What Fate Holds For Me 7

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Did that really just happen ?

Did Fahad just call me up in the middle of the night ?

No no, I must be dreaming.

I really thought I was, till I woke up the next morning and checked my messeges.

They were all from Fahad.

This was actualy happening.



Sba7 el 5air yal '3alya.. awal ma tgomeen send me a messege;**



Deema was away for the weekend with her parents.

So all I had was Farah.

I was so confused and scared all at the same time.

I needed her.

I needed her to assure me that everything was going to be ok.

We had breakfast at her place then spent the rest of the afternoon watching movies.



Farah: So what are you gonna do ?

I was hoping you would have the answer to that.

Farah: 7beebty wallah I wish I did but this is something your gonna have to decide all on your own. It's your choice wether you wanna block Fahad out of your life or keep him.

But what would you do ?

Farah: I dont know, I mean I'm not anywhere near your situation so know.

Im scared.. he exposed a side of him last night that terrified me.

Farah: Try not to think of it in a negative way. Think of it as something sweet.

Sweet? The guy called me up at 4 am ! The afternoon would have been a much appropriate time.

Farah: So tell him that !

I will.. just as soon as he calls me. I already sent him a message when I woke up. All I gotta do now is wait.



And that's exactley what I did.

I tried to not over think about it all and just enjoy my day with Farah.

Deema was coming back tommorow and she has something important to tell us.

We were on our toes dying to know the big news !


Later that night I got home to find a huge surprise waiting for me.

When I walked into the living room I found my parents. But not just them.

I found Sul6an sitting there talking to them.

At first I thought he was telling them about Fahad.

But the minute they saw me a smile appeared across their faces.

All except for Sul6an.


My parents told me he was here to see me.

So we excused ourselves and headed up to my room.



Sul6an: So... Fahad...

What about him ?

Sul6an: Tell me about him.

Ok your joking right? The other night you stormed out of here furious and now you wanna know about him. Whats the catch?

Sul6an: No catch. I just wanna know about the guy who's dating my cousin.

Were not dating. We talk. As friends.

Sul6an: How did you meet ?

Umm that's really non of your business.

Sul6an: Ok then I'll guess. He sent you anonymous e-mails and you fell for each and every one of them until he seduced you onto msn.

What the --

Sul6an: It's the 21st centuary sweetie. That's how things work now.

He isnt a bad guy. He's kinda and caring and .. well yeah...

Sul6an: Why are you so quick to defend him? I didnt say anything against him.

Why are you here Sul6an.. If your here to poke fun then please leave.

Sul6an: I just wanna know how you could invite some stranger into your life in a blink of an eye. You barely know this guy.. forget what he's told you. But do you really know him ? You've never seen him. You never know.. he could be lying about everything and just be one of those guys looking for a good time.

If he was then why would he keep me around for over a month? If I was just a game, he would have made a move along time ago. You dont know him, so dont act like you do.

Sul6an: Im just trying to look out for you. I love you too much to see you get hurt. *sigh* Did you give him your number.

Yes we've herd eachother's voices.

Sul6an: What happend to the girl who was against all this crap? Who called it all bullshit? Who wanted nothing but to focus on her studies? Who the only people in life that she wanted were her family and friends? Where is she? Cause I dont see her anymore.

It's not like I planned any of this Sul6an. It just happend. And Im glad it did. Fahad is a good guy. He cares. He listens. He's sweet. Whatever! So what if I met him online! Maybe this is my fate.

Sul6an: Do what you want Hadeel, I just came here to tell you what I think.

M kan la da3i but thank you. I can very much take care of myself.



We sat in awkward silence for a while and then he left.

I went and washed my face, brushed my teeth and wore my comfy victoria secret pj's.

They always did the trick to help me relax.


I got out my laptop to check my e-mail, when my phone started to vibrate.

It was Fahad!


My heart started to race like a beating drum.

I started burning up.

I blasted on the AC to the extreme.

And counted to three...



Hello ?

Fahad: Hallah wallah.. hallah wallah bl '3alya.

Ahleen..

Fahad: Shfeeki 7beebty ?

Mfeeni shay.. I've just had a long day..

Fahad: Mmm.. so tell me. Wsh saweety? I wanna know everything.

Wallah abad. I was just with my friends. We stayed in and watched movies.

Fahad: Did you have fun ?

Eeh el7mdelah.

Fahad: Hatha aham shay 3ndi.

Umm.. did you get my message?

Fahad: Eeh 7beebty I did. Sorry I could text back or call but I had an exhausting day.

Everything ok ?

