Yallah Hadeel.
Saved by mommy dearest..
Bader: Hehe.. take care of yourself Hadeel.
Later that evening when we got home my mom sat me down.
She asked me about Bader.
She thought I was hiding a secret romance with him.
But I filled her in about it, that it was just something harmless.
He helped me and Farah with out bags and walked away.
She contantly kept accusing me that there was something more.
She also starting commenting on Bader's looks and how beautiful our kids would be!
I barley know the guy and here she is talking about the future!
Shes just too adorable I could never get upset from her.
Mama your so.. oh my god I don't even have a word.
Mama: Can you blame me if I want my ONLY child to get married.
Oh yeah I can picture it now.. oh yeah sure kids. Daddy and I first met when he helped mommy with her bags in the parking lot.
Mama: Why do you always have to do that ?
What am I doing ?
Here I am joking with you, just joking! And your taking it all seriously.
Your right mama.. I'm sorry.
We waited for my dad who brought home icecream from baskin robins.
It started to get late so I excused myself and headed to my bedroom.
I changed into my purple mini nightgown and switched on my laptop to check my e-mails.
Just as I was about to open my first e-mail, Fahad calls.
I decided to play it smooth and answer aftr the fourth ring.
Ahlain.
Fahad: Hallah 7beebty kfk ?
Good. You?
Fahad: Much better now that I'm talking to you.
Awhhh..
Fahad: Shfeeki?
Nothing.
Fahad: Ahhhhhhh ok I see what your doing here.
Excuse me ?
Fahad: This is the tiny silly stuff you girls do.
Huh ?
Fahad: Yallah 3ad Hadeel don't act dumb. You know exactley what I'm talking about. Stop trying to play it "cool" and jsut be yourself with me. La tkoneen thageela ma3ay. Mani '3abi o afham zain. So just be the Hadeel I know. Stop acting silly.
I'm just tired..
Fahad: A555 wsh ra7 asawe feek ana? Hmm?
Wsh saweet al7een ?
Fahad: Ba3ad 3umri wallah.. fedait eli ydala3ooooooon !!!
Hehehe...
Fahad: Eeeeee thats what I wanna hear. That adorable little laugh.
So what did you today ?
Fahad: Wallah abad.. saw a movie with the guys then dewania.
Oooo what movie ???
Fahad: Five Minutes of Heaven.
Hmmf!
Fahad: Shfeeki 7beebty ?
When will you take me to see a movie ?
Fahad: Y7lelik wallah !!!! Inshallah soon.
How soon ?
Fahad: Gltlik inshallah soon. Kl shay eb wagta 7lo..
Hmmf!
I got so jelouse of his friends.
They get to go to the movies with him, but I dont!
They get to laugh and talk with him, but I dont!
They get to drive around together with him, but I dont!
They get to do EVERYTHING with him, but I dont!
That's it!
I know I havent known him for that long but I desperatly wanted to see him.
I didnt want anything physical from him, but I just wanted to see him.
I dont care if we didnt even shake hands, but I just wanted to see him.
To have him infront of me.
This isnt fair at all.
He's seen me.
He's been near me.
And I was such a blond fool for not noticing anything around me.
Now it was my turn.
I wanted to see him.
I had to.
But when will "soon" get here ?
Agh fate what on earth do you hold for me ?!
I was planning on posting yesterday night.
But I ended up staying REALLY late at my friends house.
So I sleptover at her place and couldnt write a post.
But as soon as I got back, which was an hour ago, I quickly jumped into the shower then logged in!!
Oh do you guys know the horror movie "Orphan" ?
Well everybody says that I shouldnt watch it.
That it'll keep me up all night thinking.
That it'll play tricks on your mind.
You know, the usual horror movie after talk.
Well I saw it yesterday and NOTHING!
I didn't get scared, not even one bit!
El filim sa5eeeeeeeeeeeef !! ;s
The only thing I liked about it was the adorable little daughter.
Her beautiful golden curs. And most ADORABLE smile!
Wallahi ana agool ehya el ba6ala mu el um.. waih el um terfa3 tha'36y !
Hehe t7amast zyada 9a7 ?
I love you all !!
Tadroon shkthr ?
Ktheeeeeeeeeeeer !!
Ktheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer !!
Ktheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer !!
KTHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEER !!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Wow.. I can't believe he remembered me..
?: Well I never thought I'd see you again.
Oh umm hi..
?: Hi.. so how are you ?
Good good, you ?
?: Great.. umm do you mind if I sit down ?
Actualy yeah I kinda do.. it's just that my mom's in the restroom and she'll be out any minute.
?: Oh yeah yeah.. don't worry about it, it's ok.
Sorry...
?: But you do kinda owe me..
Haha oh really ?
?: Since I helped you with your bags..
Wait a minute.. haha no one asked you to help me.
?: Yes but I was being a gentleman.
Ahaaa.. ok...
?: Oh c'mon why are you so hard on me ?
Haha fine what do you want ?
Mama: Hadeel 7beebty yallah.
Yallah.. oh umm mama this is --
?: Hallah 5alty ana Bader Al. X
Mama: Ahlain.. is he with you at university ?
