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Saturday, June 12, 2010

What Fate Holds For Me 12

I slept fine that night. Not perfect but fine. I decided I wouldnt run after a guy that obviously has issues. Im done with him making me feel like total crap. This time Im taking the mean road and wait for him to come to me. The only problem was that it's been 2 days ever since that night. But I tried not to think much about it. Farah and I said we would have fun this summer and we will. We both deserve it.

She was also waiting for a call from Haitham. But he didn't even send her a text. Still she didnt let it get to her. I wish I could be more like her and just take things easy and learn to let loose. My biggest problem was that I think too much which causes me to become negative and mis-judge everything.



One afternoon Farah and I decided to go to the super market. Our kithen was completley empty and were two tiny girls with huge appetites.

We stopped by each aisle spending ages looking at the shelves. Shopping for food was like shopping for clothes to us. It all had to be perfect. We couldnt miss out a single thing.



You think we got it all ?

Yeah I think we pretty much bought the whole market.

Oh you know what I think I forgot some milk, I'll be right back.

Huh? You dont even drink milk. Get your tiny little butt back here!

Well then I'll just get some juice!



Surprise surprise !!

He seems to be turning up everywhere..



Hey there stranger.

Oh you have got to be kidding me!!

Hahaha shfeek ? Slmy.

Hello. Now will you please leave me alone.

I didnt follow you here if thats what you think.

Oh really? Then what do you call it ?

I was here long before you and Farah. She saw me at the fruit counter and came to say hello.

Aint she a dear.. thats lovely and all but I'm busy right now.

Aha.. I see. Well I wouldnt wanna interupt your waiting. Goodbye Hadeel.



As I guilty and bad as I feel for doing that, I had no other choice. He just wouldnt get the messege. It had to end one way or the other. I had to do it this way. Mean is needed to be used at times. Especialy times like these.

But what if he meant what he said? Just being friends?

I dont believe men and women can be friends without sparks flying all around.. but could it really ?



Oh was that Bader I just saw ?

Dont Farah. He told me you came up to him.

What? I just went to say hi.

We both know you did alot more than that. I'll meet you at the car.

Hadeel.. Hadeel ..!!



When we got back to the house we un loaded everything quietly. She tried talking to me but I would just ignore her. Speakig to her would only make me more upset.

After everything was done I went up to my room to take a nap.



Incoming Call: Unknown Number

Hello?

Hallah, Farah ?

HAITHAM !

Haha shfeek ?

Im just excited you called.

Adrii its been long bs I was busy with a few things. But now that Im free I would really love to see you.

I'd really like that.

How about tonight. I know its last minute and all --

PERFECT !



So Farah had her date later that evening and I was still misrable lying on my bed waiting for something, ANYTHING from Fahad.

Is he that cold he doesnt have a heart or a single emotion ?!

Do I mean anything to him? Or were all those words just scripted ?

Farah left for her date with Haitham without even telling me. I herd the door close and a car drive away so it was pretty obviouse she had left.

I was all alone in the house but decided to try and make the best of it.

There was an indoor pool so I decided to take a little swim.

They say it relaxes the mind.

The door to the pool was locked, it would probably be in Farah's room so I rumedged through her drawers to try and find the key.

Though in one of her drawers I found a huge shocker.

It's true what they say, peoples secrets are always hidden in their bedrooms.

But I never thought Farah would hide anything from me.

In a drawer I saw a beautiful bouquet of purple roses, my favorite. and a card. But the roses seemed a bit old.

I pulled out the roses and the card..


I would call or text but I know it wouldnt make a diffrence. I hope this put's a smile on your face. Dooli please find it in your heart to firgive me. I'm sorry. When your ready call me, I'll be waiting for you.

- Fahad



I couldnt believe my eyes.

Was this really from Fahad ?

Was this really hidden in Farah's drawer ?

Did she really keep this from in for 2 days ?

She's supposed to accept what makes me happy but instead she tries push it away.

I dont think I could ever forgive.

Someome who meant alot to me.. 6a7at min 3eeni.

I never expected this, especialy from her.

She broke the trust that was between us and I dont think it can ever be the same.

I waited for her downstairs near the door with my suitcase all packed.

Ma knt aby anzl 3ala mstawaha so I decided to wait till she got back to say goodbye.

Once she walked through the door I threw the roses on her face and stormed out.

She froze staring down at the roses but eventualy caught up with me just before I started the car.



HADEEL WAIT !!

Theres nothing you can say Farah. How could you do this to me. Was it fun for you watching your best friend misrable the past 2 days?

I did it for your own good 7beebty. I was trying to protect you.

NO DONT EVEN ! Ive never been in a relationship! Ive never had someone care so much about me! I wasnt even planning on getting into a relationship and then Fahad comes into my life and turnes my world upside down! Both good and bad! Yes he does make me mad at times but isnt that part of every relationship? Fighting makes us stronger. I could easily leave him if I wanted to. But I didnt! And you know why? Because he's someone worth suffering for. Im sure he has his reasons and in time he will open up to me. I really care about him and so does he! He isnt perfect! Neither am I! Besides I dont want him perfect! Besides I love the way he is! And you know what! I think Im falling in love with him! And so help me God if you do anything to try and take that away from me I will never speak to you for as long as I live on this damn earth!

Hadeel... Im.. sorry.. I never knew you felt that way about him.

Even if I didnt you were supposed to accept him! I dont care if you dont think hes good for me. But I do! Mu ma3natah lw enti mu merta7a tro7een t5arbeen far7at el nas. 3eeb 3leeki! Ma tst7een? Are you that cruel and selfish. Abad ma twaq3t hathal shay mnk!! 67ty min 3eeni eb GOWA !

How could you say all this to me Hadeel ?

Because you deserve every word of it !! 7asbya Allah w n3m alwakeel !!



I called Fahad on my way..



I need to see you.. now..

4 comments:

Standy said...

thats harsh!!

espacially for bestfriends.. sure it wasnt cool but 3ad you dont be that mean!!!

great post!

girsl and thier drama =p

Blue lilies;* said...

zain sawaat feeha hadeel(y)
next post pleasee:*

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Looyah said...

wow
that was right in the face!
a shocker
how can ur best friend do tht to u
cant wait for the next post
love u
xx