Fahad: All is fine. Oo 7ata lw feeh shay you dont have to worry about anything. I just want you happy and relaxed.

Awhhh.. thats sweet.

Fahad: Walaw..

And here starts the awkward silence.

Fahad: Haha tawna eb awal mokalema 7beebty. It's gonna take a little time for us to get used to it all. Bs aw3adek ra7 etkoneen sa3eeda 6ool ma enti ma3ay.

Oh.. wait so were an item now ?

Fahad: I hope we are.. but I dont wanna pressure you. If you just wanna stay friends ana 7athir. Aham shay ma athee3ik min 7ayati.

Haha stop with the lame chick flick lines..

Fahad: La t-thay3i el mawthoo3.

I do like talking to you.. but I'm just a bit scared.

Fahad: Afaaa.. scared from me?

From the wholw situation were in. It almost seems too good to be true.

Fahad: 7beebty el wa7ed egool el7mdelah o bs. I want you to give me a chance, give us a chance.

Mmmm.... ok. I'll take a leap.

Fahad: We'll both take a leap together.

POSTED !!

You guys I posted PART 6 but its not on the top of the list.. ;s
I have no idea why..
Anyways it's under the dedication post and above part 5..
I love you all ;***

Dedication to my precious S ;**

Inshallah a post tonight bs I just wanna dedicate this post to my sister.. my best friend.. my other half.

I hurt you I know. I did something you asked me not to do, I know. I did it behind your back which is even worse, I know. I should have told you, I know. But I was trying to protect my sister. I guess I just took the wrong approach.

I feel terrible. I couldn't even sleep last night. God knows how I did on my exam.

I want you to know that everything I do, I do for you. Maybe it was a bad move, and I'm sorry. I guess I thought I could fix everything and make it all go away.

I realize now that you don't always need me and your strong enough on your own. It was not my intention for things to go down the way it did.

I only hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me.

Always know that enti '3alya 3ndi eb shkl mu 6bee3y..

Oo a3zk marrah ! O0 lw 9arlik ay shay mdrii wsh ra7 asawii.. !

S I love you so much and I promise to never repeat what I did.

Inshallah rabii kateblik kl el 5air.. o inti eb 9alatii dayman ..

I love you..

My friend.

My sister.

My other half.

Allah yrtha 3leeki sam7eeny o ray7eeny min hatha el jaw el barad el foog ra9ii..

Allah yrtha 3leeki ...

;****************************************

What Fate Holds For Me 6

I'M BACK :D
AND OFFCIALY GRADUATED !!
I'm so happy !
I never though this day would come !
Adri ini 6awalt 3leekm bs I had to focus on school, like I told you all before it was the last week..
El7mdelah 3ala kl shay.
Bs please ed3olii ya 7abaybee :)
Tadroon shkthr Ive missed you all ???? ;***
You have NO idea !!
Thank god I'm back and I really hope you guys enjoy the post..
Adri it's kinda short bs I'll try and post later tonight.. bs lw ma gdrt, inshallah bkrah :D
I LOVE YOU ALL AND AGHHH IVE MISSED YOU !!!! ;***
A7BKMMMMMMM !!!








Ok maybe this isn't such a bad thing.. oh who am I kidding this the absolute worst thing that could ever happen to me !

Sul6an knew that I wanted nothing close to a relationship.

He knew that all I wanted to focus on now was my last year at uni.

He knew that all I wanted were my friends and family. No other attatchment what so ever !

And then he see's this.


Farah assured me that everything was going to be ok.

He would eventualy calm down and call me.


All I had to do was be patient.


The only problem is that the word patient isn't anywhere in my vocabulary.



A week went by and I hadn't spoken to Sul6an OR Fahad.

Sure Sul6an had a reason for not speaking to me, but Fahad ?

He was being immature and childish.

Every night all I would do is go online and wait for him.

I figuired he blocked, till finaly after midnight he logged in.



long time no talk fahad

yeah well ive been busy

since when? your always on at midnight ;s

the world doesnt revolve around you hadeel

waih shfeek 3alay ?! ;s fahad you cant possibly be upset from that

from what ?

me not giving you my number !

bullshit hadeel !

ok now youve gone too far ;s talk to me zay el 3alam wl nas ow wallahi al 3theem ra7 asaweelik block and delete !

is that a threat ?

hell yeah !

badeena medat lesan shayef

mu g3da amed shay fahad bs inik ur acting so immature.. kefi i dont feel relaxed giving you my number... atleast not just yet

ok

so can we please just put this all behind us and move on.. min jd shay ma ystahel za3al

;******

lol i'll take that as a sorry ;p

;)




Fahad and I went back to talking everynight.. and with each night passing I started to like him more and more.