Bader: La 5alty ana mt5arej mn el jam3a..
Mama: Ah mashallah. Allah ywafegk inshallah.
Bader: Ameen ya rab..
Mama: Yallah Hadeel.
Saved by mommy dearest..
Bader: Hehe.. take care of yourself Hadeel.
Later that evening when we got home my mom sat me down.
She asked me about Bader.
She thought I was hiding a secret romance with him.
But I filled her in about it, that it was just something harmless.
He helped me and Farah with out bags and walked away.
She contantly kept accusing me that there was something more.
She also starting commenting on Bader's looks and how beautiful our kids would be!
I barley know the guy and here she is talking about the future!
Shes just too adorable I could never get upset from her.
Mama your so.. oh my god I don't even have a word.
Mama: Can you blame me if I want my ONLY child to get married.
Oh yeah I can picture it now.. oh yeah sure kids. Daddy and I first met when he helped mommy with her bags in the parking lot.
Mama: Why do you always have to do that ?
What am I doing ?
Here I am joking with you, just joking! And your taking it all seriously.
Your right mama.. I'm sorry.
We waited for my dad who brought home icecream from baskin robins.
It started to get late so I excused myself and headed to my bedroom.
I changed into my purple mini nightgown and switched on my laptop to check my e-mails.
Just as I was about to open my first e-mail, Fahad calls.
I decided to play it smooth and answer aftr the fourth ring.
Ahlain.
Fahad: Hallah 7beebty kfk ?
Good. You?
Fahad: Much better now that I'm talking to you.
Awhhh..
Fahad: Shfeeki?
Nothing.
Fahad: Ahhhhhhh ok I see what your doing here.
Excuse me ?
Fahad: This is the tiny silly stuff you girls do.
Huh ?
Fahad: Yallah 3ad Hadeel don't act dumb. You know exactley what I'm talking about. Stop trying to play it "cool" and jsut be yourself with me. La tkoneen thageela ma3ay. Mani '3abi o afham zain. So just be the Hadeel I know. Stop acting silly.
I'm just tired..
Fahad: A555 wsh ra7 asawe feek ana? Hmm?
Wsh saweet al7een ?
Fahad: Ba3ad 3umri wallah.. fedait eli ydala3ooooooon !!!
Hehehe...
Fahad: Eeeeee thats what I wanna hear. That adorable little laugh.
So what did you today ?
Fahad: Wallah abad.. saw a movie with the guys then dewania.
Oooo what movie ???
Fahad: Five Minutes of Heaven.
Hmmf!
Fahad: Shfeeki 7beebty ?
When will you take me to see a movie ?
Fahad: Y7lelik wallah !!!! Inshallah soon.
How soon ?
Fahad: Gltlik inshallah soon. Kl shay eb wagta 7lo..
Hmmf!
I got so jelouse of his friends.
They get to go to the movies with him, but I dont!
They get to laugh and talk with him, but I dont!
They get to drive around together with him, but I dont!
They get to do EVERYTHING with him, but I dont!
That's it!
I know I havent known him for that long but I desperatly wanted to see him.
I didnt want anything physical from him, but I just wanted to see him.
I dont care if we didnt even shake hands, but I just wanted to see him.
To have him infront of me.
This isnt fair at all.
He's seen me.
He's been near me.
And I was such a blond fool for not noticing anything around me.
Now it was my turn.
I wanted to see him.
I had to.
But when will "soon" get here ?
Agh fate what on earth do you hold for me ?!
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
What Fate Holds For Me 8
Sam7oony my pretties.. adrii 6awalt 3leekm KTHEER !!
Bs I love you guys so much and Inshallah wa3ad bkrah there will be a post..
A continuation :)
;********
That night we talked for hours.
It's diffirent on the phone.
I've gotten to know him better.
Turns out he just graduated from university studying law.
I have to admit, i was pretty impressed.
There was something about his voice.
It got me hooked deeper and deeper every time he uttered a word.
I started to picture him while we talked.
Tall.. broad shoulders.. sharp 5leegi nose.. strong muscular arms.. dark brown eyes.. beautiful soft dark hair.. and best of all.. his dirty beard.
I fantasized about meeting him..
Seeing him for the first time.
I so wanted to ask to see him, but then what would he think of me ?
He told me I was like no other girl.
Polite and decent.. then what would he think of me ?
I just had to wait and see where things lead us.
Like I said before, the word patient isn't anywhere in my vocabulary.
The next morning I woke up with a big smile on my face.
I was happy, really happy.
Talking to Fahad always put me at ease.
I quickly pulled out my phone from under my pillow and checked my messeges.
There were already two from Fahad.
9ba7 el 5air 7beebty ;**
7ayati wallah lesat-ha nayma.. yallah 3afya gomy.. i miss you :(
Now my cheeckbones were in pain mn kthr ma Im smiling.
Isn't he the sweetest ?
I immdediatley called him, but he didn't answer.
I hate it when that happens, you call someone all excited, then they dont answer.
And its never the sam once they call back.
Oh well, I washed up and headed downstairs for breakfast.
My parents were just sitting down to eat.