I loved talking to him.

I couldnt wait to get back home and talk to him.

As weird as it may seem, I would sometimes not log off and keep the volume to the max just incase he signed in anytime during the day.

I felt like I could talk to him about anything.

I wanted to give him my number but I was scared.

Ive never done anything like this before.

It almost seems too good to be true.

Could someone you meet on the internet be safe ?

I wanted to talk to him, get to know him more.

Then if things go the way I plan, then I will let him in deeper into my life.

But what about his ex ?

What if he still has feelings for her ?

He seemd pretty upset.

Was it regret ?

Does he miss her ?

This is what he did to me !

I still haven't herd his voice yet and I'm over thinking !

I'm going insane...



One late night after a night out with the girls, I was exhausted.

I could barely move.

We had a long day of shopping and all I wanted to do was sleep.

I didn't even bother to remove my makeup or change.

I just threw myself onto my bed and doveright into my dreams.


A couple of hours later at around 4 am my phone starts to vibrate.

Usualy vibrations never wake me but my phone was in my pocket so...



Hello ?

...: Hallah wallah

Sorry but I think you have the wrong number...

...: La la I absolutly have the right number.

Listen ana mani fathya la hathal 7arakat fa goodbye.

...: Yallah 3ad Hadeel

What did you just call me ?

...: Hadeel el '3alya

Who the hell is this ?

...: Guess hehe..

Goodbye

Fahad: La la wait wait hahahaha Hadeel it's me Fahad !

W-w-wha-what-what ?

Fahad: Haha sorry I know it's late.

Fahad how on earth did you get my number ?!!!

Fahad: If a guy wants something he can get it in a snap

Just like how a girl's reputation and get ruined in a snap !!

Fahad: 7beebty la t5afeen I would never allow anything to happen to you. Hatha wa3ad meni ana.

I told you I wasn't ready togive you my number and you go and get it !!

Fahad: I have a friend who works at STC so I gave him your name..

I don' care Fahad ! What you did was so shady and Im so angry !

Fahad: Wallah Im sorry I didn't want to bs I couldnt help myself.. I needed to hear your voice.. please sam7eeny

Asam7k ba3ad esh ? You already did the action !

Fahad: Hadeel please..

Im gonna say goodnight now Fahad.

Fahad: Listen your exhausted now. Rest, and tommorow I'll call you.

Ya rabiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii !!!!

Fahad: 7beebty please la tz3aleen meni..

I'll be fine.. nshoof bkrah wsh y9eer.

Fahad: Goodnight 7beebty.. sweet dreams..

What Fate Holds For Me 5

umm im sorry bs .. no ;s

aha..

plz la tz3al bs taw el nas bdrii o we barley know eachother fahood

hadeel we've been talking for hours each and every night.. we know eachother inside and out.

im sorry bs i dont think ts such a good idea.. ur still a stranger to me.

aha i see.. a stranger ? inzain ana i have to go now.

yallah 3ad fahood dont be like that.. mala da3i hathal 7araka

i said goodnight hadeel



And just like that he signed off.

I was furious.

He was causing a conflict mala da3i.

9ayer shway daloo3.

Wsh tha ?

La wallah ma 3ndi ketha.. ha..

I erased him from my mind and went to bed.


The next day I woke up to find Sul6an downstairs sitting with my mom.

Turns out he was just stopping by to deliever something his mother asked him to.

When I saw his face I smiled.. I thought he was here to see me.

But after what had happend why would he?



Sul6an: 9ba7 el 5air..

Hey..

Mama: Nzain Sul6an why don't you join us for lunch ?

Sul6an: Actualy 5alty I was hoping me and Hadeel would go out to lunch.

Huh ?

Mama: Akeed laish la2. Hadeel ro7y lbsii 3adel.

Sul6an: Yallah na6rik hehe..



So he was here for me.

I have to say I was surprised.

What could he possibly want from me ?

I quickly rushed upstairs and wore the first thing that hit my eye.

Knee length shorts and an orange top with a white kinda see through cardigan.



We had an amazing lunch.

It's like nothing ever happend.

We talked about everything and catched up.

He made me laugh so hard that I actualy teared up.

I needed this day, this lunch with Sul6an.


After lunch we decided we would go back to my house and watch a movie.

Mama wasn't home so we had the 9alah all to ourselves.

I made us some popcorn and popped the movie in.

We would watch Katkoot.

I loved that movie.

Egyptian movies are one of the things eli ygdr yws3 9adrii..

This movie was one of my favorites.


All of a sudden he gets up.



Sul6an: I wanna go see your room hehehehe ..

Oh my god it totaly changed since last time you saw it .. malik salfah yallah bs sit back down !

Sul6an: La2 ana aby aroo7...

Haha inzain yallah hurry back down



He was gone for over 5 minutes.

Does it really take that long for a simple peek ?


When he finaly did come down he seemed diffirent.

His expression totaly changed on me.

He said he had to leave.

I asked him what was wrong, but all he said to me was that he didn't feel too well.

He was fine just a second ago.. I sensed something wasn't right...

I walked him to his car and watched him drive away.

He didn't even say goodbye.


I cleaned up the 9alah and went up to my room.

The first think that captured my eye was my laptop.

It was on turned on.

I immediately dialed Fara7's number.



Sul6an saw it all !!

Fara7: Whoah whoah .. saw what ?

He knows Fara7, he knows !!

What Fate Holds For Me 4

I know it's short you guys.. bs I promise a longer one tommorow :)
ILY all so much !!! ;**********








That night...



LOL !!!

your too too cute !!!

hehe.. so now do i get to know ur name ? ;(

mmmmmm...

yallah 3ad I wanna know who im talking to..

say please ;p

pretty please with cherries and whipped cream on top !!

fahad



(( Yes mimi-7 it is Fahad ;p haha kan eb balii mn zaman ;** ILY ))



fahad... fahad... fahad :D

lol shfeek ?

bs mani m9adga inah u finaly told me ur name.. it wasnt that hard !

so is your boyfriend ok with you talking to me ?

la la lat 6ale3 kalam min aflam al7een ;p

ahaa zain ashwa ma 3ndik .. la koon g3d athye3 wgtii...

lol ...




The days went by and Fahad and I were speaking more and more.

From the very begining my plan was to get his name and end it.

But I couldn't.

When we talked.. we actualy talked.

He listend.

He gave me advice.

He made me laugh.

He made me smile.

He was sweet.

He was caring.

He was not what I expected at all.



One Month Later...



I still hadn't told the girls about my late night conversations with Fahad.

I was afraid they would judge me since they know I'm against all this.

It was time.. they had to know.

I couldn't handel keeping it in so long.



Farah: 7beebty you know you can always come to us.. for anything..

I know bs I was afraid you guys would judge me ...

Farah: Are you happy ?

Yes.

Deema: 6yb 5ala9 hatha aham shay !

Bs I really like him. Y3ni I can't wait till the end of my day to get back home and talk to him.

Fara7: Maybe that's not such a bad thing. Sometimes the weird can be good.

Deema: Hahahahahahahahaaaaaaa weird !!

Bs what if he's just playing ? What if I'm just a game ? What if he doesn't feel the same way I do.

Fara7: What if what itf what if !! Stop asking questions and go figuire them out !!

That's you guys excusing me right ?



Y7belhooooooooooom !!

I rushed home.

I even ran a red light.

Thats what he did to me.

Fahad had this effect on me.



hey you !!

ahlain

how was ur day ?

ok

what did you do ?

dewania

anything intresting happen ?

no

fahood shfeek mu 3ala b3thek ?

tired

6yb 3alaqal give me a full sentence. I know your not ok.. talk to me please.

my girlfriend called me today

oh...

well my ex girlfriend

mind if i ask what happend ?

we broke up 2 years ago so i was surprised when i got her call. she wanted to meet up.. catch up. bs i said no.

im sorry ?

its ok. forget about her. im sorry i took it out on u.

3adii 7ayatii dont worry about it

7ayatii ?

lol sorry it just came out ;s

lol dont be.. nshallah ra7 etgoleena dayman ;p

ummm.. ok ;$

fdait eli ysta7oon ;**

hehe..

can i ask u something ?

sure

sam7een7 bs can i have ur number ?

What Fate Holds For Me 3 B.

We started talking on msn.

Everything seemed normal.

He seemed like a normal guy.

We talked for about an hour until I had to go meet the girls.

Yet he still didn't give me his name.

This time I gave him an excuse, but the next time we talked... I wouldn't.



During dinner I couldn't focus.

Words would go into one ear and out the next.

All I wanted was to know what F stoof for.

Not like it would change anything... but I needed to know so bad.