Baba: Good morning princess
Morning baba and mama.. so whats for breakfast ?
Mama: Chocolate chip pancakes.
Mmm!! Now I dont wanna go back to uni anymore.
Mama: 7beebty inti hahaha.. bl3ax you should be thrilled. Your finaly gonna graduate and get your own place --
Away from you and baba !!!???
Baba: La 7beebty we'll always be here for you.. bs WHEN your ready to move out and have your own place....... shhhhh Hanah!
Heheheheh sm3tee baba 3adel mama ?
Breakfast was perfect.
We laughed and joked around.
I forgot how much I missed home.
Since I was with my girls the whole time back, I decided to spend the day with my mama.
We decided to go to cartier and see their new collection.
Im head over heels in love with cartier.
And I knew mama was going to get me something, wether I wantd it or not.
She spoils me so much.. Allah la y7rmni mnha..
So we went into cartier, unfortunatly nothing caught my eye.
But mama had to get me something, anything.
So she got me a wallet.
Ive had this LV wallet ever since my first year at univeristy.
And ever since Ive bought it, mama had been trying to get me to change it.
She absolutly hated it.
In her words, "I wanna burn it and bury it deep in the bottom of the ocean!!"
Now she got her wish.
Right infront of her eyes I started taking everything out of my LV wallet and putting it into my new Cartier wallet.
Mama got her wish and smiled with power.
We then went for a late lunch.
After we payed the check, mama went to use th ladies room.
So I stayed seated and waited.
All of a sudden i feel a light tap on my shoulder.
I couldn't believe it, it was him.
Was this a sign ?
Should I say yes this time ?
Wait what was I thinking ?
We didn't even speak yet, and here I am planning everything.
No..
Yes..
I dunno !
God I'm such a mess..
Wow.. I can't believe he remembered me..
Bs I love you guys so much and Inshallah wa3ad bkrah there will be a post..
A continuation :)
;********
That night we talked for hours.
It's diffirent on the phone.
I've gotten to know him better.
Turns out he just graduated from university studying law.
I have to admit, i was pretty impressed.
There was something about his voice.
It got me hooked deeper and deeper every time he uttered a word.
I started to picture him while we talked.
Tall.. broad shoulders.. sharp 5leegi nose.. strong muscular arms.. dark brown eyes.. beautiful soft dark hair.. and best of all.. his dirty beard.
I fantasized about meeting him..
Seeing him for the first time.
I so wanted to ask to see him, but then what would he think of me ?
He told me I was like no other girl.
Polite and decent.. then what would he think of me ?
I just had to wait and see where things lead us.
Like I said before, the word patient isn't anywhere in my vocabulary.
The next morning I woke up with a big smile on my face.
I was happy, really happy.
Talking to Fahad always put me at ease.
I quickly pulled out my phone from under my pillow and checked my messeges.
There were already two from Fahad.
9ba7 el 5air 7beebty ;**
7ayati wallah lesat-ha nayma.. yallah 3afya gomy.. i miss you :(
Now my cheeckbones were in pain mn kthr ma Im smiling.
Isn't he the sweetest ?
I immdediatley called him, but he didn't answer.
I hate it when that happens, you call someone all excited, then they dont answer.
And its never the sam once they call back.
Oh well, I washed up and headed downstairs for breakfast.
My parents were just sitting down to eat.
Baba: Good morning princess
Morning baba and mama.. so whats for breakfast ?
Mama: Chocolate chip pancakes.
Mmm!! Now I dont wanna go back to uni anymore.
Mama: 7beebty inti hahaha.. bl3ax you should be thrilled. Your finaly gonna graduate and get your own place --
Away from you and baba !!!???
Baba: La 7beebty we'll always be here for you.. bs WHEN your ready to move out and have your own place....... shhhhh Hanah!
Heheheheh sm3tee baba 3adel mama ?
Breakfast was perfect.
We laughed and joked around.
I forgot how much I missed home.
Since I was with my girls the whole time back, I decided to spend the day with my mama.
We decided to go to cartier and see their new collection.
Im head over heels in love with cartier.
And I knew mama was going to get me something, wether I wantd it or not.
She spoils me so much.. Allah la y7rmni mnha..
So we went into cartier, unfortunatly nothing caught my eye.
But mama had to get me something, anything.
So she got me a wallet.
Ive had this LV wallet ever since my first year at univeristy.
And ever since Ive bought it, mama had been trying to get me to change it.
She absolutly hated it.
In her words, "I wanna burn it and bury it deep in the bottom of the ocean!!"
Now she got her wish.
Right infront of her eyes I started taking everything out of my LV wallet and putting it into my new Cartier wallet.
Mama got her wish and smiled with power.
We then went for a late lunch.
After we payed the check, mama went to use th ladies room.
So I stayed seated and waited.
All of a sudden i feel a light tap on my shoulder.
I couldn't believe it, it was him.
Was this a sign ?
Should I say yes this time ?
Wait what was I thinking ?
We didn't even speak yet, and here I am planning everything.
No..
Yes..
I dunno !
God I'm such a mess..
Wow.. I can't believe he remembered me..
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