So that night we talked.




you know your one tough guy to figuire out

and your one though girl to find

speaking of which how did you ever see me ?

well to be honest i go to a completly diffirent uni, i was just there for the day with a friend of mine.

wow lie number one should got slammed fast. when's lie numbet wo showing up ?

hadeel im sorry.. i just.. i dunno.. forgive me?

so you saw me around campus and asked about me...

i asked a friend of mine who asked his friend who's a girl.

so this girl do i know her ? who is she ?

that i cant say.. i cant answer either question. sorry.

so then what university ?

regents.. now please enough with the questions. we have plenty of time to get to know one another.

sure

so how was your day ?

it was good, i went and had dinner with a few friends.

where ?

maki

lol i was there too

didn't you say you were in london ?

yeah but im in kuwait now for the summer ;p

mmm..

mm inty ;p

lol ;$

listen i gotta go now but i'll see you tommorow right ?

yeah

awal ma tgomeen sign in !!

lol ok ok !

yallah goodnight yal '3alya ;*

night..

That nigth before I rested my head on my pillow I started to wonder.

Wondering about Fahad.

I mean what did fate have planned ?

I always looked down on people who befriend someone online, yet here I am one of them.

Just as I was drifting off to sleep my phone vibrated from underneath my pillow.

I wondered who could be calling at this hour.

It was Farah.

Farah: I can't sleep !

3adi yallah bkrah ry7een el shalaih

Farah: Eeh bs magdar anaaaaaaaaaaaam !

Mmmm.. ooh did I tell you ?

Farah: WHAT ?

I was at my grandmothers house and Sul6an caught me sneaking out the back trying to avoid him !! Fashlaaaa !!

Farah: Hahahahahahah !! Ra7amtik wallah I can just picture it !

Oh god... it's him !

Farah: Who him ?!

Him him ! Sul6an ! He's on the other line !

Farah: Answer !

I was surprised to see his name on the screen.

He usualy never calls, especialy not at this time of night.

Just as I was slowly getting over the fact that he caught me, he opened it up.

Sul6an: You shouldn't have to be embaressed you know.

Put yourself in my position and then think about what you just said.

Sul6an: Hadeel I just wanted to have dinner with my cousin that's all. And If I did anything to make you think otherwise then I'm sorry. I'll be careful with my words next time. And I know it's late bs I just had to tell you. Didn't want you to sleep bothered.

Oh you have no idea how glad I am to hear you say that ! Weew !

The next day I woke up bright and early to go shopping.

I hated shopping in crowds.

It disgusted me.

I like it when its calm and peacful.

When I don't have to fight throught to get an item.

When shopping I always liked to go alone.

No one attached with me.

Taking my time without someone's shoulder over me.

I would meet up with the girl's for lunch afterwards.

But before I went I just signed into msn to say goodmorning to F liked I promised and that I was going shopping and would talk to him later that night.

I had to many bags to carry that it was hard for me to walk all the way to my car.

Then out of no where this guy come's along and carries my bags and puts them in the back seat of the car.

He was gorgeous, just gorgeous !

He was tall and muscelar.

What I love most in a man are dimples and arms.

And he had them both perfectly made.

Shkran wallah ma ga9art y5ooy.

: 3afwan wallah it was my pleasure.

Well ummm bye...

: Uhh so where you heading off to ?

I've got plans with friends.

: I'm sorry and I know this is a little too forward bs ---

Oh.. umm I'm sorry. But I'm just not dating anyone right now.

: Oh ok.. no problem. You take care now.

What was wrong with me ?

He was a perfect gentelman and he was cute !

And I still refused.

Once I got in my car all I could think about was getting back home and talking to F.

I wanted to know his name, to know him.

What Fate Holds For Me 3 A.

The next day was just another typical Friday.

As always we would all gather together at my grand parent's house to have lunch.

I was planning on not going but once I herd Sul6an wasn't going I decided to go.

Facing him will take time.


The lunch went great but moved very slowly as usual.

I felt like I was in a car ride that just wouldn't stop.

I loved my family and all but Friday's mostly consisted of bordom.



During lunch my grandmother asked me to get an extra plate from the kitchen.

So I did as I was told.

Just a few seconds later I hear a familiar voice.

I couldn't really make out who it was but it was definitly familiar.

Putting the plate down I snuck half my head out the door to get a peek.

With a huge gasp I pulled myself back in.

No way !

No way !

No way !

They all said he wasn't coming.

What was I to do ?

No way was I going to go back out there.

Not now.

I wasn't ready to face him.


It's a good thing I didn't bring a handbag or anything with me, Just my cell phone.


There was a back door in the kithen leading out to the garden, which led to the driveway where my car was.

I managed to escape.



Sul6an: Tisk tisk tisk.. sneaking off in the middle of lunch. Now I'm just disappointed.

Hehe... I didn't know you were here.

Sul6an: Oh but you did. I saw you pop yor little head.

I'm sorry ok.. I shouldn't have treated you the way I did. You didn't deserve any of it.

Sul6an: So then what's going on with you ?

I'm afraid that you have.... feeling's for me.

Sul6an: Ok your joking right ? Please tell me your joking. Hadeel I love you yeah.. but your my cousin. My sister. That's all there will ever be. So don't worry, your safe.

Oh gosh, now I feel like a complete ideot...

Now run along little one and I promise not to say where the little piggy has run off to.



That was probably the most humiliating thing that has ever happend to me.

But whatver right ?

I brushed it off my shoulders and headed back home.

My mom called yelling at me.

But I just made up an excuse that I was tired.

Bored sitting on my bed, I decided to see if F had left me another e-mail.



Ma radeety 3alay ams.
3asa ma thayagtik ?
Wallah asfa sam7eeny..
Shaklii 3aref jawabek..
Ra7 a5aleek..
Radeety 3alay awal marra o 6amanteeny inah intii o shkran.
aham shay hatha 3ndii..
Allah ywafgek eb 7ayatik ya Hadeel..
Ma3al salamah..

- F


Ok he just kinda broke my heart right there.

What's the harm in just talking to him ?

He seems pretty decent to me.

Oo byan inah m2adeb.



Hey.. sorry about not replying yesterday.
I'm just not used to these sort of things.
I'm still a little confused as to how you got my e-mail and where you saw me.



I was hoping you'd reply soon :)
I know your not used to these things and I don't wanna put any kind of pressure on you.
Like I told you before, I've seen you around campus.
As for your e-mail... well were guys we know how to get what we want fast.
But don't worry LOL.. your safe with me.

- F



Aha...
So what does the F stand for ?
You still haven't told me who my secret admirer is.



Oh you'll know soon enough...
Listen why don't we move this over onto msn. Much easier, don't you think ?

- F



Umm yeah sure.. msn... see you there...



I wanted to know who he was so badly.

This guy was practicly obsessed with me from his words and I wanted to know who he was.

Why was he contacting me ?

What more does he want to say on msn ?

Really, what does fate hold for me ?

What Fate Holds For Me 2

That night I logged onto my email.

I recieved an anonymous message.



Hadeel wallah ma tdreen shkthr wagt a5athnii 3ashan alageek..
Mu ga9dy a5awfek m3 hathal rsalah.. bs lw feeni kan jeetlik al7een..
Shftek eb London el shahr eli fat.. o mo9er inah aklmik..
bs kl ma shftik sta7ait wallah..
Shftek hatha marra eb kl makan.. 9dfa wallah..
A5eeran lageetik..
Mub lazim trdeen 3alay.. bs a5eeran 3rfty ana meen o kalamtik..
Hatha el shay eli knt abeeh..
Sam7eeny yal '3alya.. o tsba7een 3ala 5air..

- F



I couldn't sleep that night.

Constantly having the laptop next to me.

Just as I would almost click the reply button, I'd quickly stop myself.

I mean what am I even thinking ?

For all I know this guy could be some crazy nutcase who escaped from a mental institution!

But I have to say, I was flattered and kinda blushed while reading the e-mail.

Nothing wrong with that.

Finaly I decided to delete the nonsense e-mail and go to sleep.

The next day I had my dinner with Sul6an.

But that wasn't till later.

So I decided to go out and have lunch with my mom.

God I missed her.

She was always there for me when I needed her.

She truly is my inspiration.

The one who helped me follow my dreams and make them happen.

She's my mother.. my best friend.

She isn't that old too you know.

She had me at a young age, straight after she got married to my dad.

People think were sisters when they see us.

My mom.. honestly no words can even begin to describe her.

A rare jewel, that's what she is.



Mama: Doolii yallah 3ad bs bala sa5afa.. wsh thal tafkeer el fathyy.

It's not mama !! Wallah this isn't like him. It's been 2 years since I've seen him, 5air wsh yby.

Mama: La 7awl wala qoowat ela bellah.. your being paranoid. Stop over examining everything. Like you said it's been 2 years since he's seen you. He just want's to catch up.

Yeah.. maybe your right. Let's order.


Maybe my mom was right.

Maybe I was just over examining everything.

I tend to do that alot.

I began to get ready.

I wanted to wear something causal yet stylish.

Scared that if I wore something too formal he would get the wrong idea.

I wore a pair of long black leggings and a loose flowly thigh length black top.

Ok I'm not emo or anything but I just love the way black looks on me.

I aaccesorized with a pair of small diamond earing and a a bunch of long gold necklaces.

I looked so chic, along with my hot red heels.

It wasn't formal.. not too much. Just perfect.



Sul6an: Wow you didn't need to get all dressed up for me.

I didn't.

Sul6an: O..k... so anyways how's London. I wanna know eveything !

Not much. College that's all. Why do you care anyways ?

Sul6an: Cause I care about you.

Mmm...

Sul6an: Are you ok? You seema bit off ?

Will you just get off my back and stop caring so much ! I'm fine ! Agh !

Sul6an: Ok seriosuly I've had it. I dont know whats going on with you but do not take it out on me. I just wanted to have dinner with my cousin. This entire evening has been hell !

Sul6an wait dont.............. leave...



I over examined again didn't I ?

Well I can't help it I this is me.

This was not how I wanted the evening to go at all.

I got home and started remembering what went down.

I cannot believe my attitude towards him.

He did nothing what so ever to deserve my crap.

I have to apologize to him, but how can I face him after tonight ?

This was all messed up.

I need to see a therapist.

I need medication.

I need the mental institution.


I snapped out of my head and came back into reality.

Cuddeling into bed I opend up my laptop to check my email, like I do every night.

I was shocked.

It was the anonymous F again.

Didn't he say he wasn't going to talk to me again ?

Hmmm...



Hallah Hadeel.. darii darii ini ga6a3t klmatii bs ma gdrt wallah.
Y3nii 6ool thal wagt oo ana adawr 3leek o alageek.
3alaqal bs rdii 3alay 3ashan a3rf oo at2akad inah intii.. ma aby aftha7 nafsii.
Allah yertha 3leeki..

- F



This time I replied.

I had to.

The boy is dying inside.

I put myself in his situation and what I would have wanted.

I felt sorr for him.

There is no harm in just assuring him that it's me.

And if he crosses the line I can just easily block him off my hotmail account.

Simple as that.



You can be assured that it's me. And thank you so much wallah I'm flattered and all.
But this just isn't my thing. Talking to strangers, especialy anonymouse strangers.
If you don't mind me asking, can I please know your name? I wanna know the person that's stalking me ;p



He instintly replied back.



A5eeran radeety 3alay.
Shnu stalker haha I wouldn't call it that.
I would just say... a secret admirer. ;p
How's Kuwait ?
Don't worry I didn't stalk that far.
I herd inah you were going there for the summer.

- F



LOL !
A secret admirer huh ?
Well I'm sorry to have to let you down but like I said I don't do this kinda thing.
Anyways thank you so much for your e-mails, really I'm flattered.
But this has to end here.
tc :)



What if I don't want it to end ?
I mean I saw you. But you could just as easily see me.
I'm sure you haven't missed me around campus.
Anyways.. I really don't want to stop talking to you Hadeel.
Is there any way ?
I'll follow any rules and stay away from any red lines.

- F



I know what I was about to do was wrong.

And if Fara7 and Deema were here they'd probably slam my head against the wall.

But whats the harm of just talking to him for a bit ?

Just for a little bit ...

What Fate Holds For Me 1

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It was finaly summer!

I was finaly gonna go back to Kuwait.

God I missed it.

My friends, my family.

Sure, I love London but I missed home.

I missed my warm bed.

I missed the family gatherings we had every Friday night.

I missed those girl talks with my best friends.

I missed everything.

I wish I could just drop everything and go back but I couldnt.

I've worked so hard to get to where I am now.

Throwing all that way would just cause disappointment to those I love.

Everything was perfect for me in London.

I had a beautifuly furnished two bedroom apartment.

A maid that comes in everyday to clean.

Both my parents made sure I was taken care of.

Plus I had my own car, a Porche Cayene.

It was gorgeous !

I got it just before I moved to London.

It was dark red on the outside, and a beige cream color on the inside.

I just loved the smell of leather !


So I was finaly going back to Kuwait for the summer.

Kl el 3arab jayeen 3ala London oo ana eli rada elKuwait. Hehehe..

I've got my tongue all mixed up.

My dad's Saudi and my mom is Kuwaitii..

Bs most of my family on both sides speak najdii..



I packed up my things and was all ready to go.

God I missed the shalaih.

The sea was my getaway.

I'd wake up in the middle of the night and just lye under the stars listening to country music. Which I love by the way.. so much!



I was finaly home..


Mamaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!

Mama: 7beeebtyyy el7mdelah 3al salamah !!

Babaaaaa agh I missed you both so much !!

Baba: 7beebty wallah we missed you more.. everything is waiting to see you back at home.

Laaa I don't want a big family gathering.. not now.. not today !

Mama: 7beebty they missed you..

Uff fine..



I was finaly home.

Before entering our house I took a moment to take it all in.

Looking at the place where I grew up..

It's been a year since I've been home.

But it seems like even more.


Everyone practicly jumped me the second I walked in the door.

Anymore and I would have suffocated.

Salamt 3ala my family and I told them about London and university.

They were all so happy for me, I just had one more year to go.

I was finaly going to be an artist.

I've loved painting ever since I was a little girl.

Just a hobby. I never planned on turning it into a career.

Hopefuly I'm planning on opening my own gallery.



Ahlain Sul6an..

Sul6an: Hallah wallah bl '3alya.. Kefik ?

Tamam wallah o ent kefik ?

Sul6an: Dam enah your here 5ala9.. Hadeel nawarat el Kuwait wallah..

Haha y7lelik.

Sul6an: Wsh 3ndik elyoum ?

Ra7 ashoof Fara7 oo Deema.

Sul6an: 5a9ara wallah knt aby a3asheeki ..

Tommorow night ?

Sul6an: 5ala9 it's a date..



I started to get ready for our big girl's night out.

I took a warm hot shower and started to apply my makeup.

I had no clue what to wear.

Even though I had a huge walk in closet.

It felt like a tiny cabinet.

After twenty minutes of messing up my enire closet I finaly picked out an outfit.

A white mini floral dress with a bunch of red flowery prints.

Wore my hair up in a high ponytail.

And ofcourse my new gold Chanel ballerina's.



Fara7: Trust me you haven't missed a thing. Your the one in London so tell us !

There's nothing much to tell really. This year has been crazy with studying. I need this summer to kick ass !

Deema: It will ! Raz7 nkoon bl shalaih most of the time.

Perfect!

Fara7: So any guy news ?

Haha I wish! La wallah.. I mean there's been some eye flirting but that's it. I don't even have time for a relationship now. Maybe in a year.

Deema: A year ! You must be joking !

Well unlike some people I can controle my urges and not date TWO guys at the same time !

Deema: Well what can I say.. *sigh* their both great men. I'm just taking my time to see which one deservs me more.

Fara7: El7mdelah oo el shkr...

Don't act so innocent Faroo7. How many times have you been on and off with 7amani ?

Fara7: Hey I didn't say I was proud..

Oh but get this. Today I saw Sul6an and he was a little weird.. He kept this constant smile on his face while talking to me and he invited me out to dinner tommorow.

Deema: Hadeel he's your second cousin and he wants to take you out on a welcome back home dinner. What's the big deal ?

I dunno.. it's just that something didn't feel right. I got chills up and down my spine when he said dinner.

Fara7: Maybe your developing feelings for him.

I talked to him for one second. And we've known eachother since we were kids. That's not how love at first sight goes.



1 Message Recieved


Hadeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel !!
Meshtaglik wallah..
Have fun on your girl's night ;**



Fara7: Ok why are you staring at your phone k2anik mafjoo3a ?

Something just isn't right...



That night I logged onto my email.

I recieved an anonymous message.



Hadeel .....

The Other Man 33 FINAL

It was Msh3al all along.

It just took me so long to see it.

To believe it.

Although, I dont regret Bader. I dont think I ever will.

I loved Bader and he was a huge part of my life.

He also brought me here, to this place.

To the place where I stand now.. with Msh3al.

I will never forget Bader.

He will always have a place in my heart.

I don't think I ever stopped loving Bader.

But Msh3al was mine.

He always was.


What man would stand by you through all this ?

He never left me.

He had many chances to get up and just walk away but he didnt.

Mahma 9ar, we were always husband and wife.





Bader understood why I had to stay with Msh3al.

He told me that he wasnt surprised and that he knew exactley what was going to happen on the plane.

He took both my hands and looked me deep in the eyes and told me he understood.

And he let me go.

I know it wasn't easy for him. I could see it in his eyes.

This time he was finaly ready to have me, to have all of me.

But he was in Msh3al's shoes this time.. and he finaly let go of me, all of me.

Do I wish things were diffirent ?

That answer I dont think I'll ever know.


My whole life was a mystery.

A puzzle waiting to be solved.

A case that would never be closed.


I dont know what the future hold's but what I do know that it will forever be with Msh3al.






Me: So get this.. I go to the doctor's office and guess what...

Msh3al: What ?

Me: I'm pregnant !!!

Msh3al: .............................................................

Me: Msh3al.... baby..... baby...... ooooooookaaaaaaaay... so I've left some water next to you here.. so wheneever your ready...



THE END !






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